hey guys
aaron:
I think you're a waffle make up your mind. (8jon and i got into an argument where he thought i thought i was always right so if i say i think it will not seem like that SO MUCH)
you guys, if we can either meet on jan 5th (cause i think my sis wants to spend her bday with her bf) or Jan 6th sunday (latest 7) or thurs 3rd...
but i'm not sure when my family will have a bday dinner for my sis or my bro (jan 8th) but i'll know by tomorrow hopefully so i'll keep you posted.
Monday, December 31, 2007
make up your mind!
aaron chan!!! not to tell you what to do or anything, but it just seems to me like you're making things way more complicated than necessary.
it's like you and conor are in an on-again-off-again relationship, even though the total relationshipness has been like... not very long! (a couple weeks?)
and when you said "And we proved we could still be friends, so it wouldn't be that much different." i don't get it! what are you talking about? you mean after the first time you guys made out and then you agreed to be friends and then you made out more?
that sounds mad... but it's really not. just the way the words look on the page. and you know where you guys stand and about your relationship way more than i do, just that with the information you have provided us on the blog, this is how i interpret what is happening. you should do whatever you think is right, in the end, because it's you (not me!) who has to deal with whatever happens.
anyways i just kind of feel like you are backing out of a lot of your decisions. like before you said you wanted to be friends and agreed, then ended up making out again. then, when you decided you did want to "test the waters" or go out or whatever the hell you want to call it, and you guys end up making out, you basically break up with him (as temporary or not as it may be).
WHAT DO YOU WANT?????? (not angry! just emphasis!)
figure it out and stop confusing everyone!!! (not angry, just urgency!)
lily, sounds good. but january 6th is a sunday. which is the day before school starts (which is fine for me as long as we don't stay till 11 as usual because it takes me an hour to get home).
-chels
it's like you and conor are in an on-again-off-again relationship, even though the total relationshipness has been like... not very long! (a couple weeks?)
and when you said "And we proved we could still be friends, so it wouldn't be that much different." i don't get it! what are you talking about? you mean after the first time you guys made out and then you agreed to be friends and then you made out more?
that sounds mad... but it's really not. just the way the words look on the page. and you know where you guys stand and about your relationship way more than i do, just that with the information you have provided us on the blog, this is how i interpret what is happening. you should do whatever you think is right, in the end, because it's you (not me!) who has to deal with whatever happens.
anyways i just kind of feel like you are backing out of a lot of your decisions. like before you said you wanted to be friends and agreed, then ended up making out again. then, when you decided you did want to "test the waters" or go out or whatever the hell you want to call it, and you guys end up making out, you basically break up with him (as temporary or not as it may be).
WHAT DO YOU WANT?????? (not angry! just emphasis!)
figure it out and stop confusing everyone!!! (not angry, just urgency!)
lily, sounds good. but january 6th is a sunday. which is the day before school starts (which is fine for me as long as we don't stay till 11 as usual because it takes me an hour to get home).
-chels
Friday, December 28, 2007
I is for Infinitesimal
And I thought 2 weeks and 5 days was short.
Conor came over to my house to hang out today because we were both kinda bored. We just sat around my room, listening to my awesome music and talking about stuff, and I noticed that he was even more affectionate than usual, and seemed pretty happy to see me. He mentioned something about being in a relationship together which kinda threw me back because I had thought all this time that we were still "testing the waters" (or "casually dating") but nothing official was called. And then he established that we officially were in a relationship last Sunday, on my birthday party, which sort off took me by surprise again.
So one thing lead to another and we were fooling around once again. After, I felt kinda guilty for some reason, and I guess I realized it was because I could see that he really liked me, but that I don't like him that way back. I mean, he's a cool guy to hang out with but I still don't feel romantically about him, and that makes me feel even worse. I told him a little bit about this while walking him to the bus stop later that night, that I thought he was maybe a little too young and how we were going too fast (because when we meet, we fool around and do stupid things). Don't get me wrong about the age thing; his age doesn't bother me, it's the things about being 15 that bother me (ie. level of maturity). So we talked a bit more, and we didn't know what to do. When I suggested we take a break, he agreed. So I guess we're on a break now.
When I think about Conor, I can totally see him being a smart, mature, adult in the future, but right now, I don't know if he's right for me. It's not really a win-win situation, but I'm thinking about calling it off with Conor. Or we could just stay on our break and never get back together. And we proved we could still be friends, so it wouldn't be that much different.
Sigh... I hate boy troubles. I honestly thought I'd be better at relationships, but the two that I've been in so far haven't lasted very long... haha.
~~Aaron
Conor came over to my house to hang out today because we were both kinda bored. We just sat around my room, listening to my awesome music and talking about stuff, and I noticed that he was even more affectionate than usual, and seemed pretty happy to see me. He mentioned something about being in a relationship together which kinda threw me back because I had thought all this time that we were still "testing the waters" (or "casually dating") but nothing official was called. And then he established that we officially were in a relationship last Sunday, on my birthday party, which sort off took me by surprise again.
So one thing lead to another and we were fooling around once again. After, I felt kinda guilty for some reason, and I guess I realized it was because I could see that he really liked me, but that I don't like him that way back. I mean, he's a cool guy to hang out with but I still don't feel romantically about him, and that makes me feel even worse. I told him a little bit about this while walking him to the bus stop later that night, that I thought he was maybe a little too young and how we were going too fast (because when we meet, we fool around and do stupid things). Don't get me wrong about the age thing; his age doesn't bother me, it's the things about being 15 that bother me (ie. level of maturity). So we talked a bit more, and we didn't know what to do. When I suggested we take a break, he agreed. So I guess we're on a break now.
When I think about Conor, I can totally see him being a smart, mature, adult in the future, but right now, I don't know if he's right for me. It's not really a win-win situation, but I'm thinking about calling it off with Conor. Or we could just stay on our break and never get back together. And we proved we could still be friends, so it wouldn't be that much different.
Sigh... I hate boy troubles. I honestly thought I'd be better at relationships, but the two that I've been in so far haven't lasted very long... haha.
~~Aaron
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Monday, December 24, 2007
sorry for not saying anything for the past week, i tried to view the blog here but it doesn't work, i can only post :( so email me if you have anything to say..its christmas here today so merry christmas everyone :) hope life is well, i found out that i failed econ..but i'm pretty sure i'm not on academic probation, so it's gonna be okay. i hope you passed bio chels, you probly mentioned it in the blog but i can't see it :P my cellphone actually works here i sent a text message, which probly costed me 5 bucks..going online is too hard here, i have to go to my dad's house cause my grandma doesn't have internet access or a computer, so i'll probly talk to you guys when i get back.
ann
ann
i'm not sure about the internet thing with ann but when i was in shanghai (which is obviously different from beijing) my dad had to pay for the internet/ second. So maybe she's cheap and doesn't want to spend it on the blog or something.
My throat is misbehaving...:(
it's jon's birthday today.
I spent $300 USD so i'm not really eager to spend much more but then again i need to get aaron something. I hope the thing i want to get him is uber cheap so that means more money for me.
Do you guys want to beat the boxing day crowds/lineups or do you want to go in the afternoon. I think for chels it would be in the morning because she's awake....i mean more awake.
i have christmas dinner today with my family on christmas eve and christmas dinner with jon's family on christmas day...weird eh?
well everything seems to be going well with me and jon.. we're going to take a pic with santa later today and then we're going to stay home...i really missed him,..we haven't seen each other for a day and a half but it seems longer for some weird reason.
Before he dropped me off at my sister's house (night before going to the states), we had an argument about a combination of things.. even though we didn't solve the problems, it's not important now...maybe it's cause it's christmas..
As for kevin's party on the 21st, chels you didn't miss much. We ate at banana leaf and then went to billy's house to play wii and monopoly. The monopoly was so cool. Instead of using cash we used CREDIT CARDS!!!!
At the end, kevin won but only because david yue was being a wuss and gave up and sold everything to kevin for really cheap. Ironically, david yue had the most property.
Anyways i need to go to the bank...ttyl
My throat is misbehaving...:(
it's jon's birthday today.
I spent $300 USD so i'm not really eager to spend much more but then again i need to get aaron something. I hope the thing i want to get him is uber cheap so that means more money for me.
Do you guys want to beat the boxing day crowds/lineups or do you want to go in the afternoon. I think for chels it would be in the morning because she's awake....i mean more awake.
i have christmas dinner today with my family on christmas eve and christmas dinner with jon's family on christmas day...weird eh?
well everything seems to be going well with me and jon.. we're going to take a pic with santa later today and then we're going to stay home...i really missed him,..we haven't seen each other for a day and a half but it seems longer for some weird reason.
Before he dropped me off at my sister's house (night before going to the states), we had an argument about a combination of things.. even though we didn't solve the problems, it's not important now...maybe it's cause it's christmas..
As for kevin's party on the 21st, chels you didn't miss much. We ate at banana leaf and then went to billy's house to play wii and monopoly. The monopoly was so cool. Instead of using cash we used CREDIT CARDS!!!!
At the end, kevin won but only because david yue was being a wuss and gave up and sold everything to kevin for really cheap. Ironically, david yue had the most property.
Anyways i need to go to the bank...ttyl
boxing day shops
yeah, i'm up for it, i think (shopping). we can go whereever you want. i don't know if i'll buy anything (unless we find some crazy good deals, like things for under $10--but otherwise, no). bank account says NOOOOO!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! i'm not gonna survive much longer without dipping into my RESP (which i didn't want to do quite yet) :( and no one is getting christmas presents from me! (including dan. well, kind of. i bought him $20 pants but then again i owed him a lot of money...)
aaaaaaanyways. yeah, lily. you're not the only one going broke! well i'm not really broke but... kind of. more broke than before. also when i was volunteering i HAD to buy something to eat/drink like, maybe 2 or 3 of my 6 days.
aarie: why are you being such a creeper? (not really saying anything... creepily!) i feel like you're really holding back
yeah, sorry i don't ever call anyone... i usually wake up early, still (anywhere between 530 and 630 usually) and that's when i'm most awake (ie wanting to call people/organize things, etc). then i usually go to dan's house (i find people less angry there) (NOT at 6am though! i do stuff around the house till maybe 930?). and then we have breakfast, hang out, do stuff (whatever it is we feel like. ie go out, watch movies, you know. i didn't mean "STUFF." just whatever.), and then i dunno... i get tired my late afternoon. i definitely have at least 10hours of sleep a night, but i seem to constantly get tired at that time (:. always making me have the same sleep pattern).
which is why i don't call anyone -- because i'm too tired by the time it's normal to call people.
back to aarie: why are you holding back? i feel the wall!!! and i don't like it. it's like you don't trust us. and that makes me feel like i have to hold back from you... lily or i will probably end up calling you to organize b-day plans (boxing) anyways so... we'll see!
ann must have internet connection, right? she's not just blocked off for some reason?
-chels
aaaaaaanyways. yeah, lily. you're not the only one going broke! well i'm not really broke but... kind of. more broke than before. also when i was volunteering i HAD to buy something to eat/drink like, maybe 2 or 3 of my 6 days.
aarie: why are you being such a creeper? (not really saying anything... creepily!) i feel like you're really holding back
yeah, sorry i don't ever call anyone... i usually wake up early, still (anywhere between 530 and 630 usually) and that's when i'm most awake (ie wanting to call people/organize things, etc). then i usually go to dan's house (i find people less angry there) (NOT at 6am though! i do stuff around the house till maybe 930?). and then we have breakfast, hang out, do stuff (whatever it is we feel like. ie go out, watch movies, you know. i didn't mean "STUFF." just whatever.), and then i dunno... i get tired my late afternoon. i definitely have at least 10hours of sleep a night, but i seem to constantly get tired at that time (:. always making me have the same sleep pattern).
which is why i don't call anyone -- because i'm too tired by the time it's normal to call people.
back to aarie: why are you holding back? i feel the wall!!! and i don't like it. it's like you don't trust us. and that makes me feel like i have to hold back from you... lily or i will probably end up calling you to organize b-day plans (boxing) anyways so... we'll see!
ann must have internet connection, right? she's not just blocked off for some reason?
-chels
Sunday, December 23, 2007
J is for Just
Do you ever get that feeling when you think you should say something just because someone should say something? (ie. breaking an awkward silence, but it's not an awkward silence in this case).
I don't know... I feel like I should say something just for the sake of saying something, except I don't really know what to say.
The thing with the christmas CD doesn't really interest me, but if you guys want to do it, then sure. I sound like my nose is stuffed when I record myself singing into the mic... I'm pretty sure it's me, but I don't know.
My mom got mad at me for lighting three candles in my room when I was trying to record a song. Obviously, turning 19 doesn't mean anything.
There is something that I can say, but I'm not sure if I want to announce it on the blog. So here's a random video of Ann and Dan back when. By the way, there's no sound because my camera doesn't record sound, so your speakers aren't broken, just so you know.
What are you guys doing these days?
~~Aaron
I don't know... I feel like I should say something just for the sake of saying something, except I don't really know what to say.
The thing with the christmas CD doesn't really interest me, but if you guys want to do it, then sure. I sound like my nose is stuffed when I record myself singing into the mic... I'm pretty sure it's me, but I don't know.
My mom got mad at me for lighting three candles in my room when I was trying to record a song. Obviously, turning 19 doesn't mean anything.
There is something that I can say, but I'm not sure if I want to announce it on the blog. So here's a random video of Ann and Dan back when. By the way, there's no sound because my camera doesn't record sound, so your speakers aren't broken, just so you know.
What are you guys doing these days?
~~Aaron
Thursday, December 20, 2007
i think recording a christmas cd is a great idea.
i have a booklet of christmas songs that i jacked so we have a good selection of songs alreayd.
christmas is making me broke :(
i am so addicted to death note...it's an anime...maybe joanne has heard of it..
i think i'm sick :(
chels, do you want to go boxing day shopping with aaron and me...on boxing day?
lily
i have a booklet of christmas songs that i jacked so we have a good selection of songs alreayd.
christmas is making me broke :(
i am so addicted to death note...it's an anime...maybe joanne has heard of it..
i think i'm sick :(
chels, do you want to go boxing day shopping with aaron and me...on boxing day?
lily
that's a funny picture of lily
although i don't remember that pic at all...
oh, is that the one you sent to jon?
aarie: which one? was it kind of pale pink-ish?
yeah... i keep looking at the tree and because i have nothing to do (aside from volunteering), i am usually thinking about chem (not worried, just... in suspense. it doesn't matter that much how i did, i just want to know!!!), opening all my presents (again, it's just suspense; it doesn't matter at all what the presents are, i just want to know what!!!), and... i don't know. that's about it, really.
it doesn't feel at all like christmastime...
