Cloud in a bottle

So here i am, just off the phone a few seconds ago from talking to Dan. I guess we're finally doing the Iron Chef thing after all (with no Lily!) My mind is a bit clouded right now... i'll tell you why right now.

The following is a convo i had was having with my friend, Liam (the one who was in that play).

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: okay, well either you'redoing work or your ignoring me but there'e just one thing i have to say...

Let Go. says: ok.

Let Go. says: busy with a CE project.

Let Go. says: I'm all ears.

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: i had this granola bar a week ago and it tasted like halloween... i tried to explain to my sister but i realized you would be the only one who could remotely understand what i meant

Let Go. says: I know EXACTLY what you mean!

Let Go. says: I ate a freezie today and it tasted "blue"

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: YES! see, i knew it

Let Go. says: hehe

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: anyway, that's all i wanted to tell you...hope everything is alright with you

Let Go. says: yeah...broke up with my sorta bf and trying to make him fell okay now...so hard.

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: what? i'm sorry to hear that... may i ask what happened?

Let Go. says: I came to a realization that we just didn't "click" and ended the relationship....badly, though. I just didn't talk to him. THat was not wise.

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: o goodh, hmm... that doesn't sound

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: oops... that didn't make sense

Let Go. says: no, it's not.

Let Go. says: perfect sense.

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: i'm confused, but i'm going to admit it (even though i think i just did...)

Let Go. says: indeed

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: you sure you're busy? you're talking like you're not

Let Go. says: I don' t know anymore...

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: mmm, why not?

Let Go. says: my mind has too many thoughts right now.

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: i understand... like a cloud in a bottle

Let Go. says: exactly.

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: this might seem weird and i hope it doesn't create more clouds, but... i've missed talking to you

Let Go. says: me too.

Finished an important song / "Nothing" means you're lying says: so... how goes the origami making?

Let Go. says: sorry, but I gotta go and cry now.

So that's what happened. I don't know what to think... i received his last message and i didn't know what to say, so i just stared at the screen. I was thinking of saying something like, "I'm sorry for everything" or "I hope you feel better" but both seemed just... not enough. So before I could type anything back, he signed off. I kinda sad now. I don't know what it is, but when someone i know is sad or having a bad day/time in life, I get a little sad too. It happened in Ottawa with my friend Amy, it happened with Chels (a few times) and now this... I could just imagine him crying on his bed and me just wanting to sit by him and try and make him feel better. I don't know what to think now. I guess I just hope that he wasn't upset because of anything I said, because that would only make me feel worse. I don't know what to do....

Btw, I'm "Finished an important song" and he's Let Go" in case you didn't get that.

I'm picking up my new laptop tomorrow at around 12:00 noon time so I'll be a tad late getting to Ann's house. Maybe now I can finally get some stuff done that I need to (ie. registering for school). Surprisingly, I'm excited to get to film school. It seems like a really fun program there. Plus, apparently at the end of your program, you get to present a film project to the acting/directing department at the school and they will make it. Then you can walk away with a movie/film/short film with your portfolio and stuff.... it sounds exciting and cool. I have to keep typing or else the computer will slow down on me and it will autosave, which drags it down.

Anyway, hope you're all doing well (especially Lily in China!) and I'll see you guys tomorrow.

~~Aaron

PS. I would've written an essay like Ann but I had too many things on my mind, surprisingly
PPS. Ann has a love life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can see where you're coming from. i always thought that life can be hideously unfair, and i'm not just talking about the people in those poverty stricken countries, but i look at my friends and i see how one person can be so much luckier than another just because they were born into something. i mean no one person deserves more happiness than another, but some of us have to deal with all kinds of crap just cause we were born into it. this in turn shapes the people we become and how we perceive others and ourselves.

just because we are born into a life where we don't have to worry about food or shelter or HIV, doesn't mean we are neccessarily happier or luckier than those with simpler lives. my mom always said that when she was little, even having candy to eat would make her day cause she could only get them around chinese new years. i think nowadays everyone has way more than we could ever need, and consumerism is an empty void that we could never fill. which is why i agree that it is stupid indeed. it doesn't promise any real happiness (no material belongings can) but just a brief period of giddiness until we get sick of what we bought and tossed it into a pile.

i think there's always gonna be stupidity and suffering in the world, no one person can change that, and if enough of us care maybe we can make a difference. but i think in the mean time, we should make the most of what we have. there are only so many people in this world that are lucky enough to be born in first world countries so we should really put all our pain in perspective to the rest of the world's and try to get some satisfaction out of life just because we are lucky enough to.

thats all, gotta get ready for my job interview (i think i'm gonna start rambling on in the interview..)

ann

ps

sorry for such non-happy postage following your arrival aarie. i'm glad you're back, really.

