Stupid soap opera fairy!!!!!!!!

I figured I should let you guys know before I pulled a Lily.

I met this guy online and even though we've only talked a few times on MSN, I think he's wonderful. He reminds me so much of Noah in Boy Meets Boy (the book that I lent to you, Chels). And I know he's gay, so that's not a problem (at least this time). The problem is that everytime we talk, he never remembers who I am, and he tells me it's only because he knows a lot of people, but I fear that I am not memorable. And if I'm so into him, and he's not really that into me, that's a bad thing, right? So he asked me way back in February to come see this play that his high school is putting on (yes, he's in Grade 12). And yeah, I'm excited to go (it's next week, btw)

I think I'm jealous. On his profile page, it says he's looking for friends. That's a downer, already. Also he's "friends" with two other guys, both of whom I think are younger (at least one of them is) and I found myself getting jealous, because they're probably talking to him more than I am. But I think he's really really great and I really like him and if something's going on between him and someone, I don't want to get in the way. And sure, we could just be friends, but I've honestly never met anyone like him before. And i feel like I've let so many chances go by that I dont' want to let another one fly past me. I think I'm overthinking the whole stupid problem. Or maybe he does secretly secretly like me back. I don't know what to do.... what do you guys think? I hate to be dumping my "love life" crap on you guys, but I'm sure you're all getting kicks out of reading about this frickin soap opera (especially you Ann)

In other news, I've been burning copies of my demo. I've actually named my demo (is that unusual? I know Vanessa Carlton did, but she had way more than 4 songs) and I named it "Empty", after the first song. I, like Vanessa, have always wanted to name demos/cds that aren't names of songs, but I thought this was fitting and it went well with the rest of the songs there. Anyway, I'll get you guys a copy if you want it, of course.

I should go and burn some more copies. It's amazing how people are wanting them.

~~Aaron

PS I may get hired by Long & Mcquade. I don't think I left a lasting impression though, apart from the colour of my hair.