OH MY GOD
aarie and lily (and joanne, if you want... although i don't know if this is something you'd be into... but if you are, JOIN US!!!) we should carol at aaron's house and record it on his new mic!!!!!!! and burn it onto a HOLIDAY edition CD of us!!!! hahahahahahahaha that just popped into my head! and we should bring KLau if we do it! ...although he may be weirded by the awesome randomness...
anyways... i'm eating way too much junk food... i don't even know why. it's not even holiday food or anything! just chips and cake and cookies and whatever.
today i'm in richmond centre again from 1 to 5 and tomorrow is my last day (i'm there 1030 to 230)! it has been fun working there but i'm kind of getting tired of it (just because it's been 4 days in a row so far :P).
yesterday there was no "shift leader" (the people who are more in charge at the time, probably because they're more "experienced") for like, half my shift. and all the people that came told me that that was their first day. so i was like ahhhhhhhhhhhh no one knows where anything is!!! it was okay though, of course.
anyways, i should eat more things now :(
and for the record, simon is the smart one; theodore is the "cute" baby one.
-chels
oh, is that the one you sent to jon?
aarie: which one? was it kind of pale pink-ish?
yeah... i keep looking at the tree and because i have nothing to do (aside from volunteering), i am usually thinking about chem (not worried, just... in suspense. it doesn't matter that much how i did, i just want to know!!!), opening all my presents (again, it's just suspense; it doesn't matter at all what the presents are, i just want to know what!!!), and... i don't know. that's about it, really.
it doesn't feel at all like christmastime...
OH MY GOD
aarie and lily (and joanne, if you want... although i don't know if this is something you'd be into... but if you are, JOIN US!!!) we should carol at aaron's house and record it on his new mic!!!!!!! and burn it onto a HOLIDAY edition CD of us!!!! hahahahahahahaha that just popped into my head! and we should bring KLau if we do it! ...although he may be weirded by the awesome randomness...
anyways... i'm eating way too much junk food... i don't even know why. it's not even holiday food or anything! just chips and cake and cookies and whatever.
today i'm in richmond centre again from 1 to 5 and tomorrow is my last day (i'm there 1030 to 230)! it has been fun working there but i'm kind of getting tired of it (just because it's been 4 days in a row so far :P).
yesterday there was no "shift leader" (the people who are more in charge at the time, probably because they're more "experienced") for like, half my shift. and all the people that came told me that that was their first day. so i was like ahhhhhhhhhhhh no one knows where anything is!!! it was okay though, of course.
anyways, i should eat more things now :(
and for the record, simon is the smart one; theodore is the "cute" baby one.
-chels
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
K is for Kismet
Here are a few birthday pics from Sunday, just so you guys know I'm not posting random pictures.The only exam I want to know if I passed is my theory exam which basically determines whether or not I finally get my ARCT diploma, but I have to wait another two and a half weeks for the results to come out.
Recording was going steadily, but since my mom and sister got back, I can't record anything with them around (especially Florence!) I think I told Chels this already, but I'm planning on re-recording my demo CD and putting 6 songs instead of 4. And for all you hardcore fans, I want to make a very very very limited edition full length thing, but that will come much later. I really can't wait to actually get some stuff down. Maybe I should sell my demos... I'll leave that up to my manager. And I don't mind paying Dan back since I got some birthday money from my parents.
Too bad about the caroling thing. I was somewhat looking forward to it, since I'm kinda used to it from three years in choir.
Lily: Are we still planning on going Boxing Day shopping then?
Ann: Hopefully you're checking the blog. Did you make the alarm on my watch go off at 2 am????? If you did, I will get you back so hard you... won't need a plane to get to China
Chels: You left your scarf at my house on Sunday. Conor likes it; he said it's very "flowy".
Joanne: Gimme gimme... more. Oh, you still want to go see a movie? The other chipmonk's name is Simon! (I looked on imdb...)
I went shopping with my sister (Florence) today at Metro. The last two or three times I had been there was with Conor when we were just hanging out, and compared to my sister, he's wayyy more fun and I ended up missing him. I bought a shirt for him at Bluenotes that basically screamed Conor when I first saw it. School finishes for him this week. Maybe then we can hang out.I think we should all get together at least one more time before school starts again next year. We can do stuff at my house (which I don't think is as entertaining as Ann's house cuz she has the big tv and the sexually frustrated cat, haha) but we may have to deal with my mom and sister(s), which can be easily fixed by sticking them in their rooms.
Now I can finally play shows where I can actually get in. Yay.
~~Aaron
Well mrs. wong signed us up for the 23rd BUT the hospital is under quarantine so she doesn't think we should be singing and i agreed. So no carolling.
Chels, i'm anal about my marks too. I can't remember how well i thought i did for bio and it's freaking me out. i did get 2 of my marks but i knew it before it was posted becuase kev told me about the site grad.ubc.ca where you can find your marks that have been posted but were blocked until dec 19th.
ttyl
Chels, i'm anal about my marks too. I can't remember how well i thought i did for bio and it's freaking me out. i did get 2 of my marks but i knew it before it was posted becuase kev told me about the site grad.ubc.ca where you can find your marks that have been posted but were blocked until dec 19th.
ttyl
lack of school is driving me CRAZY!!!
okay, so i'm sure everyone expects this to be something that would come out of lily's mouth... jk, but it's me!!! anti-lily!
yeah so usually with respect to marks, i'm pretty patient and like, whatever, because whatever i get, i get; there's nothing to change the marks now.
but right now, i'm... kinda... really... in suspense!!! this is probably because i'm starting to fill out stuff for school for both a) applying for my major, b) applying for co-op, and c) paying for tuition, all of which require me to know my marks. (for tuition, i need to know if i passed chem to know if i can take all the courses i'm signed up for next term.) actually, i don't even know what my timetable is like for sure next term because i don't know if i can take bio! (because i don't know if i passed chem!)
arg! so here i am, checking SSC every 30mins to check for updated marks (which are not updated!!!). it's so sad... i just want someone to say "you passed" or "you failed" and i'll be satisfied so at least i know what the hell i'm doing!!!!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
aarie: how's recording going? (if you say good, then you owe dan $130)
ann: how's your cousin?
lily: so are we caroling?
jo: whatcha doing? i'm lonely :(
-chels
yeah so usually with respect to marks, i'm pretty patient and like, whatever, because whatever i get, i get; there's nothing to change the marks now.
but right now, i'm... kinda... really... in suspense!!! this is probably because i'm starting to fill out stuff for school for both a) applying for my major, b) applying for co-op, and c) paying for tuition, all of which require me to know my marks. (for tuition, i need to know if i passed chem to know if i can take all the courses i'm signed up for next term.) actually, i don't even know what my timetable is like for sure next term because i don't know if i can take bio! (because i don't know if i passed chem!)
arg! so here i am, checking SSC every 30mins to check for updated marks (which are not updated!!!). it's so sad... i just want someone to say "you passed" or "you failed" and i'll be satisfied so at least i know what the hell i'm doing!!!!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
aarie: how's recording going? (if you say good, then you owe dan $130)
ann: how's your cousin?
lily: so are we caroling?
jo: whatcha doing? i'm lonely :(
-chels
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
hey chels,
you should be proud of yourself...
i can relate. Even though i seem anal with my marks and stuff...i'm really not..to an extent..i want to do well and really if jon wasn't there scolding me and making me feel bad and making me realize what i have at stake, i wouldn't be the person i am right now...
don't think you're imcompetent...that's how i felt too at some moment in time...but you have everything going for you...you're a good, responsible and caring friend and you should be proud of it.
As long as you tried your best...i'm sure you know when your limit is...i always feel llike i could have done better because i haven't "tried" my best...but given the time restraints and so forth...you have to be realistic..
i'm not going to be mad at you if you need to take summer school but HOPEFULLY you won't need to...i'm sure you're all hoping that too.
well you're taking your exam right now so i hope you get all the questions or realistically...not cry after the exam...if you do that sort of thing.
good luck annerism...as for me..i shall go study for psych...
must be all that i can be...
Love yall
lily
you should be proud of yourself...
i can relate. Even though i seem anal with my marks and stuff...i'm really not..to an extent..i want to do well and really if jon wasn't there scolding me and making me feel bad and making me realize what i have at stake, i wouldn't be the person i am right now...
don't think you're imcompetent...that's how i felt too at some moment in time...but you have everything going for you...you're a good, responsible and caring friend and you should be proud of it.
As long as you tried your best...i'm sure you know when your limit is...i always feel llike i could have done better because i haven't "tried" my best...but given the time restraints and so forth...you have to be realistic..
i'm not going to be mad at you if you need to take summer school but HOPEFULLY you won't need to...i'm sure you're all hoping that too.
well you're taking your exam right now so i hope you get all the questions or realistically...not cry after the exam...if you do that sort of thing.
good luck annerism...as for me..i shall go study for psych...
must be all that i can be...
Love yall
lily
my post (mostly about me!)
ann: that's fine (about the present) it's not like i'm mad or anything (how dare you????)
aaron: yep, i'm still up for it... i'll call you tonight (evening ish?) if you don't get a call (which very well may happen, knowing myself) call me, kay?
lily: thanks, study hard! (add oil! ...that's the expression, right? right???) almost done!
this morning when i woke up, i was really really nervous/apprehensive. now i think i'm okay.
i think this term was a really good, yet painful and tearful, learning experience for me. although i didn't get such great grades (probably equal to last year, but with a lot more effort and no more arts courses that i'm good at :( ), i really changed a lot of the way i work... at school, i mean.
having so much pressure on me forced me to quit my job (which i always knew was the right move for me, deep inside, but it was just so easy not to... y'know? i was just so comfortable), which was definitely a good decision, and totally change the way i study/work at school. i broke most of my harsh procrastination habits, and i keep up with assignments better. i'm more organized, and i feel better about it too.
this is all more of self reflection, btw, but i just wanted to get it down somewhere (i haven't used a journal in at least a year, now, but writing things down always makes me feel better). basically, i just feel like even if i messed up this term a bit (which i really hope i haven't, of course), the struggle i went through and the consequences i will have to deal with (hmmm... potentially retaking chem 233 in the summer with lily --not that lily is REtaking it, but just that she will be taking it and me too-- ... don't yell at me, lily!!! i'm trying!!!) are worth it. because now i know, and not only that, i really feel like i can do this (school). i just really really have to keep up and focus (which is hard for most people, i THINK).
i spent a lot of this term feeling sorry for myself and helpless. i hate that feeling, and i was pretty stressed out. but i learned so much about myself, my study habits, and the way i function at school. sometimes it's hard to always feel in control of my life (as i think it is for most people. i THINK). and sometimes things get really tough and even when i try my best, it doesn't seem good enough at all. i get frustrated and question my capabilities... and sometimes (although i told aaron not to do it!) it really is just easier to place responsibility of the badness on someone/something else; to blame the circumstances instead of myself.
but i do make my own decisions, and that is what puts me in these circumstances.
and now i not only know it, i feel it.
as india arie puts it:
-chels
aaron: yep, i'm still up for it... i'll call you tonight (evening ish?) if you don't get a call (which very well may happen, knowing myself) call me, kay?
lily: thanks, study hard! (add oil! ...that's the expression, right? right???) almost done!
this morning when i woke up, i was really really nervous/apprehensive. now i think i'm okay.
i think this term was a really good, yet painful and tearful, learning experience for me. although i didn't get such great grades (probably equal to last year, but with a lot more effort and no more arts courses that i'm good at :( ), i really changed a lot of the way i work... at school, i mean.
having so much pressure on me forced me to quit my job (which i always knew was the right move for me, deep inside, but it was just so easy not to... y'know? i was just so comfortable), which was definitely a good decision, and totally change the way i study/work at school. i broke most of my harsh procrastination habits, and i keep up with assignments better. i'm more organized, and i feel better about it too.
this is all more of self reflection, btw, but i just wanted to get it down somewhere (i haven't used a journal in at least a year, now, but writing things down always makes me feel better). basically, i just feel like even if i messed up this term a bit (which i really hope i haven't, of course), the struggle i went through and the consequences i will have to deal with (hmmm... potentially retaking chem 233 in the summer with lily --not that lily is REtaking it, but just that she will be taking it and me too-- ... don't yell at me, lily!!! i'm trying!!!) are worth it. because now i know, and not only that, i really feel like i can do this (school). i just really really have to keep up and focus (which is hard for most people, i THINK).
i spent a lot of this term feeling sorry for myself and helpless. i hate that feeling, and i was pretty stressed out. but i learned so much about myself, my study habits, and the way i function at school. sometimes it's hard to always feel in control of my life (as i think it is for most people. i THINK). and sometimes things get really tough and even when i try my best, it doesn't seem good enough at all. i get frustrated and question my capabilities... and sometimes (although i told aaron not to do it!) it really is just easier to place responsibility of the badness on someone/something else; to blame the circumstances instead of myself.
but i do make my own decisions, and that is what puts me in these circumstances.
and now i not only know it, i feel it.
as india arie puts it:
And I choose to be the best that I can be.thanks for all the support, guys. i promise i will be better at... 2:35pm today :) (exam is 12 to 230)!
I choose to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.
-chels
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Damn you aaron chan!!! I will compromise by taking this purpley-blue colour!!! but slowly..i will take what's your's!!!
lol
i just went carolling and OMGGGggg....
I was sitting beside 2 elderly women. I began talking to the one on my left....she turned out to be a s racist...toward CHINESE...WTF! she said that she went to school in strathcona which is near chinatown...and the school favoured chinese people. She then said that she brought her daughter up in a white school and she rose to the top...
then she began talking about how happy her son is with his very nice wife who did all the cooking 10 years ago but now she works. Then she has a daughter who was married but divorced to a drug addict.
So after this, i turned to talk to the other elderly lady and she said that she doesn't know any christmas songs so i asked her if she wanted to familiarize herself with the songs....she took the book and NEVER GAVE IT BACK!!!...i had to get a new oine :(
i brought the book home so IF we do go carolling i don't have to find songs HAHA...
i left early because the coordinator tricked me...i thought it ended at around 8:30 but we begin carolling at 8:30...
i left early cause i wasn't feeling too well...it was really hot there and i was dehydrated...i thought i might have gotten something from the people there and since i have 1 more final i don't want to get sick...i did sing though at around 6-ish so i can still put it on my resume..
studying for psych...