-chels

ignorance will be the death of me

god, do you ever get those moments where you actually stop, and actually STOP and think about things? and think about the world and the issues everyone's on top of and the one's that need more attention and wonder what else is wrong in the world? it's really depressing...

ignorance is bliss, and that's true... but unfortunately, the truth (or at least partial truth) usually comes up and then... bad things. i don't know, i think half truths are worse than full truth but like... remember that short story about that computer that has to process all the information of everyone in the world and gives everyone advice on how to make things better but in the end it gets overloaded with everything and tries to commit suicide? sometimes i feel like that. not that i have to give everyone advice, but just that everything is so retarded and there are so many things that are just so... wrong in this world. like i can't handle thinking about it. it's just so frustrating because it's like... it makes everything i know or want seem to stupid and... and... it makes me feel consumerist, to say the least. it makes me feel spoiled, but not in a good way. it's like, what makes me have what i have? what decides that? why are there so many fucking people who will never have a life like this? what did they do? why do they have to... to i don't even know.

it's just... everything out there makes me feel so insignificant, you know? like "BIG" things in life ie grad, prom, first bf, getting a house, going to school, getting cds, clothes... it all just seems to stupid. why am i like this? am i just some naive consumerist product of... of... whore-y capitalist values?

i'm just so sad right now. not only do i feel like everything i "worry" about... that all those "big" things are really just stupid when put into perspective, but also that there are so many people out there who need help... and that i can't do a thing about it. i feel so useless and futile. there are so many people who don't even know they need help... there is so much ignorance...

in your survey thing you sent out, aaron, one question was something different that you're against... and i said something like people feeling strongly about things... i guess i really meant ignorance and closedmindedness... when people are unwilling to even hear what others have to say... when people feel it's not okay for other people to disagree... and to just... leave it and accept that people feel differently... that's when people get hurt. you also asked what we feared most... i think i fear not doing anything... i'm afraid that everything i've just blurted out is true: that i really am insignificant; that i really CAN'T do anything; that i'm alone; that i'm useless, purposeless, and a waste of time. if i weren't here, could i give up my life for someone else? does that make sense?

there are things that are good, of course, but i mean... there is just so much wrong. so much is wrong... it's just like, okay, what now?

what if i die and my greatest accomplishment is like... getting a degree at ubc? or winning a hot dog eating contest? god, if i weren't dead already i think i'd die again of... just... stupidity. i don't know. i want to do something more than that... but there's just so much wrong. where do i start? what do i do?

i don't think i will ever be satisfied with myself because... because i guess until the world stops being retarded, i will never feel like i did anything at all.

i hope you guys understand a bit, at least. i'm not looking for advice or anything, i just want to know that you know and at least kind of get me.

