I had a weird dream last night involving escalators, dividing things by 8, chinese egg yolks, weird purple pills that multiply in water, playing air hockey with the egg yolks and then feeding them to birds outside of this pet store in Metrotown. Btw, I was playing air hockey with Chels, so that made it somewhat interesting too.

Yeah, so the play was really good (Ann will agree with me on this). And yes, I finally saw him and I thought he was really cute (Ann will agree with me on this too). I didn't get a chance to talk to him afterwards though; he was surrounded by, well, everyone else there. Then again, so was I. But I did see him and I tried to walk over to him but then I got nervous and wondered if he wanted to talk to me or not, considering he hasn't responded to the e-mail I sent him a week ago. I don't know what to do or think anymore.... maybe I'm just so used to people doing it for me, or maybe this time I just want someone to do whatever the hell they want. Then when I got home I felt weird and angry and sad again, much like last week except this time, I didn't do anything about it; no e-mails, no text messaging, no nothing. I realize now that some of you have no idea what I'm talking about, and I'm okay with that. I just need a place to vent. Se défouler, if I remember correctly. Then I really wanted to write a song or at least get on paper, but I guess I forgot about that.

Anyway, I'm sure there's more I wanted to say, but either I'm purposely forgetting to type it out or I'm choosing not to put it in. Either or.

~~Aaron

PS In the slim chance Lily is reading this, where were you on Friday after 2 pm?!

blorb

so dan finally got a job; can't remember if i told you, ann. i never realised how annoying it is... he never says anything about me working. now we have to work around both our schedules... and i think i might be moving to the bakery at IGA. i think. things are kinda retarded right now... but i think so.

on another note: aarie, you were supposed to tell me to come to the play with you? did you go alone? or has it still not happened? :S

okay, i'm on the phone with dan (while trying to do my chem write up) and he "went to the washroom" but has been gone for a while... :| hmm... *soupconneuse*

it's sunny and nice outside. sunny and nice.


that's all. have a good day :)

must do chem. really. :( missing math again. ah well...


-chels

sigh..i'm suffering from writers block..(not on this, on my essay) hopefully this will start the flow process
aaron i'm happy you sent him the email (i'm not about to dispense dating advice seeing as where i stand) but keeping everything to yourself is probably the worst feeling in the world, and if he knew the emotional turmoil you're going thru he probably would want you to tell him everything (dunno if that makes sense..) by the time you read this some of it may seem irrelevant, but i just want to say until you put yourself out there, you can't expect anything extraordinary to happen. it's just like in that song that country chick was singing..umm Renee something..anyway i hope you're doing okay and that the emotional drama is subsiding.

Ann
ps. i still have writer's block

the boy i like

It's 1:22 in the morning. I'm up typing an e-mail to him because I have to know. I went and walked outside in the rain after I talked to him on MSN, and he mentioned something about having a crush on this straight guy who is in the play with him, and for whatever reason, I immediately got jealous, and then sad. So here I am.

I'm debating whether to click on Send. The big part of tells me I should do it. The small, sane part of me says I'll lose another friend and end up feeling like complete !@#$ if I do, which is always what happens. God, why does this always happen to me? I'm not supposed to do this. I mean, I think about Jordan, Sean, that guy from EWC.... what if the only answer i'm ever going to get is "No"? What if I'm just going to be alone...... I don't know how much more my heart can take and I know I'm sounding like a complete girl right now, but I feel like one. one of the big things that's holding me back is that I met a guy in this situation like this one, and he actually liked me, but I didn't feel anything for him, and we're not actually talking anymore. What if that happens with this guy? I really don't want to lose him, because I think he's wonderful.

Crap... now I'm crying over him. That was definitely not supposed to happen.