CHELS UBER GOOD LUCK!!!
and yes ann...london drugs presies are no fun at all..
lily
lol
i just went carolling and OMGGGggg....
I was sitting beside 2 elderly women. I began talking to the one on my left....she turned out to be a s racist...toward CHINESE...WTF! she said that she went to school in strathcona which is near chinatown...and the school favoured chinese people. She then said that she brought her daughter up in a white school and she rose to the top...
then she began talking about how happy her son is with his very nice wife who did all the cooking 10 years ago but now she works. Then she has a daughter who was married but divorced to a drug addict.
So after this, i turned to talk to the other elderly lady and she said that she doesn't know any christmas songs so i asked her if she wanted to familiarize herself with the songs....she took the book and NEVER GAVE IT BACK!!!...i had to get a new oine :(
i brought the book home so IF we do go carolling i don't have to find songs HAHA...
i left early because the coordinator tricked me...i thought it ended at around 8:30 but we begin carolling at 8:30...
i left early cause i wasn't feeling too well...it was really hot there and i was dehydrated...i thought i might have gotten something from the people there and since i have 1 more final i don't want to get sick...i did sing though at around 6-ish so i can still put it on my resume..
studying for psych...
CHELS UBER GOOD LUCK!!!
and yes ann...london drugs presies are no fun at all..
lily
The colour stealer
First off... STAY AWAY FROM MY COLOUR!!!! There are plenty of other unused ones you can taint, Lily. BLUE IS MINE!!!
I don't think I can help stalk you tomorrow, Ann. I signed up for a shadowing session at Riverside Secondary, this school all the way out in Port Coquitlam, and I'm probably going to be spending majority of the day there, since it takes me almost 2 hours to get there. Ugh.
Chels, are we still on for Saturday evil birthday planning?
Gay Asian cinema is always good. I'm always impressed at how some guys are man enough to take on that kind of role. Anywho... (you can probably tell what kind of movie I just finished watching)
~~Aaron
I don't think I can help stalk you tomorrow, Ann. I signed up for a shadowing session at Riverside Secondary, this school all the way out in Port Coquitlam, and I'm probably going to be spending majority of the day there, since it takes me almost 2 hours to get there. Ugh.
Chels, are we still on for Saturday evil birthday planning?
Gay Asian cinema is always good. I'm always impressed at how some guys are man enough to take on that kind of role. Anywho... (you can probably tell what kind of movie I just finished watching)
~~Aaron
so many things, so little time
lily how dare you impersonate aaron with his blueness...now i know what you guys were talking about when i was "stealing" colours..
anyway..i know i'm not a part of this but you guys should really go caroling, it will be a meaningful outing for everyone.
on a completely different note, i got a pink plastic recorder for christmas from one of my friends (yah!) aaron you may know something of this...it was from the "girl who sleeps with her ipod". but yeah, my life is just sooooo random right now..i'm supposed to be studying for econ but instead i'm teaching myself how to play recorder...
chelsea you have to come with me to work tomorrow...aaron, you too, the more the merrier :) for me anyway..maybe i can pull some strings and get you guys some cheese sticks or something ;) i just remembered that i had gotten you something for christmas chels, but that was a long time ago before you told me about the donation stuff, so you have to have it cause it's clothes and i can't fit into it...so ha! you are getting something from me for christmas/birthday.
i can't wait till sunday...i bet aaron can wait, because he is going to get beaten.. by a girl!..AT SCENEIT FRIENDS!! oh it is going to be good.
ann
ps. listen to lily and be thankful for the boxing day prezzies...london drugs prezzies are not fun
anyway..i know i'm not a part of this but you guys should really go caroling, it will be a meaningful outing for everyone.
on a completely different note, i got a pink plastic recorder for christmas from one of my friends (yah!) aaron you may know something of this...it was from the "girl who sleeps with her ipod". but yeah, my life is just sooooo random right now..i'm supposed to be studying for econ but instead i'm teaching myself how to play recorder...
chelsea you have to come with me to work tomorrow...aaron, you too, the more the merrier :) for me anyway..maybe i can pull some strings and get you guys some cheese sticks or something ;) i just remembered that i had gotten you something for christmas chels, but that was a long time ago before you told me about the donation stuff, so you have to have it cause it's clothes and i can't fit into it...so ha! you are getting something from me for christmas/birthday.
i can't wait till sunday...i bet aaron can wait, because he is going to get beaten.. by a girl!..AT SCENEIT FRIENDS!! oh it is going to be good.
ann
ps. listen to lily and be thankful for the boxing day prezzies...london drugs prezzies are not fun
i seriously frequent this blog WAYYY too much...well i guess it makes up for the times when i barely talked to you...
about the carolling thing...i'm not sure if i got us a gig which is why i'm kinda pushing it away....i'll ask jon's mom but i'm not sure otherwise.Also i'm carolling today at yaletown house retirement home or soemthing like that...i signed up for it when i felt like i wasn't doing enough...so don't get mad at me,
i don't like how it's raining...:( caus ei have to bussss.
well at least i can bring my psych notes to study..the crappy part is that i forgot when carolling will end...so fuck..i don't want to stay there longer than i have to.
aaron, chels..i'm considering buying your gifts on boxing day...before you point your dirty fingers at me...i think this way...i can get you more or the same thing that i wanted to and save money which i don't have...
i hope you don't mind but i see something that i think you'll like, i'll get it for you even if it's before boxing day but i'll be annoyed...
i'm getting all jon's gifts on boxing day...he doesn't mind...
also...waiting till boxing day isn't as bad as receiving a gift from london drugs....right ann????
anyways ttyl must study
lily
about the carolling thing...i'm not sure if i got us a gig which is why i'm kinda pushing it away....i'll ask jon's mom but i'm not sure otherwise.Also i'm carolling today at yaletown house retirement home or soemthing like that...i signed up for it when i felt like i wasn't doing enough...so don't get mad at me,
i don't like how it's raining...:( caus ei have to bussss.
well at least i can bring my psych notes to study..the crappy part is that i forgot when carolling will end...so fuck..i don't want to stay there longer than i have to.
aaron, chels..i'm considering buying your gifts on boxing day...before you point your dirty fingers at me...i think this way...i can get you more or the same thing that i wanted to and save money which i don't have...
i hope you don't mind but i see something that i think you'll like, i'll get it for you even if it's before boxing day but i'll be annoyed...
i'm getting all jon's gifts on boxing day...he doesn't mind...
also...waiting till boxing day isn't as bad as receiving a gift from london drugs....right ann????
anyways ttyl must study
lily
YAY TOO!!!
so yeah, i didn't quite pull an all-nighter (which i have done twice before, but only for an essay and an AGSCI PROJECT) because when i got home, i was really tired and convinced dan to "let me nap" but he was strict and actually woke me up in the end, somehow, so i ended up with maybe 2 hours of sleep.
hope you did okay too, lily. thanks for looking out for me (making sure i had a cheat sheet and stuff). i was super exhausted so dan answered and was annoyed but whatever, he was just being a crankmeister (which i don't blame him for because he's the one who had to stay up to 3am just making sure i didn't fall asleep... and then wake up at 6am to help me move stuff downstairs. plus i've been on edge for the past week and a half!)
but yeah... about coffee... so, i never liked it (although the aroma is kind of nice), as in, i hated it. but people have told me i will acquire a taste for it when i really really need it and drink it... NO DEFINITELY NOT. with every additional sip (i think i only drank a cup and a half? and it did the trick), i felt more disgusting. and during the exam, i felt like... just really really really gross because i could smell coffee still? and then after the exam, dan and i were talking about coffee and i felt like throwing up again. seriously, how am i supposed to like it when i associate it with all-nighters and cell biology (although it is interesting)??????
oh aarie, i think we are going carolling, just on a different day (right, lily??? RIGHT????).
aarie (again)!!! as soon as i read that mags and you mom were away (you told me but i forgot), i immediately wanted to pick up the phone and call you!!!! ...then i realized it's still not even 7 and i should not do that to you on your winter break :( are you free on friday? hang out with meeeee!!! i'm going to be lonely and follow ann to work all day if no one saves me!!! (although we can visit ann together and it doesn't look so bad on my part :P meh)
joanne, are you mad at me? i really really really have a feeling that you are, for some reason, but i don't know why. maybe i had a dream that you were mad at me? or maybe you are..? :(
it's all about spongebob operation!
-chels
hope you did okay too, lily. thanks for looking out for me (making sure i had a cheat sheet and stuff). i was super exhausted so dan answered and was annoyed but whatever, he was just being a crankmeister (which i don't blame him for because he's the one who had to stay up to 3am just making sure i didn't fall asleep... and then wake up at 6am to help me move stuff downstairs. plus i've been on edge for the past week and a half!)
but yeah... about coffee... so, i never liked it (although the aroma is kind of nice), as in, i hated it. but people have told me i will acquire a taste for it when i really really need it and drink it... NO DEFINITELY NOT. with every additional sip (i think i only drank a cup and a half? and it did the trick), i felt more disgusting. and during the exam, i felt like... just really really really gross because i could smell coffee still? and then after the exam, dan and i were talking about coffee and i felt like throwing up again. seriously, how am i supposed to like it when i associate it with all-nighters and cell biology (although it is interesting)??????
oh aarie, i think we are going carolling, just on a different day (right, lily??? RIGHT????).
aarie (again)!!! as soon as i read that mags and you mom were away (you told me but i forgot), i immediately wanted to pick up the phone and call you!!!! ...then i realized it's still not even 7 and i should not do that to you on your winter break :( are you free on friday? hang out with meeeee!!! i'm going to be lonely and follow ann to work all day if no one saves me!!! (although we can visit ann together and it doesn't look so bad on my part :P meh)
joanne, are you mad at me? i really really really have a feeling that you are, for some reason, but i don't know why. maybe i had a dream that you were mad at me? or maybe you are..? :(
it's all about spongebob operation!
-chels
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
L is for Lethargic
I'm officially done school for the break..... YAY!!!!!!!!!! I'm so glad... good luck with all your exams, by the way. And I'm not MIA. I just don't respond as much as you do.
I was just wondering about the carolling thing. I guess you don't need me anymore? And I think you should go. It'll give you time away from studying and sitting your ass, not to mention that you're going to make people happy (hopefully). Also, I think if you sign up for something, you should commit to it. I don't really like flaky people. But that's just me.
I've never pulled an all-nighter before, and I vowed I would never do it, even in the most extreme circumstances. I care too much about sleep, and the next day, I'd probably be super-tired and irritated. I'm guessing you never want to drink coffee again, Chels?
Ann, you're going down... down under! Bring me a koala.
Just a reminder: my birthday party is on December 16th (this coming Sunday). I think Conor's coming too... and that's it so far. There's no set time, as both Maggie and my mom are now gone and it's just me here for 5 days. Yay.
At the lunch break, I went to London Drugs and bought gifts for everyone in my class (there are only 8 of us in total, so it's nothing huge). I basically just got them all personalized junk food items (ie. one guy is a nerd, so I got him a box of Nerds; one guy is doing a script involving earthworms, so I got him gummy worms) I was in a generous mood for some reason.
Joanne, have you tried to make sno-cones yet? I know you said it's too cold to have them, but did you have any before? Were they good?
Conor and I have gotten considerably closer since the incident. We talk on MSN or on the phone at least once a day, which is wayyy more than we did before. I'm glad something good came out of it.
I just came back from the Winter Concerts at Point Grey. Chamber choir only has 5 guys in total, but they're pretty good, I must say. I was sitting in the very back and I could hear them. There were a lot of loud/noisy kids shouting names in between songs and eventually, Mr. Taylor had to go over to them and tell them to leave... and pretty much the entire audience heard him. But they were really obnoxious, so I would've done that too. I saw Jeff Sung (Ann, you still need to meet him) and a few other people... it was kinda cool, meeting some people again. Apparently, they put in a door from the green room connecting to the band room... I didn't see it, but I wanted to.
I'm very tempted to buy that Simpsons game at London Drugs. Hmm.
See you all soon!
~~Aaron
I was just wondering about the carolling thing. I guess you don't need me anymore? And I think you should go. It'll give you time away from studying and sitting your ass, not to mention that you're going to make people happy (hopefully). Also, I think if you sign up for something, you should commit to it. I don't really like flaky people. But that's just me.
I've never pulled an all-nighter before, and I vowed I would never do it, even in the most extreme circumstances. I care too much about sleep, and the next day, I'd probably be super-tired and irritated. I'm guessing you never want to drink coffee again, Chels?
Ann, you're going down... down under! Bring me a koala.
Just a reminder: my birthday party is on December 16th (this coming Sunday). I think Conor's coming too... and that's it so far. There's no set time, as both Maggie and my mom are now gone and it's just me here for 5 days. Yay.
At the lunch break, I went to London Drugs and bought gifts for everyone in my class (there are only 8 of us in total, so it's nothing huge). I basically just got them all personalized junk food items (ie. one guy is a nerd, so I got him a box of Nerds; one guy is doing a script involving earthworms, so I got him gummy worms) I was in a generous mood for some reason.
Joanne, have you tried to make sno-cones yet? I know you said it's too cold to have them, but did you have any before? Were they good?
Conor and I have gotten considerably closer since the incident. We talk on MSN or on the phone at least once a day, which is wayyy more than we did before. I'm glad something good came out of it.
I just came back from the Winter Concerts at Point Grey. Chamber choir only has 5 guys in total, but they're pretty good, I must say. I was sitting in the very back and I could hear them. There were a lot of loud/noisy kids shouting names in between songs and eventually, Mr. Taylor had to go over to them and tell them to leave... and pretty much the entire audience heard him. But they were really obnoxious, so I would've done that too. I saw Jeff Sung (Ann, you still need to meet him) and a few other people... it was kinda cool, meeting some people again. Apparently, they put in a door from the green room connecting to the band room... I didn't see it, but I wanted to.
I'm very tempted to buy that Simpsons game at London Drugs. Hmm.
See you all soon!