-chelsea

Finally home

I'm home! Ahh.... it feels great to be back. It's about 11:54 pm right now. It was a long flight... it was supposed to be a 4 hour flight but we got there 15 minutes early, I think (so we landed at 8:45 pm). Then at the Vancouver airport, the line for customs was sooooo long. There must have been like 100 people in line already (seriously... it was that bad) but the line moved at a pretty good pace. At this point, Maggie and I were taking bets on when exactly we would be setting foot out of the actual airport; she said 9:35 and I said 9:44, just so that it wasn't exact. So we finally got through customs and proceeded to get our luggage from the carousel. We figured that because we had been waiting for so long in the line that our baggage (all of it) would probably be circling around on it already. But when we got there, we didn't see our luggage and we almost resorted to going to the baggage claim and asking what the hell happened. We figured it may have gotten lost because we had a connection flight in Fort Worth, Dallas. We waited some more and I saw my suitcase so I grabbed it and we assumed that Maggie's would be really close by since we had travelled together and they checked both of them in at the same time... but no. After it finished dumping (haha, dumping) out the luggage, it just stopped. The carousel was still spinning, but the ramp thingy just stopped and we didn't know what to do. There were still lots of people standing around from our airplane waiting for their luggage as well, so we knew it was just us. We waited again some more and finally another batch came out and we got Maggie's suitcase. We basically flew by all the exits, handed in our customs form and zoomed out of the airport at... you guessed it, 9:44!!! So yeah, I was right. Anyhooz, I am now back in Vancouver and yay! Hope you guys had fun without me. We have to get together so I can give you your exotic presents (yes, exotic... as far away as Alabama/Tennessee)

So Lily's gone to Shanghai I hear. I hope you're having fun there. Try not to sweat too much... it's not a good look for you.

Ann: You sound happy with your job.

Chels: You don't sound happy with your job. Quitting soon? Let's go job hunting together!I have something that might cheer you up.

Amazingly, I don't feel tired, and not because I slept on the plane, because I didn't sleep on the plane. I did have to pee severely because they gave me too much stuff to drink. Can you believe they didn't even offer us a meal? Not even the ones we had to pay for...

And also, random can be overrated, yes, but this guy seems just kinda... I don't want to say this, but average? There's nothing hugely interesting about him, other than the fact that he wants to be a funeral director... and that he's really good-looking. Besides, I don't think he's into me that way and neither am I, strangely enough. Finally, he lives out in Indiana.

See you guys soon! You guys can see me perform on Thursday (technically today)

~~Aaron

catfish

why are they able to have catfish? why are they not real fish?

summer school was a mistake. i've got midterms on wed and thurs. i'm not ready. ie, i haven't even finished reading the chapters.

aarie: random can be overrated. don't judge someone by his/her spontenaeity, but... i don't know, just... do you like the person? does he sincerely care about you? is he interesting?

ann: yeah my mom told me about my phone. i figured 'cause i went to look at the time at the bus stop and didn't have my phone. i had dropped my bag (unzipped, of course) at your place near the kitchen area and looked around but didn't see anything come out so i just shrugged it off.

again, i have midterms on wed and thurs but i'm good on friday... i believe... i'll check if i'm workign and let you know. prom is on sat. woohoo. i don't know how these things even happen to me.


arg. i was on facebook and msged tina and now i'm annoyed. i'm going to repost my post to tina, kay?


i don't know, i don't know!!! [she asked me if i was leaving IGA] i'm incredibly sick of working. i feel like it's such a waste of my time and i'm so sick of IGA. this lady was really pissed at me today (so was adrien, [adrien is a manager] or at least he pretended to be) because her kid ran into one of those bagging things -you know those things you put the bags into so it holds them up so you can stick things inside? well yeah, i don't really know what happened but i guess there was one hanging off the side of my till area and he must have been running fast because he was lying on the floor and crying and i didn't know what to do because it really didn't seem that serious but his mom was sooo pissed she was talking about liability and stuff and i was like "uhh... is he okay?" and she went off about how it happened in the store and so i kind of ignored that and asked if he needed anything (i was thinking, ice or something) but she was so obsessed about the fact that it happened AT MY TILL (ohemgeeeee) so i called adrien to "help"so when he came and she said what happened he came over and asked me where the bagging thing was. wth??? then they spent the next god knows how long trying to figure out where the bagging thing was situated... adrien even called the service clerk to get further information on the whereabouts of the bagging device. hooooly crap. i was just like, wth??? the thing is, the bag-holder isn't exactly sharp or small (to trip over) or anything so i was just like, okay, your kid ran into it... he's fine, didn't poke out an eye or anything... no cuts, scrapes, no gangrene... he was obviously running (or else he wouldnt've gotten hurt... the thing is VERY unsharp) so what's the big deal? i know it's not my kid, but seriously, there was SUCH a scene and the mom was leaning over her kid as if he had broken his ribs or something and was horribly disfigured/pained... and she was just SO going on about how it was MY TILL and not talking about the kid being hurt or anything was bothering me.