Fuck that. I'm sending it.

diggin the drama

wow aaron, you should start charging ppl for the demo if that many ppl want it..(can i have one please?) Anyhoo, you're right, i am digging all your soap opera action. I talked to my friend at sfu and she has this really flamboyant gay guy friend and he said the best (and easiest) way to meet singles is at clubs, so when you turn 19, we be hittin' some clubs my friend ;) so yeah, my "spring break" starts after my exams are over i guess, which is hmm...April 18th. And i might be working at mcdonalds this summer, so cheap ice cream for everone!

Ann

Stupid soap opera fairy!!!!!!!!

I figured I should let you guys know before I pulled a Lily.

I met this guy online and even though we've only talked a few times on MSN, I think he's wonderful. He reminds me so much of Noah in Boy Meets Boy (the book that I lent to you, Chels). And I know he's gay, so that's not a problem (at least this time). The problem is that everytime we talk, he never remembers who I am, and he tells me it's only because he knows a lot of people, but I fear that I am not memorable. And if I'm so into him, and he's not really that into me, that's a bad thing, right? So he asked me way back in February to come see this play that his high school is putting on (yes, he's in Grade 12). And yeah, I'm excited to go (it's next week, btw)

I think I'm jealous. On his profile page, it says he's looking for friends. That's a downer, already. Also he's "friends" with two other guys, both of whom I think are younger (at least one of them is) and I found myself getting jealous, because they're probably talking to him more than I am. But I think he's really really great and I really like him and if something's going on between him and someone, I don't want to get in the way. And sure, we could just be friends, but I've honestly never met anyone like him before. And i feel like I've let so many chances go by that I dont' want to let another one fly past me. I think I'm overthinking the whole stupid problem. Or maybe he does secretly secretly like me back. I don't know what to do.... what do you guys think? I hate to be dumping my "love life" crap on you guys, but I'm sure you're all getting kicks out of reading about this frickin soap opera (especially you Ann)

In other news, I've been burning copies of my demo. I've actually named my demo (is that unusual? I know Vanessa Carlton did, but she had way more than 4 songs) and I named it "Empty", after the first song. I, like Vanessa, have always wanted to name demos/cds that aren't names of songs, but I thought this was fitting and it went well with the rest of the songs there. Anyway, I'll get you guys a copy if you want it, of course.

I should go and burn some more copies. It's amazing how people are wanting them.

~~Aaron

PS I may get hired by Long & Mcquade. I don't think I left a lasting impression though, apart from the colour of my hair.

:)

congrats aarie :) things sound good with you!

i thought you were bringing ann with you too?

i though you were leaving fs anyways... how long does it take to go to L&M? do you get a discount? what would be better about working there? just consider your options... but you made it seem like fs was pretty shitty, so i don't know why you'd wanna stay. but if you do, obviously something's keeping you there so just think about what's good about both jobs :)

working tomorrow and sunday. usually work weekends but may be quitting... it's a kinda long story and i actually was submitting my letter of resignation but the manager was on vacation so i'm kinda confused at what's happenning...

we had reading break about a month ago, which was our spring break. school's over in a month though :P

taking summer school probably both terms because i've been taking french and not the required courses.

ann: i still have your surprise... i keep forgetting. i found it again... it's in my room.'

deciding my degree specifications now. :| i went in to talk to one of the student advisors today; he was really nice. very helpful.

i'd lurve a copy of your demo :) whatcha gonna do with it?

would that be cool if i were a food inspector? :)

hahaha

okay, must continue search. sorry i couldn't make it to your thing, aarie. we were really late...

-chels

DEMO!!!!

Wow...so much has happened in a week. I don't even know where to begin... but I will. I went into the recording studio again on Wednesday at about 1:00pm with Maggie and Bekki and we did a lot of recording and stuff. I left at 11:00-ish, so I guess I spent like, 10 hours there. I left with 2 copies of a demo, with 4 of my songs. Three of them I'm singing/playing piano, and the last one is just a small piano song I wrote. If you guys want copies of my demo, I'll be sure to burn you copies of it. It's not the most perfect thing in the world; there are some noticeable things here and there, and it's set at a low volume (we didn't have time to master the songs) but it sounds alright. Ahhhh.... i have a demo!