~~Aaron
hey chels,
i hope all went well. i couldn't sleep till 2am and i woke up at 9:30am to write my cheat sheet so i'm not much better than you pulling an all nighter. I called diane to ask about this 1 bio question she sounded very annoyed. She said she wanted to study for chem and she also has psych (with me) so she doesn't want to think about it. I'd probably be annoyed too but it's DIANE!.
I wanted to also call her to see when she's going to pick me up cause my psych exam is on a sat at 8:30am so i think 2 or 3 buses come before that time so that's no good.
Anyways she's going to pick me up at 8.
don't forget.
i have a major headache. I think it's because i haven't been sleeping well.
I'm carolling tomorrow. I need to start studying for psych. Yea it's an elective and stuff but i don't want to cram and only get 86% when i could have studied ahead of time and gotten 90%...btw 4% is a lot...especially when it means 80 somethings or 90 somethings
Well uber uber good luck to you chels and ann...
i'm excited to get my haircut...i'm so getting bangs...not because all of you have it but i've been wanting them for a while but i've just been too chicken to get them..that and also jon said i'll look ugly but he'll still love me...yah! i guess -.-
i'm going carolling tomorrow. i'm not so sure if that's a good idea. i signed up for it cause i was having one of those moments where i felt like i wasn't doing anything...but it should be fun
i'm not sure what's going down with the carolling thing. i'll ask jon's mom later. frankly i kinda don't want to do it because i MIGHT be moving and i need to work on apps for pharmacy.
anyways chels don't read this if you're cramming because it's on things you shouldn't be worrying about but are we going to join a class together? i think it would be uber fun...ann you can come too but it's going to cost you more....i don't think it will be THAT much more but money is money. If you do come, just take it out of the money you're going to spend on aaron's gift lol
jk
i <3 you aaron...how are you? M.I.A??
take care yall while i enjoy my sleep and warm milk...puts me to sleep
i hope all went well. i couldn't sleep till 2am and i woke up at 9:30am to write my cheat sheet so i'm not much better than you pulling an all nighter. I called diane to ask about this 1 bio question she sounded very annoyed. She said she wanted to study for chem and she also has psych (with me) so she doesn't want to think about it. I'd probably be annoyed too but it's DIANE!.
I wanted to also call her to see when she's going to pick me up cause my psych exam is on a sat at 8:30am so i think 2 or 3 buses come before that time so that's no good.
Anyways she's going to pick me up at 8.
don't forget.
i have a major headache. I think it's because i haven't been sleeping well.
I'm carolling tomorrow. I need to start studying for psych. Yea it's an elective and stuff but i don't want to cram and only get 86% when i could have studied ahead of time and gotten 90%...btw 4% is a lot...especially when it means 80 somethings or 90 somethings
Well uber uber good luck to you chels and ann...
i'm excited to get my haircut...i'm so getting bangs...not because all of you have it but i've been wanting them for a while but i've just been too chicken to get them..that and also jon said i'll look ugly but he'll still love me...yah! i guess -.-
i'm going carolling tomorrow. i'm not so sure if that's a good idea. i signed up for it cause i was having one of those moments where i felt like i wasn't doing anything...but it should be fun
i'm not sure what's going down with the carolling thing. i'll ask jon's mom later. frankly i kinda don't want to do it because i MIGHT be moving and i need to work on apps for pharmacy.
anyways chels don't read this if you're cramming because it's on things you shouldn't be worrying about but are we going to join a class together? i think it would be uber fun...ann you can come too but it's going to cost you more....i don't think it will be THAT much more but money is money. If you do come, just take it out of the money you're going to spend on aaron's gift lol
jk
i <3 you aaron...how are you? M.I.A??
take care yall while i enjoy my sleep and warm milk...puts me to sleep
i hate coffee
okay so... lily, don't get mad at me, but it looks like i'll be pulling an all-nighter. trust me, i was pissed when i realized that and the only reason i'm still up is because i know i can do better. (do better than my quick overview the other day) *sigh*
the last few weeks have been crap with stupid agsc projects (i didn't even care about our essay, in the end, and would have just left it --it wasn't that great but wasn't that horrible either-- but i felt bad because one girl in my group was spending SO much time on it even though she has all the exams i have, plus psych. and lily, i know, it's her choice but she's my somewhat friend and it was important to her so...) and then the "break" which was spent on chem, and now the four-day shot of exams.
ech. not that i think i have it that bad --i don't even have any days with 2 exams-- it's just really tiring. dan made me 3 thermoses of coffee to keep me awake. he's staying over because he had to make sure i actually drank the vile stuff and didn't just "nap for five more minutes" (which means for the night because no one can wake me up...) as i do quite often.
he's asleep now though so i'm lonely. but awake and quite alert.
wish us luck tomorrow! (lily and me) i mean, today.
i can't believe people actually pay for coffee. it's disgusting. (i kept feeling like barfing at first, but that's subsiding)
-chels
the last few weeks have been crap with stupid agsc projects (i didn't even care about our essay, in the end, and would have just left it --it wasn't that great but wasn't that horrible either-- but i felt bad because one girl in my group was spending SO much time on it even though she has all the exams i have, plus psych. and lily, i know, it's her choice but she's my somewhat friend and it was important to her so...) and then the "break" which was spent on chem, and now the four-day shot of exams.
ech. not that i think i have it that bad --i don't even have any days with 2 exams-- it's just really tiring. dan made me 3 thermoses of coffee to keep me awake. he's staying over because he had to make sure i actually drank the vile stuff and didn't just "nap for five more minutes" (which means for the night because no one can wake me up...) as i do quite often.
he's asleep now though so i'm lonely. but awake and quite alert.
wish us luck tomorrow! (lily and me) i mean, today.
i can't believe people actually pay for coffee. it's disgusting. (i kept feeling like barfing at first, but that's subsiding)
-chels
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
omg my eyes are hurting from vista (online site which contains notes and finals and that sort)
i'm going to sleeep after i read over my notes...and try to do my cheatsheet which i hope you didn't forget chels.
i was looking through w/s problems and review questions but it all comes down to knowing the material which is an obvious.
Although chels you should look over the final. just to see how long it is and what answers htey're looking for.
i don't feel like i know the material well enough yet///STRESS!
anyways i had 3 safeway cupcakes and they were gross but they were cupcakes....sigh
lily
i'm going to sleeep after i read over my notes...and try to do my cheatsheet which i hope you didn't forget chels.
i was looking through w/s problems and review questions but it all comes down to knowing the material which is an obvious.
Although chels you should look over the final. just to see how long it is and what answers htey're looking for.
i don't feel like i know the material well enough yet///STRESS!
anyways i had 3 safeway cupcakes and they were gross but they were cupcakes....sigh
lily
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lily, didn't you use to share a ROOM with joyce? (not doubting your prediction of insanity, just checking. is joyce worse than george though? maybe it's more complicated than that... i guess i'm just thinking if i had the choice to live with cheryl, i would, despite her pettiness at times)
ann, why is everything so crazy-seeming for you? :(
also, it's okay if it's expected... i just feel like short of a macbook, i'm pretty good with what i've got, and i'm thankful for that. i would rather know that someone else has something they will really appreciate. but if you decide to get me something anyways (disregarding my 1. don't get me anything and 2. give to a charity), it's not like i will hate it or anything :P
also, if you do not have a credit card (which i'm assuming you need to buy things on that site) but you want to get something online, give dan your money and make him use his card :)
aarie, i feel bad for not keeping up with bday plan updates, but i'm just trying to do one thing at a time, and do my best. i promise once friday rolls around (my exam is actually at noon, so i'm free that afternoon and evening!!! please say you're free!!!) your bday party is focus numero uno, and i can give it my all :) you have no idea how sick to my stomach i am of studying.
joanne, crazy studier.
my exam went surprisingly well today, for anyone interested. however, on an unhappy note, that was supposed to be my "easy" exam anyways. death comes friday in the form of organic torture.
-chels :)
ps- it's funny... this blog and dan are probably the only things keeping me sane. i seriously have only left the house in the past week and a half to go to dan's house (to study better... i can only study at home in the daytime when no one is home), to a family dinner, to the optometrist (ran out of contacts... it was an emergency)... and that's it. i swear. i have not even gone to the grocery store. and i have worn basically two outfits: UBC sweatpants and hot pink shirt; jeans and sweater (which were the family dinner and tonight because dan's dad's friend is over for dinner. plus, i secretly have the UBC sweats in my backpack for the moment he leaves)
ann, why is everything so crazy-seeming for you? :(
also, it's okay if it's expected... i just feel like short of a macbook, i'm pretty good with what i've got, and i'm thankful for that. i would rather know that someone else has something they will really appreciate. but if you decide to get me something anyways (disregarding my 1. don't get me anything and 2. give to a charity), it's not like i will hate it or anything :P
also, if you do not have a credit card (which i'm assuming you need to buy things on that site) but you want to get something online, give dan your money and make him use his card :)
aarie, i feel bad for not keeping up with bday plan updates, but i'm just trying to do one thing at a time, and do my best. i promise once friday rolls around (my exam is actually at noon, so i'm free that afternoon and evening!!! please say you're free!!!) your bday party is focus numero uno, and i can give it my all :) you have no idea how sick to my stomach i am of studying.
joanne, crazy studier.
my exam went surprisingly well today, for anyone interested. however, on an unhappy note, that was supposed to be my "easy" exam anyways. death comes friday in the form of organic torture.
-chels :)
ps- it's funny... this blog and dan are probably the only things keeping me sane. i seriously have only left the house in the past week and a half to go to dan's house (to study better... i can only study at home in the daytime when no one is home), to a family dinner, to the optometrist (ran out of contacts... it was an emergency)... and that's it. i swear. i have not even gone to the grocery store. and i have worn basically two outfits: UBC sweatpants and hot pink shirt; jeans and sweater (which were the family dinner and tonight because dan's dad's friend is over for dinner. plus, i secretly have the UBC sweats in my backpack for the moment he leaves)
Monday, December 10, 2007
aww ann you're such a silly pickle
no i haven't thought about moving in with jon...
i would no matter what have to move in with my brother. I can't move in with my sis because we both know we would make each other go crazy. Since my brother will only be there 2 times a week when he starts working, i don't see him as much.
i made an appointment to get my hair chopped on sat at 5 so we'll see how that turns out.
no i haven't thought about moving in with jon...
i would no matter what have to move in with my brother. I can't move in with my sis because we both know we would make each other go crazy. Since my brother will only be there 2 times a week when he starts working, i don't see him as much.
i made an appointment to get my hair chopped on sat at 5 so we'll see how that turns out.
bah, humbug!
sorry to go in and out like that, but lots of things have been happening in the last week and it was pretty overwhelming. i got max 5 hours of sleep over the last couple of days (cause of finals) ..i had to resort to left over chinese take out at 12 am to keep myself awake...ugh.
lily i think you wanting to move out is good, it'll keep you focused on a goal and working hard to get what you want..this might be an awkward question for you at this point, but have you ever thought of moving together with jon? or is that just way out there in the future...
aaron i actually said yay out loud and clapped when i read that you bought sceneit friends..you are so going down, downtown..where the lights are bright..BURN!! (oh yes, let the trash talking begin)
chels i would do the donation thing but then it would be so expected..i know that's not the point, but now it's kinda like you telling me to do something and me doing it..but if you say that's the most meaningful thing i could do with my money for you then i guess it doesn't matter.
good luck to everyone on whatever you're doing, especially chelsea cause this week is when everything is for you
ps. i was watching cbc and there was this promo for a mr.bean's christmas special and it said that it was on next monday night..and i just realized that i would be gone by then...that really upset me for some reason, not cause i'll miss mr.bean but i just feel like i don't have enough time with you guys.. :(
ann
lily i think you wanting to move out is good, it'll keep you focused on a goal and working hard to get what you want..this might be an awkward question for you at this point, but have you ever thought of moving together with jon? or is that just way out there in the future...
aaron i actually said yay out loud and clapped when i read that you bought sceneit friends..you are so going down, downtown..where the lights are bright..BURN!! (oh yes, let the trash talking begin)
chels i would do the donation thing but then it would be so expected..i know that's not the point, but now it's kinda like you telling me to do something and me doing it..but if you say that's the most meaningful thing i could do with my money for you then i guess it doesn't matter.
good luck to everyone on whatever you're doing, especially chelsea cause this week is when everything is for you
ps. i was watching cbc and there was this promo for a mr.bean's christmas special and it said that it was on next monday night..and i just realized that i would be gone by then...that really upset me for some reason, not cause i'll miss mr.bean but i just feel like i don't have enough time with you guys.. :(
ann
never gone
lily, why can't you live with joyce, again? or can you just take charge and find an apartment? or will that not make him more willing? once he packs, i'm sure we can help out a bit (jon and dan can drive?)..?
on a totally different note, i just wanted to catch you guys before you got me anything (which hopefully you haven't, due to exams/school/whatever). so... last year, i told you guys not to get me anything, yet no one listened. i was actually serious, not that i didn't appreciate your guys' gifts, but i just think that someone else could do something better with your money (including yourselves... which is why i didn't want anything. not that you guys are poor! just saying, i'm pretty okay with the stuff i have and although i appreciate more things, i think there are better causes out there!)
anyways, this year, i was thinking something a bit different. if you guys insist on getting me something (which you are ACTUALLY under no obligation to do!!! really!!!) then why don't you guys donate something to a charity in my name or something? world vision has everything from a share in an alpaca for $15 to something like build a well for a community for $15,000. there are a whole bunch of things for $30 so you can give anything from school supplies to medical care, to seeds, to animals, to give people in unfortunate situations a chance at an education or even just the comfort of knowing that they will be able to feed themselves. this is just an example of what to do, and i'm not going to tell you guys how to spend your money; this is just an idea of something i really think would make your dollar make even more of an impact, and i would appreciate it even more than a new sweater or something. and because there's such a range of prices and services, you don't need to feel pressured to get something super expensive :)
also, for some services/items, the money you spend is matched in part or whole by other groups (like the government or medical companies, etc, depending on what you're buying) so, for example, if you choose to "Provide Food for an African Family" for $50, $200 worth of emergency food is provided because of government grants!
oh lily!!! i just thought of something really cool (though might not be easy...)!!! you should try to get some people together to rent a house!!!!!!!!!!!! man, i found this one on granville and 57th or something and it looks cool! 4 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms for $3000!!! so if there are 4 of you, it's $750 each! i dunno. i know that's a bit pricey per person... but i just thought of that, too. if you can find a nice place to share? and people? sounds like more work though :| hmmm... just an idea thrown out there.
here you go anyways. <link here!!!>
okay, must study!!! it's exam time!!! (one tomorrow, wednesday, and friday!!!)