>:| gr

okay sleepy. nite!

-chels

i work hard for the money...

well not really, but my first paycheque is coming out, and we can all go celebrate soon :) aaron's treat..jk. so what are we all up to these days?? haven't heard from chels in some time, btw chels, incase you didn't get the message and is going mad with madness, i have your phone. you dropped it in a shoe in the kitchen and when my mom was in the kitchen she was like "why is there a phone in the shoe?" and yeah, only you would be careless enough to drop it there. i turned it off caus it always makes me nervous when i have to answer someone else's phone. But we should do something fun before ppl start coming back and i'm pretty sure you want your phone back...i probly call you tomoro, but i'm up for things on wed or fri (not sure if aaron will be back then) we should go see spiderman 3 or smthg..i assume the nerds would have ebbed by now

ann (look, yellow!)

Time in seconds

Hey guys... it's me, still reporting from Huntsville, Alabama. I'm excited to come home... just two and a half more days here and i'll be back to good old Vancity.

So,... I went to church today. Yeah, i know, hard to believe huh? Well, it was really just my sister's doing. We went to a universalist church. It was sort of odd there... there was no mention of God, or the bible, or Jesus or anything like that. It was a really open-minded church... in one of the hymns that was sung (I didn't sing anything) called, "We are a gentle, angry people" there was a verse in it with the line, "We are gay and straight together". I was slightly taken aback by that, since I had always associated the word church with religion, and religion associated with intolerance and stupidity... but it was different. I guess I have a new understanding of a few things, but not very much because I think a lot of people still believe in crap.

Also today, I had a catfish burger. Because Huntsville is nowhere near an ocean, there isn't any kind of salmon or real fish... and apparently catfish is used a lot here. It was alright... tasted like a normal fish, I guess.

About Chelsea's thing: I understand what you mean, but I don't see myself the same way. I can imagine you with Dan for... many years and maybe until you get old. But with me, I can see myself with a lot of guys (not at the same time, of course). Sigh... maybe it means I don't know what I want. Maybe it means you know who you want.

Ann: sounds like work is fun... what's this about the european girl? Is she mean to you or something? I wanna hear about it.

How is summer course with you guys? Did I ask that already?

~~Aaron

PS I was wrong about the guy... the more i talk with him, the more I see that he's conventional... I don't want conventional, I want someone random and spontaneous. Is that too much to ask for?

crimony

this might seem out of the blue but i really appreciate this blog thing, especially when you are atop a deserted mountain and have a 2 hour break with just your brain to accompany you..

so aaron, don't you know how to paint the town red (hehehe, it's green)...one day i will go to this so called "better-than-the-vancouver-aquarium" aquarium...and i think the friends trivia game is so cheap caus it's USD so it's actually not that much cheaper, but i will check it out because i have nothing else to do...my stomach feels like burning :( i think i had too much coffee again. so to your earlier question work is good, i'm actually appreciating it more now. the shifts they gave me are pretty good : mon, wed: 5pm-9pm, sat, sun: 5pm-10pm, and the ppl are pretty fun to work with (cept for this one euro bitch, i despise her >:P ) but other than that life is good. soooo...new guy eh? wink wink* (return of the creepy winks) does he live in alabama? caus that's not where you live (in case you forgot) i can't wait for you to come back, and not just because i want my souvenir, but we can continue our crazy adventures, yipee!

so chlesea, i do wanna go to that afgan place..i like ethnic foods, and i like to sit on the floor :)
i can't imagine spending the rest of my life with one guy either, i get nervous just imagining you spending the rest of your life with dan..so yeah, not so big on the commitment part yet. but who knows, maybe some guy will come along and sweep me off my feet (i don't know if that's the proper phrase...sounds weird) my whole perspective on the issue might change. so are you up for doing things with louis on fri before she leaves? i can't wait for my first paycheck, i'll buy you guys lunch or smthg (after i blow most of it on graphic tees and colourful pants).

alrighty then, ttyl friends

ann

Downtown, where all the lights are bright

Hey guys... it's me again. I'm just going to be short here. I went to a Toys R Us here and I found the Scene it Friends edition for $19.99!!! Yeah, crazy. I wanted to buy it but I definitely do not have enough room in my suitcase for it. So, I just wanted you (Ann) to go and check it out at Toys R Us to see if they have it on sale there too, before it's over. Maybe it's there, maybe not.

