ow tummy :(

so i think i'm sick.

sunday at work i started getting a really bad cough and had to try hard not to cough on everyone's food (which i somewhat succeeded at... though was very uncomfortable with for several hours)... then yesterday i had really bad tummy cramps that were like bad period cramps but i wasn't having my period (stoopid)...

so then today, at work, i was scheduled for an 8 hour shift... but i left after not even 4!!! at first, i just had really bad cramps (i had taken at least 5 advil earlier during the day) so i figured i could just "ignore" them... but then i started feeling really really really hot!!! like, i felt like i was in a sauna or something... so i was like, it'll pass... it'll pass... but it didn't and i started shaking (i kept dropping people's change) so i went to talk to the head cashier man. when i tried to explain to him how i was sick, i kept stuttering and my voice got all thick like i was going to cry... i think he thought i was having a mental breakdown or something because he just kept saying he didn't want me to be stressed... but i wasn't! and i kept trying to explain but it was too hard and i started getting chills... it was pretty scary.

so then i punched out and walked across the street to the number 17 bus (in pain) and i was so hot i didn't even put on my jacket (i was wearing a tank top and a 3/4 length tee). i got on the bus... i heard a girl on her cell saying how it was so "OMG COLD" outside... and called dan to let him know i was coming over because i didn't think i could wait to get home (10 min bus, 8 min walk... dan is about a 5 min bus and 1/2 min walk away). i started crying quietly... i don't know why... i was just really sad. i was pretty mad at myself for leaving work... for one, i need the money, two, i kept thinking i could've persevered more... that i should've stayed.

so then i got to dan's and he let me in and i just had a hot shower for a looooong time while i wondered what to do. in the end, i just had some ravioli and then slept and slept and slept for maybe 5/6 hours, then had lots of apple juice. i feel a lot better, but not fully better. i'm not hot anymore... just a bit of headache and tummy cramps left... i hope i'm better tomorrow :(


arg. still tired. i have to write a french comp and think up something to say for my english presentation tomorrow (woohoo). i kinda wanna do my chem lab as well but i think that'll take too long (estimated 3 hours for each lab)... soooooo i dunno. i think i should sleep more. then again, i have a midterm for math and a french test and an english paper due on friday so i kind of hafta get things moving along... :\ such bad circumstances :P oh well. it's weird 'cause i don't really get stressed over school anymore. it's kind of bad.

getting sick is stupid. it shouldn't be an option. seriously. arg.

okay, gonna do french then english then sleep :) i like sleep... is good.

sleep is kind of like being dead..? isn't it? :\ anyways, it's late. i keep wanting to nap but i usually don't wake up till morning once i start sleeping :P

byebye,
chels

ps- for those of you wondering (AARON), there is a big hint to my "secret" in this entry. i only realised it after i finished typing and was gonna change it, but then was like, whatever. you'll find out eventually anyways.
pps- don't think too big. it's not very crazy at all... and you guys have too much imagination for me to handle :P