-chels
on a totally different note, i just wanted to catch you guys before you got me anything (which hopefully you haven't, due to exams/school/whatever). so... last year, i told you guys not to get me anything, yet no one listened. i was actually serious, not that i didn't appreciate your guys' gifts, but i just think that someone else could do something better with your money (including yourselves... which is why i didn't want anything. not that you guys are poor! just saying, i'm pretty okay with the stuff i have and although i appreciate more things, i think there are better causes out there!)
anyways, this year, i was thinking something a bit different. if you guys insist on getting me something (which you are ACTUALLY under no obligation to do!!! really!!!) then why don't you guys donate something to a charity in my name or something? world vision has everything from a share in an alpaca for $15 to something like build a well for a community for $15,000. there are a whole bunch of things for $30 so you can give anything from school supplies to medical care, to seeds, to animals, to give people in unfortunate situations a chance at an education or even just the comfort of knowing that they will be able to feed themselves. this is just an example of what to do, and i'm not going to tell you guys how to spend your money; this is just an idea of something i really think would make your dollar make even more of an impact, and i would appreciate it even more than a new sweater or something. and because there's such a range of prices and services, you don't need to feel pressured to get something super expensive :)
also, for some services/items, the money you spend is matched in part or whole by other groups (like the government or medical companies, etc, depending on what you're buying) so, for example, if you choose to "Provide Food for an African Family" for $50, $200 worth of emergency food is provided because of government grants!
oh lily!!! i just thought of something really cool (though might not be easy...)!!! you should try to get some people together to rent a house!!!!!!!!!!!! man, i found this one on granville and 57th or something and it looks cool! 4 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms for $3000!!! so if there are 4 of you, it's $750 each! i dunno. i know that's a bit pricey per person... but i just thought of that, too. if you can find a nice place to share? and people? sounds like more work though :| hmmm... just an idea thrown out there.
here you go anyways. <link here!!!>
okay, must study!!! it's exam time!!! (one tomorrow, wednesday, and friday!!!)
-chels
Saturday, December 08, 2007
sigh sigh sigh
i've been so looking forward to this winter because i thought i can finally move out. my and my brother talked about it for a month and a half now so it's not like we just suddenly decided.
But now my brother's like, well we're wasting dad's money blah blah blah.
fuck i'm never going to move
i want to move out on my own...why do i need to move out with my brother...god.
i'm so disappointed.
omg
just because he's lazy that means i don't get to move out
fuck
i've been so looking forward to this winter because i thought i can finally move out. my and my brother talked about it for a month and a half now so it's not like we just suddenly decided.
But now my brother's like, well we're wasting dad's money blah blah blah.
fuck i'm never going to move
i want to move out on my own...why do i need to move out with my brother...god.
i'm so disappointed.
omg
just because he's lazy that means i don't get to move out
fuck
M is for Mausoleum
Oh, he broke up with his girlfriend many a week ago. And then some more events happened after that. Did Chels tell you what happened Lily? I know Conor. He's not a bad guy. All these things seemingly happen to him and I don't feel like I have to be careful around him or anything.
My mom is visiting my sister in Alabama for five days, and Maggie is apparently going to Mexico with her boyfriend on Sunday (that's tomorrow... hm.) so that leaves me alone in my house for a few days, including my birthday party. Yay.
Lily: Congrats on your midterm!
Ann: I finally have scene it Friends! It was on sale at Toys R Us yesterday so I bought it. YOU'RE ON!!!!
Chels: I thought of some more lame things for the party...
Joanne: Can you make it to my party on the 16th?
Only three more days of school... so close...
There's something else I wanted to say. But I forgot.
Oh, I re-applied at Future shop, haha. Maybe i'll be back there soon...
~~Aaron
My mom is visiting my sister in Alabama for five days, and Maggie is apparently going to Mexico with her boyfriend on Sunday (that's tomorrow... hm.) so that leaves me alone in my house for a few days, including my birthday party. Yay.
Lily: Congrats on your midterm!
Ann: I finally have scene it Friends! It was on sale at Toys R Us yesterday so I bought it. YOU'RE ON!!!!
Chels: I thought of some more lame things for the party...
Joanne: Can you make it to my party on the 16th?
Only three more days of school... so close...
There's something else I wanted to say. But I forgot.
Oh, I re-applied at Future shop, haha. Maybe i'll be back there soon...
~~Aaron
Thursday, December 06, 2007
yes it was based on a true story.
I always feel bad when i see a patient coming in for valtrex....my first response is always...DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH 10 PILLS COST? too much is the answer... especially seeing as how valtrex doesn't cure herpes, it just suppresses the symptoms so the meds are on going...
i agree with chels. if you're okay with it then whatever. just don't make excuses for doing it cause you're fully aware of what you're doing.
also this conner guy has quite a history (from what i've heard) of relationships...so you better becareful.
good luck yall.
2 finals down and 2 to go.
i got my lab midterm for bio 209 back yesterday. it's worth 25% of my mark so it's quite hefty. The highest mark was 97% which is what i got.
I'm really happy that i got that (obviously) but it's because i now know that i'm capable of being on top.
I was complaining about slacking off and not studying for my finals...jon gave me a speech how if i want to get into pharmacy i need to work hard and that's it only for my own good. Now, the only thing motivating me is to do well so i can get into pharmacy.
i think jon might be annoyed that i complain so much. i don't want him to be sad so i'm going to try not to complain as much and be negative.
good luck yall
lily
I always feel bad when i see a patient coming in for valtrex....my first response is always...DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH 10 PILLS COST? too much is the answer... especially seeing as how valtrex doesn't cure herpes, it just suppresses the symptoms so the meds are on going...
i agree with chels. if you're okay with it then whatever. just don't make excuses for doing it cause you're fully aware of what you're doing.
also this conner guy has quite a history (from what i've heard) of relationships...so you better becareful.
good luck yall.
2 finals down and 2 to go.
i got my lab midterm for bio 209 back yesterday. it's worth 25% of my mark so it's quite hefty. The highest mark was 97% which is what i got.
I'm really happy that i got that (obviously) but it's because i now know that i'm capable of being on top.
I was complaining about slacking off and not studying for my finals...jon gave me a speech how if i want to get into pharmacy i need to work hard and that's it only for my own good. Now, the only thing motivating me is to do well so i can get into pharmacy.
i think jon might be annoyed that i complain so much. i don't want him to be sad so i'm going to try not to complain as much and be negative.
good luck yall
lily
pin the tail on ann!
no aarie, i don't really know what you mean by "Would it have bad/wrong for me to ask to kiss him?"
does it matter, ultimately, what we think? to me, it seemed more like you were the one upset about it and we were supposed to give our views... so basically, the question is, how do you feel about it? do you feel it was wrong?
get what you want out of the relationship, aarie (referring to you wanting your first kiss to "mean" something). don't look at us, because i think (i think) we're all cool with whatever you choose.
...as long as you don't get super-scandalous, because then we might be a bit disappointed/confused.
oh, but to everyone, be safe and know your partner's sexual history before anything happens! just as that guy who kissed that girl and got herpes learned, it's your body and it's your job to take care of it (or pay the price!!! literally!!!). this story is true and based on lily's pharmaceutical expertise!
don't make things so complicated.
now... back to food preservation methods!!! (i love FNH!!!)
-chels
does it matter, ultimately, what we think? to me, it seemed more like you were the one upset about it and we were supposed to give our views... so basically, the question is, how do you feel about it? do you feel it was wrong?
get what you want out of the relationship, aarie (referring to you wanting your first kiss to "mean" something). don't look at us, because i think (i think) we're all cool with whatever you choose.
...as long as you don't get super-scandalous, because then we might be a bit disappointed/confused.
oh, but to everyone, be safe and know your partner's sexual history before anything happens! just as that guy who kissed that girl and got herpes learned, it's your body and it's your job to take care of it (or pay the price!!! literally!!!). this story is true and based on lily's pharmaceutical expertise!
don't make things so complicated.
now... back to food preservation methods!!! (i love FNH!!!)
-chels
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
well obviously i am not up to date on the whereabouts of your relationship with conor..the last time we talked about that you didn't feel anything for him (at least that's what you said). so if you think he is fun to be with and worth your time then go for it. although i'm not exactly sure what happened to his girlfriend..if that hasn't ended, it could be a problem..it's not like dating has to be a big deal, you could always go back to friends if it turns out you two are not that compatable..
i'm glad to hear that you have something planned for your birthday..or the 16th. what do you mean by "fun"...? i think of all people i'm the most anxious to find out..
ann
i'm glad to hear that you have something planned for your birthday..or the 16th. what do you mean by "fun"...? i think of all people i'm the most anxious to find out..
ann
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
N is for Notwithstanding
To answer some questions:
It didn't feel wrong, I was just very aware, and in general, I'm really, really self-conscious. Was I not supposed to be aware? How does that translate into us not having good chemistry? I just wasn't sure if I should/was supposed to stop what was happening. I didn't know what to do, I guess. After it happened, I didn't see Conor as anything more than just a friend, but then the next day, after much, much thought about what had happened, I guess I sort of did see him differently (and I got an e-mail from him saying that he thinks he likes me that way too). And no, I was not horny. I just wanted to kiss him, is all. And I guess i got that, just maybe a bit more. Would it have bad/wrong for me to ask to kiss him?
So after we talked about things, we came to the conclusion that we should just try and stay friends and keep our hands to ourselves, haha. I'm fine with that, but I don't know. I've sort of always thought my first kiss/sexual experience (in this case, very semi-sexual) would have more importance, you know? Maybe I'm just being too much of a girl here.
And there's more backstory into another encounter that Conor had, but I'm not really in the mood to type it all out (Chels knows about it though).
I think we're a lot closer (I don't know if it was because that incident) and we talked a bunch of times on the phone, which happened all of 3 times before this. Hmm... Conorito (that means "little Conor" in spanish).
Any more questions?
~~Aaron
PS. A reminder that my birthday party will be on Dec. 16th. We have "fun" activities planned...
It didn't feel wrong, I was just very aware, and in general, I'm really, really self-conscious. Was I not supposed to be aware? How does that translate into us not having good chemistry? I just wasn't sure if I should/was supposed to stop what was happening. I didn't know what to do, I guess. After it happened, I didn't see Conor as anything more than just a friend, but then the next day, after much, much thought about what had happened, I guess I sort of did see him differently (and I got an e-mail from him saying that he thinks he likes me that way too). And no, I was not horny. I just wanted to kiss him, is all. And I guess i got that, just maybe a bit more. Would it have bad/wrong for me to ask to kiss him?
So after we talked about things, we came to the conclusion that we should just try and stay friends and keep our hands to ourselves, haha. I'm fine with that, but I don't know. I've sort of always thought my first kiss/sexual experience (in this case, very semi-sexual) would have more importance, you know? Maybe I'm just being too much of a girl here.
And there's more backstory into another encounter that Conor had, but I'm not really in the mood to type it all out (Chels knows about it though).
I think we're a lot closer (I don't know if it was because that incident) and we talked a bunch of times on the phone, which happened all of 3 times before this. Hmm... Conorito (that means "little Conor" in spanish).
Any more questions?
~~Aaron
PS. A reminder that my birthday party will be on Dec. 16th. We have "fun" activities planned...
exam time exam time
going to the libraryyyyyy...
yeah, i don't really have anything to say but i feel left out of the conversation so i'm posting anyways...
along with zee other two, i don't feel like it's okay for me to comment yet on what happened, as i don't feel like we have all the information (not that i think you're holding back, necessarily, i just think there are more qs that need to be asked).
and yeah. on the overall situation, it's really good that you know that you were thinking clearly... but just admitting that isn't good enough. to be a bit harsh, this didn't "just happen." you guys chose to do this, so you need to take responsibility for it. "this might happen again" isn't a very mature take on this, as you are part of that decision (of whether or not it will happen again). if it happened once, okay fine, it's done. does that "mean" something? i don't know, but do you want this or not? i'm not saying it's an easy decision, as it's super probably not, but you need to deal with it!!! just make your decision! be responsible and mature and suck it up! it's hard but do you think it will be easier to make things mush and confusing and heartbreaking for the both of you? figure it out, state your terms, talk it out, and stick to it!!! don't just let things happen to you! you have the power to choose so use it! your life and your choice -- i think you know better than anyone else what's best for you.
-chelsea
ps- aarie, don't think i'm mad or anything (i have no idea how this post "sounds" but in my head it's not angry)... although i don't see why i would be... hmm... anyways, what happened happened, for whatever reason. what really reflects on you and your personality, however, is how you choose to deal with the situation, which is basically what i was getting at...
yeah, i don't really have anything to say but i feel left out of the conversation so i'm posting anyways...
along with zee other two, i don't feel like it's okay for me to comment yet on what happened, as i don't feel like we have all the information (not that i think you're holding back, necessarily, i just think there are more qs that need to be asked).
and yeah. on the overall situation, it's really good that you know that you were thinking clearly... but just admitting that isn't good enough. to be a bit harsh, this didn't "just happen." you guys chose to do this, so you need to take responsibility for it. "this might happen again" isn't a very mature take on this, as you are part of that decision (of whether or not it will happen again). if it happened once, okay fine, it's done. does that "mean" something? i don't know, but do you want this or not? i'm not saying it's an easy decision, as it's super probably not, but you need to deal with it!!! just make your decision! be responsible and mature and suck it up! it's hard but do you think it will be easier to make things mush and confusing and heartbreaking for the both of you? figure it out, state your terms, talk it out, and stick to it!!! don't just let things happen to you! you have the power to choose so use it! your life and your choice -- i think you know better than anyone else what's best for you.
-chelsea
ps- aarie, don't think i'm mad or anything (i have no idea how this post "sounds" but in my head it's not angry)... although i don't see why i would be... hmm... anyways, what happened happened, for whatever reason. what really reflects on you and your personality, however, is how you choose to deal with the situation, which is basically what i was getting at...
Monday, December 03, 2007
hmm...from what you've told me it doesn't seem like you guys have good chemistry..i dunno, i just found it weird that the whole time you were aware of what you were doing and you said that it felt wrong, which seemed to me like you should have stopped what was going on..but you didn't. does that mean that you wanted it to happen on some level? did this kinda change the way you saw connor (as in more than just a friend)? and what did you mean by "it may happen again"?? i just have alot of questions that has to be answered before i can give you any meaningful advice.
ann
ann
aaron
when i was reading (not skimming btw) your ADVENTUROUS day, i could not actually picture you in that situation even though it's your story.