Also on Wednesday, Long and McQuade (a music store) phoned me asking if I was still interested in getting a job there. I think it was about 2 months ago that I submitted my resume there, so I guess they're phoning me about that. I just phoned them back a few minutes ago, and they told me they only hire full-time ppl, which kinda sucks (the only part-time ppl they have are ppl that have been working there for a few years). I don't know if I should take that or stay with Futureshop. Anyway, I'm going in next Wednesday for an interview, so I guess we'll be sure to talk about that. If I took the job at Long and McQuade, it would limit my shows, to a certain point (she said shifts are from 9:00 - 6:30) so I don't know if I can do that.

What else... oh we should get together on Saturday or something to go lazer tagging or something... maybe Sunday? Okay then...

I think that's all I have to say for now. You guys have Spring Break, right? Or is that just for high schoolers?

~~Aaron

Out of the labyrinth

Rawr! Oh look, Lily was here, I think. How strange...

So I may be going into the recording studio this week. I e-mailed them saying I had the gift certificates already and that I wanted to go and they e-mailed me back and said that we should pick a time to come in and then have fun. I'm so excited!!!! Ahhh!! Anyway, Ann, I don't know if you're free on Friday, but that's what I told them. (I still remember you wanted to see the inside of a recording studio) What time do you get off school?

Other than that, nothing's been going on. I now work 2 days a week, which is really good for me because sometimes I can't stand it there. Have you found a job yet, Ann? How about that "keyholder" position?

Oh, we haven't talked about love lives lately. I assume this is because either you don't have one at all and it's pointless mentioning it (Ann) or you do have one and nothing that super-duper-awesome is going on (Chels?) or you don't like talking about it, and if you do, it's gonna be full of plotless stories (Lily). Am I right? I fall into that category with Ann, unless she's found someone and is keeping the details under wraps....... I'm watching you!!!

Okay, I think that's it.

~~Aaron

PS. I saw this Spongebob game at London Drugs and it was really weird but it looked really interesting... I regret not getting it

Hey Everyone I'm back...

Hey lovely ladies and Ann :D and Aaron...of course

So i guess a lot have changed.
Well I have 2 midterms coming up and a lab test and essays...
But yeah enough with school...
So how's everyone...i'm really addicted to facebook which is sad but oh well..
anyways just dropped by to say hi...
<3 karaoke !! and taboo

yuppity yup

red hair, not streaks, hair...i'd show you a pic of it but all the pics i've taken since i dyed it looks dark brown not red, but believe me you can tell (there was this girl that i haven't talked to in 3 weeks and even she noticed..) and excuse me aaron, there are millions of ppl who dye their hair red, who's to say i copied you and not them? and anyway your's is far more prominent than mine, so don't you worry bout that. on a completely seperate note, i am taking the worst english course ever, yes ever. it's supposed to be english, yet we keep reading books about biologist who record the lives of cells, ugh (i get shivers just talking about it..) i think i've finally found something more pointless than lily's stories. and now i must write a reader response log to prove that i have read it (and not dropped the book and watched trial by video..which is what i actually did)

ps. chels your hair didn't change cause you only put like 3 drops on it

ann

aha first of the month!

urgh. so i had made plans with dan for this saturday a couple weeks ago and he didn't remind me because he said he figured i'd remember... but of course i didn't so i took a shift for this girl at work and now i'm working like, 26 hours this week. they're so stupid and keep giving me 19 hours a week even though i have a restriction at 16 hours during school. wth??? arg.

anyways, i can't do anything this weekend because now i'm working fri sat sun but prolly next weekend is okay for me.

chem is tedious, man. if only i had like, a tutor or something to just TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON. not that i can't figure it out... it just takes me a really long time during which i get really frustrated.

aarie: so have you officially left? i had a dream cheryl died and i went to future shop to tell them...
what cd was free?

ann: red head or red streaks?

the bleach didn't do anything to my hair (at all... like, not even slightly brown)

-chels