Tell me again why you're so opposed to being with conner?
then maybe after you type out what's stopping you you can type out all the positive things you like about conner and just think about what you want with this relationship.
Lily
when i was reading (not skimming btw) your ADVENTUROUS day, i could not actually picture you in that situation even though it's your story.
Tell me again why you're so opposed to being with conner?
then maybe after you type out what's stopping you you can type out all the positive things you like about conner and just think about what you want with this relationship.
Lily
Sunday, December 02, 2007
O is for Ominous
I think I've officially kissed a guy. And I feel bad about it. Here's what went down:
The World AIDS Day event yesterday was really cool and fun and still went on even with the snow. There weren't as many people as we had hoped, but it was a modest turnout. I set-up my keyboard with the help of this technician guy (cuz I obviously don't know what cord connects with what cord) They didn't give me a microphone, and I figured it was because even if I would be singing, I was only supposed to be background music (like at the art show). When it was my time to play, I didn't even introduce myself because I thought no one would hear me anyway, so I just started playing. La la la... the second song was a cover of "Mad World" and when I started singing (pretty loudly, I might add. That was kinda suprising) the technician guy started setting up a mic for me, which was cool. I screwed up the song though, which sucked, but people were supportive anyway. And then I played the French song, which was smoothly and my time was up. Hywel, one of the youth leaders, went on stage and introduced me as a "poet and singer/songwriter" (haha, poet) And the night proceeded from there.
Out of everyone that I had invited (everyone from e-mails, various people in my class, some people I used to work with at the Sun Yat-sen Garden) the only people that showed were my sister (and her bf), my mom (she had to drive me), and Conor, which was kind of surprising because he lives all the way in New West. My mom left after I was done (taking the keyboard with her), Maggie + bf left soon after her, and Conor stayed the rest of the night with me. By the time everything was done, it was around 10:15, which isn't very late, but Conor apparently has a curfew set at 10:30, and if left, he would probably get home at around 12:00 and his mom would be superbly pissed off. But if he were to stay over at someone's place she would probably yell at him less, and I offered to let him stay the night at my house.
So we got to my house (my mom didn't mind) and talked for a bit about things before we decided to head off to bed. He took my room and since Maggie wasn't coming home, I took her bed (which is way more comfy than mine, haha)
The next morning, Conor woke up before I did. My had gone out, so it was only the two of us in the house (you know something's going to happen...) We started the day not really doing anything much, but we were sort of affectionate towards each other (me leaning against him when playing on the piano, him having his hands around me) but nothing happened. My mom phoned later and told us to help shovel the sidewalk and the paths. So we bundled up and went outside. After the hard work, we played around in the snow (obviously) and it got playful at times, but nothing happened!
We went back inside, changed clothes and did some more stupid things. We ended up on my bed, talking about things, with me resting on his tummy and just cuddling. Eventually, that lead to some touching (ie. arms) which lead to more things (ie. under shirts) which lead to us making out... sort of. The bad thing is that I WAS thinking clearly the whole time. I didn't have the excuse of "oh, I was drunk... I didn't know what i was doing". I was wondering "Is this right? Am I doing the right thing? What should I do?" pretty much the entire time. So that went on for a while... the only thing I DID know was that I wasn't going to have sex with him. Not today, not this time. Thankfully, it didn't go that far. Apparently, we did that for like, 2 hours or something until my mom came home. I don't think she suspected anything.
After, I walked Conor to the bus stop (he was going to Joyce Station to get a ride from his mom) and we HAD to talk about what happened. Neither of us really knew what to do... I felt guilty because I still don't really see him as a boyfriend or whatever, but maybe just someone to make out with once in a while, which is exactly like Bekki's situation with Al (btw, she's no longer with him) and I would completely HATE myself if I ever did that, which it seems like I'm starting to do. When I told Conor this, he nodded, and I apologized. We still have to talk stuff out. I hope we're still okay.
I've thought about it a lot, and I've basically come down to two possible things I should do:
1) Give Conor a try. There's a possibility that I might actually like him, and it would make things easier for the both of us (then we don't have to be all secretly touchy and stuff)
The downside: if I do this, then I might still not see him that way, which would break his heart, and I don't want to do that.
or
2) Tell him that we should just not do that again. It's too confusing for the both of us and I should officially not want to do stuff like that with him again.
The downside: I might break his heart (well, sort of) if I do this, and there's a chance i might do it again, thus repeating the cycle of stupidity.
if anyone has any other advice, I'd like to hear it.
~~Aaron
PS. Thanks again for coming to the art show Chels.
The World AIDS Day event yesterday was really cool and fun and still went on even with the snow. There weren't as many people as we had hoped, but it was a modest turnout. I set-up my keyboard with the help of this technician guy (cuz I obviously don't know what cord connects with what cord) They didn't give me a microphone, and I figured it was because even if I would be singing, I was only supposed to be background music (like at the art show). When it was my time to play, I didn't even introduce myself because I thought no one would hear me anyway, so I just started playing. La la la... the second song was a cover of "Mad World" and when I started singing (pretty loudly, I might add. That was kinda suprising) the technician guy started setting up a mic for me, which was cool. I screwed up the song though, which sucked, but people were supportive anyway. And then I played the French song, which was smoothly and my time was up. Hywel, one of the youth leaders, went on stage and introduced me as a "poet and singer/songwriter" (haha, poet) And the night proceeded from there.
Out of everyone that I had invited (everyone from e-mails, various people in my class, some people I used to work with at the Sun Yat-sen Garden) the only people that showed were my sister (and her bf), my mom (she had to drive me), and Conor, which was kind of surprising because he lives all the way in New West. My mom left after I was done (taking the keyboard with her), Maggie + bf left soon after her, and Conor stayed the rest of the night with me. By the time everything was done, it was around 10:15, which isn't very late, but Conor apparently has a curfew set at 10:30, and if left, he would probably get home at around 12:00 and his mom would be superbly pissed off. But if he were to stay over at someone's place she would probably yell at him less, and I offered to let him stay the night at my house.
So we got to my house (my mom didn't mind) and talked for a bit about things before we decided to head off to bed. He took my room and since Maggie wasn't coming home, I took her bed (which is way more comfy than mine, haha)
The next morning, Conor woke up before I did. My had gone out, so it was only the two of us in the house (you know something's going to happen...) We started the day not really doing anything much, but we were sort of affectionate towards each other (me leaning against him when playing on the piano, him having his hands around me) but nothing happened. My mom phoned later and told us to help shovel the sidewalk and the paths. So we bundled up and went outside. After the hard work, we played around in the snow (obviously) and it got playful at times, but nothing happened!
We went back inside, changed clothes and did some more stupid things. We ended up on my bed, talking about things, with me resting on his tummy and just cuddling. Eventually, that lead to some touching (ie. arms) which lead to more things (ie. under shirts) which lead to us making out... sort of. The bad thing is that I WAS thinking clearly the whole time. I didn't have the excuse of "oh, I was drunk... I didn't know what i was doing". I was wondering "Is this right? Am I doing the right thing? What should I do?" pretty much the entire time. So that went on for a while... the only thing I DID know was that I wasn't going to have sex with him. Not today, not this time. Thankfully, it didn't go that far. Apparently, we did that for like, 2 hours or something until my mom came home. I don't think she suspected anything.
After, I walked Conor to the bus stop (he was going to Joyce Station to get a ride from his mom) and we HAD to talk about what happened. Neither of us really knew what to do... I felt guilty because I still don't really see him as a boyfriend or whatever, but maybe just someone to make out with once in a while, which is exactly like Bekki's situation with Al (btw, she's no longer with him) and I would completely HATE myself if I ever did that, which it seems like I'm starting to do. When I told Conor this, he nodded, and I apologized. We still have to talk stuff out. I hope we're still okay.
I've thought about it a lot, and I've basically come down to two possible things I should do:
1) Give Conor a try. There's a possibility that I might actually like him, and it would make things easier for the both of us (then we don't have to be all secretly touchy and stuff)
The downside: if I do this, then I might still not see him that way, which would break his heart, and I don't want to do that.
or
2) Tell him that we should just not do that again. It's too confusing for the both of us and I should officially not want to do stuff like that with him again.
The downside: I might break his heart (well, sort of) if I do this, and there's a chance i might do it again, thus repeating the cycle of stupidity.
if anyone has any other advice, I'd like to hear it.
~~Aaron
PS. Thanks again for coming to the art show Chels.
Friday, November 30, 2007
wow, seems like i have alot of catching up to do..
first of all, it sucks cause i can't come to your thing either aaron, this might be surprising but i was actually looking forward to going..but instead i have to go to work. my love life is just going swimmingly (and by that i mean slow and uneventful)..i'm hanging out with this guy from work on sunday..no chelsea, it's not jerry :P
second, in reference to your question, i can think of many scenarios in my head where i would be swept off my feet by the simplist gestures (i guess i'm just easy to impress...) i think it just has to make you feel lucky you have the person you're with..i guess that's pretty general, but i can tell you that i really don't like grand gestures..they scare me. it raises the whole question of commitment or whatever, i would really be weirded out if the guy i'm seeing constantly asks me "where is this going?" (unless if we've been together for a long time, then that would be good) but yeah, i guess i've gone off topic a bit..
and number three, i guess we don't have to do secret santa if no one wants to but i thought you guys liked presents...i know i do. but yeah, if some of you want to buy presents for everyone in the group, then be my guest.
i guess that's all of now...are we doing anything until exams end?
ann
first of all, it sucks cause i can't come to your thing either aaron, this might be surprising but i was actually looking forward to going..but instead i have to go to work. my love life is just going swimmingly (and by that i mean slow and uneventful)..i'm hanging out with this guy from work on sunday..no chelsea, it's not jerry :P
second, in reference to your question, i can think of many scenarios in my head where i would be swept off my feet by the simplist gestures (i guess i'm just easy to impress...) i think it just has to make you feel lucky you have the person you're with..i guess that's pretty general, but i can tell you that i really don't like grand gestures..they scare me. it raises the whole question of commitment or whatever, i would really be weirded out if the guy i'm seeing constantly asks me "where is this going?" (unless if we've been together for a long time, then that would be good) but yeah, i guess i've gone off topic a bit..
and number three, i guess we don't have to do secret santa if no one wants to but i thought you guys liked presents...i know i do. but yeah, if some of you want to buy presents for everyone in the group, then be my guest.
i guess that's all of now...are we doing anything until exams end?
ann
Thursday, November 29, 2007
just to clarify
britta never had hep b. she was vaccinated when she went to cuba, so when she came back and tried to donate blood, it detected the antibodies she had. so now she's not allowed to donate blood anymore. i don't think hep b is curable anyways...
aaron: i will try my bestestest to be there tomorrow. hectic day so i don't want to make any promises, but you will definitely be in my plans!
-chels
aaron: i will try my bestestest to be there tomorrow. hectic day so i don't want to make any promises, but you will definitely be in my plans!
-chels
Zee art show tomorrow
So tomorrow I'm playing at the East Third Gallery (I think that's the name of it...) located at 1898 Main St. (by E. 3rd Ave.) My set is from 7:15 - 7:45. It's an affordable art show, so the art that is being sold is going to be around $5 - $25, i'm told, which is really cool. It would be great if at least one of you could come out, but it's okay if you can't, cuz my mom's going to be there. Yay.
~~Aaron
~~Aaron
P is for Pathogenic
So the Worlds AIDS Day thing is on December 1st, which is this upcoming saturday. It starts at 7:00, and ends around 10:00, I think. And I also have another show at this art show on Friday (tomorrow). It's somewhere on Main St. and my set is from 7:15-7:45 (half hour set! Yay!) but I still need to talk to Lillian to get more details (she's organizing it, sort of). I'll let you guys know.
I haven't thoroughly thought about birthday plans or anything, but soon...
Yes, Chelsea, you've expressed your dislike about people buying/naming stars for other people. I also didn't know that Britta used to have Hep B, but then again, it's not like close to her or anything.
I don't know about what the most romantic thing a guy can do. It's bound to be one of those questions you guys ask from time to time (ie. "Who would you choose? Aaron Fung or Kevin Lau?") As for Lily's thing about a guy being sweet all the time, I think it would get really annoying after a while (if that's all he ever said/did). Cuz, then it just seems like he's trying too hard. Once in a while sweet is good for me.
Ann: am I the only one who doesn't know about your adventure to the mountain? What happened? How's your love life?
Joanne: Like everyone else said, I hope your patient makes it through. Is there a good chance that she will?
Chels: Like with what Lily said, sometimes you need to tell people (in this case, your group) to f-off. Is the workload unfairly balanced then?
Lily: So you're coming on Saturday right? And please, let's all hear about the latest Kevin Lau news.
All: secret Santa? I don't mean to dampen spirits, but we can barely get together for my birthday (unless you want to exchange presents that day).
It's a little more than one week before my final theory exam... forever! I really want to get this RCM shit over and done with for good and get my friggin' certificate. Stupid RCM.
Do you think guys also go through a PMS-like thing? It's a random question, I know.
~~Aaron
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
So what is the most romantic thing a guy can do for me?
Well that's hard to say. I don't want this (whatever he's doing) to be a one time thing. He should be a sweety all the time. i don't know. I know this isn't much of an answer but i would like it if we just spent time together. Gifts are nice but i think just some nice private time together alone AND NOT WITH HIS FAMILY...is good. I like jon's family but they're always home...obviously cause they live there.
Ann: i'm glad you're alive. i don't know about secret santa...i don't want to spend money. I think i'll just make all of you guys my special lemon squares :D
CHels: if your group mates are pushing everything on you, i'd tell them to f*** off.! Don't be a push over. Also i can see why people wouldn't want to get married so it's not that bad. I want to but i understand why people wouldn't want to and it doesn't surprise me that you don't...(not in an offensive way)
Joanne: I hope your patient feels better and makes it through. About the pharmacy thing, well i think your pharmacy only sees you as a volunteer. I mean, if they can get you to work for free, why wouldn't they? If you want to be a tech, just apply to be one, not a volunteer since now you have experience.
Late thing, KEVIN IS SUCH A DINK! I don't really need to elaborate because i think this is a well-known fact. I'm too tired to explain online so if you want to know, you can ask me. THe 8am classes for 3 months are really taking a toll. i have a final tomorrow...
Well that's hard to say. I don't want this (whatever he's doing) to be a one time thing. He should be a sweety all the time. i don't know. I know this isn't much of an answer but i would like it if we just spent time together. Gifts are nice but i think just some nice private time together alone AND NOT WITH HIS FAMILY...is good. I like jon's family but they're always home...obviously cause they live there.
Ann: i'm glad you're alive. i don't know about secret santa...i don't want to spend money. I think i'll just make all of you guys my special lemon squares :D
CHels: if your group mates are pushing everything on you, i'd tell them to f*** off.! Don't be a push over. Also i can see why people wouldn't want to get married so it's not that bad. I want to but i understand why people wouldn't want to and it doesn't surprise me that you don't...(not in an offensive way)
Joanne: I hope your patient feels better and makes it through. About the pharmacy thing, well i think your pharmacy only sees you as a volunteer. I mean, if they can get you to work for free, why wouldn't they? If you want to be a tech, just apply to be one, not a volunteer since now you have experience.
Late thing, KEVIN IS SUCH A DINK! I don't really need to elaborate because i think this is a well-known fact. I'm too tired to explain online so if you want to know, you can ask me. THe 8am classes for 3 months are really taking a toll. i have a final tomorrow...
haha, who's up the earliest now?
Warning: This is long and mostly not informative anything... It's just very early and my brain is just dead... Just scroll down until you read the yellow!!! Just answer the question and I'll be happy. :) (I'm going to point out that I said "just" about 4 times in the past 3 sentences to give you an idea of what the rest of this post is like...)
Basically: So no one complain about how long this is! I'm telling you now! (I'm also going to point out that my disclaimer is about the size of a normal person's post... hahaha)
ha!
just kidding! i didn't really wake up this early... i just didn't go to sleep! mwahahahahahahahahahaha!
i'm so gonna regret this tomorrow... or today, i guess i mean.
working on agsc paper... just trying to get my part done and out of my face. i did a lot today :) probably because of all this extra time not spent sleeping... i'm surprised i'm not tired!
you know where you get to the point where you're so tired you're not tired anymore? hmm... well, i took at nap..? usually i wake up at like, 630 so this is gonna be a weird day...
anyways, agsc is stupid and my group people are making me feel bad. you know when you get stuck with a job that seems like you're doing nothing, but really, it's a lot of work? well i'm stuck with that job for this project, and people keep giving me more things to do. and i quote,
"just get chelsea to do it"
ahhhh ahhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
good to hear from you again, joanne. and you too ann.
i don't think i want a promise ring... unless it's very fancy and expensive. but then why would you spend so much money on a not-really-for-anything ring? then again, why would i want a cheap crap ring?
okay, quick conclusion: i don't want one. (i learned something about myself today :) )
i guess i'm not the person to ask: will NOT accept diamonds, and i don't even know if i want to get married. if i did, it would probably be for financial/"political" reasons. i know that sounds bad, but i just mean that marriage is just a formality with way too much... expectation and like, crazies, in my opinion. if i get married, it will be so the government legally recognizes us, i think. (for like, you know, insurance and banking and taxes, etc) because i guess to me, weddings just seem like expensive parties...
new conclusion: wow i really am not a romantic, hmm? i also think it's the stupidest thing in the world to buy someone a star!!! if someone (ie, a guy) bought me one, i'd be so pissed off! why would you do that???? i also don't like getting flowers. well, it's more like i don't like taking care of them once i get them so they die and i feel bad. i feel mean now :(
*sigh*
okay guys, question: what's the most romantic thing a guy could do for you? (that you like, i mean. not like, the most cliche thing you can think of :P )
lily: oh yeah, your blood gets tested for hep b now so don't go if you've just been vaccinated; britta got a letter from them saying that she used to have hep b and now she's never allowed to donate again (she talked to people there and stuff but they said no).
all: why do we want to do secret santa, again?
jo: hospitals seem kind of scary... too white and demicrobialized for my liking. i hope she's okay... do you know what's "wrong"?
aaron: answer previous question (the one in my last post somewhere...) you do not get a new question until you finish with the last one!
ann: let's go shopping :) and let's see your new shirt... hehehehe... (you know, the t shirt? that is purple? or whatever colour????)
sorry this is so long...
-chels :)
Basically: So no one complain about how long this is! I'm telling you now! (I'm also going to point out that my disclaimer is about the size of a normal person's post... hahaha)
ha!
just kidding! i didn't really wake up this early... i just didn't go to sleep! mwahahahahahahahahahaha!
i'm so gonna regret this tomorrow... or today, i guess i mean.
working on agsc paper... just trying to get my part done and out of my face. i did a lot today :) probably because of all this extra time not spent sleeping... i'm surprised i'm not tired!
you know where you get to the point where you're so tired you're not tired anymore? hmm... well, i took at nap..? usually i wake up at like, 630 so this is gonna be a weird day...
anyways, agsc is stupid and my group people are making me feel bad. you know when you get stuck with a job that seems like you're doing nothing, but really, it's a lot of work? well i'm stuck with that job for this project, and people keep giving me more things to do. and i quote,
"just get chelsea to do it"
ahhhh ahhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
good to hear from you again, joanne. and you too ann.
i don't think i want a promise ring... unless it's very fancy and expensive. but then why would you spend so much money on a not-really-for-anything ring? then again, why would i want a cheap crap ring?
okay, quick conclusion: i don't want one. (i learned something about myself today :) )
i guess i'm not the person to ask: will NOT accept diamonds, and i don't even know if i want to get married. if i did, it would probably be for financial/"political" reasons. i know that sounds bad, but i just mean that marriage is just a formality with way too much... expectation and like, crazies, in my opinion. if i get married, it will be so the government legally recognizes us, i think. (for like, you know, insurance and banking and taxes, etc) because i guess to me, weddings just seem like expensive parties...
new conclusion: wow i really am not a romantic, hmm? i also think it's the stupidest thing in the world to buy someone a star!!! if someone (ie, a guy) bought me one, i'd be so pissed off! why would you do that???? i also don't like getting flowers. well, it's more like i don't like taking care of them once i get them so they die and i feel bad. i feel mean now :(
*sigh*
okay guys, question: what's the most romantic thing a guy could do for you? (that you like, i mean. not like, the most cliche thing you can think of :P )
lily: oh yeah, your blood gets tested for hep b now so don't go if you've just been vaccinated; britta got a letter from them saying that she used to have hep b and now she's never allowed to donate again (she talked to people there and stuff but they said no).
all: why do we want to do secret santa, again?
jo: hospitals seem kind of scary... too white and demicrobialized for my liking. i hope she's okay... do you know what's "wrong"?
aaron: answer previous question (the one in my last post somewhere...) you do not get a new question until you finish with the last one!
ann: let's go shopping :) and let's see your new shirt... hehehehe... (you know, the t shirt? that is purple? or whatever colour????)
sorry this is so long...
-chels :)
Sorry guys I haven't posted much b/c I'm so exhausted. My first final is for stats and I know I'm very screwed -_-
I was kinda sad today.. This resident that I visit weekly at the UBC hospital is in the emergency room. I have a feeling she's not going to make it. She's a really nice lady and I wish for all the best but I still have that weird feeling..
I'm thinking how long I should continue with volunteering at PHS. They just hired a pharmacy technician and she's not even in Pharmacy school (she's not even a student at UBC). I'm just confused cuz the manager was always like "Oh Joanne you've learned a lot. You're doing really well blah blah blah" but then he goes off and hires a technician? Couldn't he just train me? As soon as he hired her, he finally made me an official PHS nametag. Is this an "I'm sorry" gesture or "you've been volunteering long enough so I'll make you a nametag but I don't expect you to stay long" ? I ponder this all the time but then again, I just go "screw it, i'm gonna go play my nintendog"
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
fa la la
i've always heard people say promise ring but it's one of those things that i didn't bother to look into...but now that i know, i must say it seems like a pretty big deal lily...i hope you weren't freaked when you found out..
sorry i haven't been replying, i started one a couple days ago but that was right before class and i didn't finish it. there was really a thick layer of snow on burnaby mountain today...it wasn't bus-trappingly thick but nonetheless it got me excited :)
so um, when are we doing the secret santa thing? i have to find out soon cause it's not like i have that much time after exams to shop so i have to do it now. i really want to watch you perform for the aids thing, aaron. what time is it again? cause i have work on saturday and i'd have to leave before 5. so how goes the birthday plans? i'm always here to help if you need someone to think of a theme or bake a cake or whatever..
ps. i decided to be lame and go with the flow with the colour thing
ann
sorry i haven't been replying, i started one a couple days ago but that was right before class and i didn't finish it. there was really a thick layer of snow on burnaby mountain today...it wasn't bus-trappingly thick but nonetheless it got me excited :)
so um, when are we doing the secret santa thing? i have to find out soon cause it's not like i have that much time after exams to shop so i have to do it now. i really want to watch you perform for the aids thing, aaron. what time is it again? cause i have work on saturday and i'd have to leave before 5. so how goes the birthday plans? i'm always here to help if you need someone to think of a theme or bake a cake or whatever..
ps. i decided to be lame and go with the flow with the colour thing
ann
Actually, i would really appreciate it if ann replied cause it's scary how little she's been posting and how much i have in comparison...it should be the other way arounf fyi.
i know if jon gives me one, he'll mean it (not that if other people give one they don't) but we take things slow cause we don't want to screw anything up. Jon's friend has been dating this girl for 9 months (less time than jon and i have been together) and he's already getting his girlie a promise ring because the girl wants one...but is it even meaningful anymore...i mean if the girl wants one it's not really a gift the guy would get her on his own right?
I guess i'm happy that we're taking thigns slow but you always hear how girls get rings (promise rings) but they break up...well it's going to turn into the "i love you thing" where it doesn' t mean anything anymore.
now jon and i say that we miss each other more...because before we barely verbalized it but i do miss him more...i don't think i told you but i told him i loved him and THIS time i meant it...well last time i meant it too but..yea i know better now.
i have to donate blood at 2:15 on sat (a day after my period thank you very much)...so i'll go to the AIDs thing if chels or ann goes and it's after that time...
I didn't plan to donate my blood but they called saying they need my blood type..,well actually they need about a few hundred people's blood ...i'm b+ i think
anyways enough with me blabbing...aaron you should take that job...and give me a discount!!!
ann...come back down from the mountain.
i know if jon gives me one, he'll mean it (not that if other people give one they don't) but we take things slow cause we don't want to screw anything up. Jon's friend has been dating this girl for 9 months (less time than jon and i have been together) and he's already getting his girlie a promise ring because the girl wants one...but is it even meaningful anymore...i mean if the girl wants one it's not really a gift the guy would get her on his own right?
I guess i'm happy that we're taking thigns slow but you always hear how girls get rings (promise rings) but they break up...well it's going to turn into the "i love you thing" where it doesn' t mean anything anymore.
now jon and i say that we miss each other more...because before we barely verbalized it but i do miss him more...i don't think i told you but i told him i loved him and THIS time i meant it...well last time i meant it too but..yea i know better now.
i have to donate blood at 2:15 on sat (a day after my period thank you very much)...so i'll go to the AIDs thing if chels or ann goes and it's after that time...
I didn't plan to donate my blood but they called saying they need my blood type..,well actually they need about a few hundred people's blood ...i'm b+ i think
anyways enough with me blabbing...aaron you should take that job...and give me a discount!!!
ann...come back down from the mountain.
Monday, November 26, 2007
Grrrrrreen team!
aarie, you know i do the neon thing!
i knew what a promise ring was! (thank YOU sabrina the teenage witch! just kidding) it is kind of a big deal (or should be) because it's like a pre-engagement ring. well, in my head at least. to me, it's like an engagement ring but more "in the future." if i got an engagement ring (ie, he proposed) i would expect to start planning a wedding sometime soon, y'know? but a promise ring is like, i love you, i promise to be yours (ie, probably get married? just not right now?). y'know? like at this age, wouldn't it be weird to be married? especially without a steady job, it's super super expensive/scary seeming. so it's just a "claim" kind of..?
i say as soon as you get asked out, you're bf/gf, but that's where aarie and i differ in views. of course, it depends most importantly on the specific relationship and the consensus between you two... but you're wrong, aaron!!!
what time is the world aids day thing, again? (that's the same day as dan's dad's bday... i think i'm expected to go as i've missed about the last 3-4 family dinners because of work!!! ahhh)
life is good without work... i mean, it's not like i don't have enough to do without it! i can't even remember how i got by for 2 years working during school!!!
definitely take the job, aarie! it's fun because you get to be with the people at work that you like, you get money (can anyone say time and a half on holidays?), you get your discount back for a while, you get something to keep you busy! as long as you're sure you've got the time...
lily, i've got about 100 disney movies (the old ones... on video cassette..!) (i don't actually know how many i have, but there are a lot of them)! after exams?
aarie, let's plan your partaaaaay!
ann, don't get stuck on the mountain tomorrow! (bring homework to do!)
joanne, where are you?
-chelsea
i knew what a promise ring was! (thank YOU sabrina the teenage witch! just kidding) it is kind of a big deal (or should be) because it's like a pre-engagement ring. well, in my head at least. to me, it's like an engagement ring but more "in the future." if i got an engagement ring (ie, he proposed) i would expect to start planning a wedding sometime soon, y'know? but a promise ring is like, i love you, i promise to be yours (ie, probably get married? just not right now?). y'know? like at this age, wouldn't it be weird to be married? especially without a steady job, it's super super expensive/scary seeming. so it's just a "claim" kind of..?
i say as soon as you get asked out, you're bf/gf, but that's where aarie and i differ in views. of course, it depends most importantly on the specific relationship and the consensus between you two... but you're wrong, aaron!!!
what time is the world aids day thing, again? (that's the same day as dan's dad's bday... i think i'm expected to go as i've missed about the last 3-4 family dinners because of work!!! ahhh)
life is good without work... i mean, it's not like i don't have enough to do without it! i can't even remember how i got by for 2 years working during school!!!
definitely take the job, aarie! it's fun because you get to be with the people at work that you like, you get money (can anyone say time and a half on holidays?), you get your discount back for a while, you get something to keep you busy! as long as you're sure you've got the time...
lily, i've got about 100 disney movies (the old ones... on video cassette..!) (i don't actually know how many i have, but there are a lot of them)! after exams?
aarie, let's plan your partaaaaay!
ann, don't get stuck on the mountain tomorrow! (bring homework to do!)
joanne, where are you?
-chelsea
Q is for Quint
For a minute, I thought it was Chels because of the green but then it wasn't.
If it's any consolation, Lily, I didn't really know about the promise ring thing either. Hell, I've barely heard of it before (maybe all of 2-3 times?) so I don't really know what it's about. But yeah, it sounds like a big deal. Does it look like a normal ring? What's holding you back from wanting one? Is it just because it's a big step?
And I think there's a difference between dating someone and being in a relationship (ie. bf/gf) or at least that's what I learned from watching stupid Degrassi: The Next Generation. Dating is when you're starting to get to know the person, and you don't consider them your bf/gf. Then after that it's the bf/gf thing, which is when you're in a committed (if that's been established. Hey, there are open relationships) relationship. And I guess that reasoning makes sense, so I follow it, not that I even have to apply that to myself, haha. I was talking with a friend today at school and she seemed surprised that I had never been on a date before and even more so when I told her I only had one real relationship, and that was only a few months ago. People in general seemed surprised, and I guess it surprises me a tiny bit too.
Good luck on all your exams, guys. I know when all your exams are!!! (the green circling on my calendar)
Are you guys coming to the World AIDS Day thing this Saturday? Apparently, I'm going to be playing for only 10-15 minutes, but I'm okay with that. Conor's going to be there (If any of you care, which you probably don't because you met him all of one time)
Lily: let me know when we're going caroling
Ann: Andrew doesn't remember me... but he remembers you!
Chels: How's life now that you're not working?
Joanne: Donde estas? Hope you're not stressing too much
I'm considering going back to Futureshop for a seasonal thing. Besides, every time I'm in there, my manager asks something along the lines of, "How are you? Are you looking for meaning in your life?" And I'm not swamped with school at the moment, and I don't think it's going to get worse or anything. What do you guys think?
Digimon (first season only!!) was an awesome show. I wish it was still on.
~~Aaron
If it's any consolation, Lily, I didn't really know about the promise ring thing either. Hell, I've barely heard of it before (maybe all of 2-3 times?) so I don't really know what it's about. But yeah, it sounds like a big deal. Does it look like a normal ring? What's holding you back from wanting one? Is it just because it's a big step?
And I think there's a difference between dating someone and being in a relationship (ie. bf/gf) or at least that's what I learned from watching stupid Degrassi: The Next Generation. Dating is when you're starting to get to know the person, and you don't consider them your bf/gf. Then after that it's the bf/gf thing, which is when you're in a committed (if that's been established. Hey, there are open relationships) relationship. And I guess that reasoning makes sense, so I follow it, not that I even have to apply that to myself, haha. I was talking with a friend today at school and she seemed surprised that I had never been on a date before and even more so when I told her I only had one real relationship, and that was only a few months ago. People in general seemed surprised, and I guess it surprises me a tiny bit too.
Good luck on all your exams, guys. I know when all your exams are!!! (the green circling on my calendar)
Are you guys coming to the World AIDS Day thing this Saturday? Apparently, I'm going to be playing for only 10-15 minutes, but I'm okay with that. Conor's going to be there (If any of you care, which you probably don't because you met him all of one time)
Lily: let me know when we're going caroling
Ann: Andrew doesn't remember me... but he remembers you!
Chels: How's life now that you're not working?
Joanne: Donde estas? Hope you're not stressing too much
I'm considering going back to Futureshop for a seasonal thing. Besides, every time I'm in there, my manager asks something along the lines of, "How are you? Are you looking for meaning in your life?" And I'm not swamped with school at the moment, and I don't think it's going to get worse or anything. What do you guys think?
Digimon (first season only!!) was an awesome show. I wish it was still on.
~~Aaron
hey yall,
i'm using colour now...
i can't believe that me and jon have been dating for 1 year now. It's really crazy.
I also can't believe that i didn't now what i promise ring was...i always thought that it was just a symbol of your bf/gf status...not that it was a promise to marry me someday.
i found out on saturday actually.
before i really wanted one because i'm jon's gf and that's what the ring meant...that i'm his gf...but now that i know what it actually stands for, i'm not sure if i really want one.
no wonder jon kept on saying, i get you one when it's time...in my mind i'm like, wth, i'm your gf....but actually i'm just silly.
ann are you still alive and well? i haven't heard from you in FOREVER!
aaron i hope all is well.
chels, hi! you too joanne.
It's FINAL TIME. IT'S FINAL TIME!
I really want to have a disney-fest chels!
ciao for now...lily
i'm using colour now...
i can't believe that me and jon have been dating for 1 year now. It's really crazy.
I also can't believe that i didn't now what i promise ring was...i always thought that it was just a symbol of your bf/gf status...not that it was a promise to marry me someday.
i found out on saturday actually.
before i really wanted one because i'm jon's gf and that's what the ring meant...that i'm his gf...but now that i know what it actually stands for, i'm not sure if i really want one.
no wonder jon kept on saying, i get you one when it's time...in my mind i'm like, wth, i'm your gf....but actually i'm just silly.
ann are you still alive and well? i haven't heard from you in FOREVER!
aaron i hope all is well.
chels, hi! you too joanne.
It's FINAL TIME. IT'S FINAL TIME!
I really want to have a disney-fest chels!
ciao for now...lily
Saturday, November 24, 2007
I don't know if it's just me, but i find it hard to be happy.
Maybe it has sometime to do with my family which i'm sure it does, or maybe my disappointment in school or maybe the fact that i despise going home but everything just seems to get gloomier by the minute. i don't know why. it's not like i don't try to be more optimistic but when i TRY to be optimistic, it's just a cover to hid all the flaws and postpone my imminent sadness.
I try to be more proactive because i don't feel like i've achieved enough but still, it's not enough.
i don't know what to do.
I have jon and he is the only thing that makes me happy but that's it.
I try harder in school when i'm not satisfied with my marks but that ounce of achievement, for working harder, is immediately stolen from me by my over achieving brother who asks about my marks every single time i see him.
Sigh.
Maybe it has sometime to do with my family which i'm sure it does, or maybe my disappointment in school or maybe the fact that i despise going home but everything just seems to get gloomier by the minute. i don't know why. it's not like i don't try to be more optimistic but when i TRY to be optimistic, it's just a cover to hid all the flaws and postpone my imminent sadness.
I try to be more proactive because i don't feel like i've achieved enough but still, it's not enough.
i don't know what to do.
I have jon and he is the only thing that makes me happy but that's it.
I try harder in school when i'm not satisfied with my marks but that ounce of achievement, for working harder, is immediately stolen from me by my over achieving brother who asks about my marks every single time i see him.
Sigh.
Friday, November 23, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
R is for Retribution
The 16th sounds like a good time to have the party, it seems. I don't really care if whether or not I get presents that day (London Drugs can be a cool place to get stuff. Or at least that's what I think.) So I guess the 16th it is.
One of my friends at school wants to take me out on my birthday and get me drunk. Another friend told her, "You know, just because you're turning legal age, doesn't mean you have to go out and get drunk.", to which I agreed. I told her that alcohol doesn't taste very good, and she gave me this look and said, "There is good-tasting stuff! You just haven't tried it yet." Right. Okay then.
I'm totally up for caroling! I hated doing it back in high school, but hey, I'm not humiliating myself in front of the entire school now (I'm humiliating myself in front of everyone else...) Bass power! I can talk to Bekki about joining us if you want, but you're right, she's a big flake. Also, do you have actual 3 or 4 part harmony for songs or are you going to go to Ms. Comfort and ask her or something? Or are we just doing it all in unison? (that's no fun)
I sent an e-mail to you guys already, but I'm going to be performing on World AIDS Day (December 1st). It would be awesome if you guys could come out!
That's all for now. Sunday game night?
~~Aaron
One of my friends at school wants to take me out on my birthday and get me drunk. Another friend told her, "You know, just because you're turning legal age, doesn't mean you have to go out and get drunk.", to which I agreed. I told her that alcohol doesn't taste very good, and she gave me this look and said, "There is good-tasting stuff! You just haven't tried it yet." Right. Okay then.
I'm totally up for caroling! I hated doing it back in high school, but hey, I'm not humiliating myself in front of the entire school now (I'm humiliating myself in front of everyone else...) Bass power! I can talk to Bekki about joining us if you want, but you're right, she's a big flake. Also, do you have actual 3 or 4 part harmony for songs or are you going to go to Ms. Comfort and ask her or something? Or are we just doing it all in unison? (that's no fun)
I sent an e-mail to you guys already, but I'm going to be performing on World AIDS Day (December 1st). It would be awesome if you guys could come out!
That's all for now. Sunday game night?
~~Aaron
Monday, November 19, 2007
i'm okay with 16th but aaron if you must have a present on that day, the day after my exam, it may be from london drugs. I can always give you a pres later...so i won't get you on the 16th cause then i'll have time to think of something mildly decent for you but if nothing comes to mind, then you get NOTHING...jk it will just be from london drugs./
I went to costa blanca yesterday and they were having a 50% off eveything sale. i bought a cute "top" although it's a little lower than mid of my thigh. It was only $12.
WOOHOO!
I think i'll ask klau to join so we get some nice harmony or something close to it...also i want maybe 2 more people. i was thinking britta or becki but i don't know...i'm not sure if they're reliable...CUASE I DON"T KNOW THEM..not because they're NOT chinese or native in your case chels...lol...jk!
Jon doesn't want to do it...maybe i can get geoff...he works at iga so i can find him...
ann will have left by then so ann you're missing out...
hm...if aaron and chels you're in, and we can get 2 more peeps then i'll set up the carolling.
It will definitely be after exams...i was thinking 23 cause it's close to christmas and not on christmas eve...so it will be nice...and we can dress up even :D...imagine aaron, kevin and geoff being an elf yet they are taller than me and you chels...lol
Anyways ttyl
Anni was good.jon took me to the secret garden. it wasn't much of a secret but it was very enjoyable.
ann i want a canadian 3 cheese stuffed crust pizza PLEASE
I went to costa blanca yesterday and they were having a 50% off eveything sale. i bought a cute "top" although it's a little lower than mid of my thigh. It was only $12.
WOOHOO!
I think i'll ask klau to join so we get some nice harmony or something close to it...also i want maybe 2 more people. i was thinking britta or becki but i don't know...i'm not sure if they're reliable...CUASE I DON"T KNOW THEM..not because they're NOT chinese or native in your case chels...lol...jk!
Jon doesn't want to do it...maybe i can get geoff...he works at iga so i can find him...
ann will have left by then so ann you're missing out...
hm...if aaron and chels you're in, and we can get 2 more peeps then i'll set up the carolling.
It will definitely be after exams...i was thinking 23 cause it's close to christmas and not on christmas eve...so it will be nice...and we can dress up even :D...imagine aaron, kevin and geoff being an elf yet they are taller than me and you chels...lol
Anyways ttyl
Anni was good.jon took me to the secret garden. it wasn't much of a secret but it was very enjoyable.
ann i want a canadian 3 cheese stuffed crust pizza PLEASE
heya
lily: sounds good. i'm warning you though, i have no ability to read music... i just follow what people beside me are doing and match it... so i don't know how that's going to work :P
ann: i think that's good for everyone because from what i remember you finish the last for exams so that means everyone else is done :) WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL US THIS BEFORE???
aaron: talk to me!!!
joanne: hmm... still checking up on us? :(
-chels
ann: i think that's good for everyone because from what i remember you finish the last for exams so that means everyone else is done :) WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL US THIS BEFORE???
aaron: talk to me!!!
joanne: hmm... still checking up on us? :(
-chels
Sunday, November 18, 2007
ring-a-ding-ding
I just found out (or rather overlooked before) that i have one day in between when i have to leave and my last exam. it's the 16th (sunday) so aaron we can celebrate your birthday then if you wish :) but i can't stay up too late tho.
ann
ann
Do you guys want to be a christmas caroller?
I was thinking of doing it for the richmond hospital where jon's mom works. I think it will be fun. I was planning on doing it on dec 23...so ann you're going to miss the fun. Aaron, chels, this will give us time to practice and stuff.
tell me what you think
lily
I was thinking of doing it for the richmond hospital where jon's mom works. I think it will be fun. I was planning on doing it on dec 23...so ann you're going to miss the fun. Aaron, chels, this will give us time to practice and stuff.
tell me what you think
lily
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
you guys may have problems but i bet you mine beats all of yours hands down.
1) we're going to move in around 4 months (i know i've said this before but something makes me think this will actually happen) so my family will be separated
2) my house has mold on the walls and a black rat.
3) my brother George is the biggest douche bag out there. Whenever he doesn't have money to pay for his weed or cigs, he harasses Bill.
4) My brother George is SUCH a big douche bag that he spits on my food and calls me fat and ugly which might i add is a new low.
5) i'm crying now because my brother George is SUCH a big douche bag that he spits on my food and calls me fat and ugly which might i add is a new low.- this is the first time he did this so i haven't been exposed to this before which explains the crying.
6) it's depressing to come home
7) i hope the rat eats George.
I like adding this line because it makes me slightly happier.
This is how demented i've become. When big brother asked me if my family had been diagnosed with any mental disorders i said no but after i said that i began to question my answer.
The positive:
i can develop a thick neck which is always good
but on the way of developing it, it requires a lot of tears and sadness..and a rat...lol
1) we're going to move in around 4 months (i know i've said this before but something makes me think this will actually happen) so my family will be separated
2) my house has mold on the walls and a black rat.
3) my brother George is the biggest douche bag out there. Whenever he doesn't have money to pay for his weed or cigs, he harasses Bill.
4) My brother George is SUCH a big douche bag that he spits on my food and calls me fat and ugly which might i add is a new low.
5) i'm crying now because my brother George is SUCH a big douche bag that he spits on my food and calls me fat and ugly which might i add is a new low.- this is the first time he did this so i haven't been exposed to this before which explains the crying.
6) it's depressing to come home
7) i hope the rat eats George.
I like adding this line because it makes me slightly happier.
This is how demented i've become. When big brother asked me if my family had been diagnosed with any mental disorders i said no but after i said that i began to question my answer.
The positive:
i can develop a thick neck which is always good
but on the way of developing it, it requires a lot of tears and sadness..and a rat...lol
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