I have all of $20 left to spend for another week and few days. I've gotten most of you guys souvenirs so you don't have to worry about that :)

I'm looking forward to coming home. I went bowling today with my sisters and I was thinking about the time when we went bowling and how it was so much easier with the small bowling balls and the shorter lanes. Yeah... I miss Vancouver and you guys.

We should go bowling again.

~~Aaron

PS I don't want to say this, but I will because I'm sure Ann is dying to know.... I think I like another guy. (I'm not saying anything more because it will make me crazy and stupid)

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aww man, i'm pooooped.

so yesterday... or i guess monday, when i went to donate blood, ann came with me (which was good or else i think i would have been really scared) and i ate breakfast and stuff but i guess i ate too early or something because by the time it was my turn, i was getting a bit hungry... grrr... so long story short, i started getting dizzy after... i don't know, 8-10 minutes or something and then it was really weird and my thinking got r e a l l y s l o w so i told the nurse lady when she came to check on me and then they did the weird chair tilt (so your feet are higher than your head) and then they started putting cold cloths on my forehead and wrists. weird. anyhow, it went away... but while i was thinking slowly, i was kind of wondering if i was going to faint. i've never fainted before and was wondering what it would be like... but then i thought it would probably be not good for me, so yeah, as i said, i told the lady. have any of you ever fainted?

and may 15th was dan's bday. his parents took him and his brother and me to the afghan horseman and it was really good. we should go one day. you get to sit on the floor, if you want (they have cushions).

emm... well, i'm really really sleepy... i really need to do homework.

hmm... what else? nothing, really. i hope you're good, aarie. it's SUNNY like crazy here. really nice... like, 25C today :) (knock on woooooood)

arg. can you imagine going out with one guy forever? or going out with lots of lots of guys during your life? i couldn't imagine myself going out with anyone until the day dan asked me out (seriously, i was majorly doubting he'd ask me out so i couldn't even imagine going out with HIM)... but like, i can KIND OF imagine staying with him forever, in a future fantasy type way (just like the Perfect Guy fantasy type of thing: you CAN imagine it, you're just not sure how viable it is), but at the same time, i cannot cannot CANNOT imagine being with any other guy. well, seriously, i mean. i mean, i cannot imagine myself being in a serious romantic relationship that is satisfactorially functional with anyone other than daniel. does anyone know what i'm trying to say? or ever think of this type of thing too?

sleeeeeeep. okay, got morning class tomorrow. i will check on this soooon.

goood nitee

-chels

ps- Ye Olde Pube


pps- okay, well, hopefully at least ann will get that so it won't be TOO weird...

Cowboys and Angels

Hey ppl! First off, let me say there are no cowboys, ranches, or hicks around (not sure about the ranch dressing, though). Southern people are really nice, like genuinely nice. Yeah, they have accents but it's not a hard thing to ignore. We get stares here and there from people who dont' see Asian people everyday, but that's becauswe there isn't a huge Asian population. I have seen some around (like i've heard in ancient myths). It's like Las Vegas here... really hot outside, cool inside with all the air conditioning.

So what's going on over in the mother country? Ann, how's your job? Still in training or are you taking actual orders? How's school for people who are in school again? What's the weather like? Is it sunny or still raining every now and then?

Mmm... what else.... oh, I visited the Tennessee Aquarium the other day and let me say that it is wayyy better than the Vancouver one. Bigger, more animals, a better gift shop, they've got it all. I got this hammerhead shark plushie and I love it. It's my bf for the week, haha. There aren't many cute guys around, not many around my age either, but there's the occasional guy I gotta do the old double-take for. Boys are the least of my troubles here, though.

There isn't a whole lot to do here... have I said that already? I gotta find another notebook for songs. Speaking of songs, a guy I know added music to lyrics I wrote on the road to Tennessee. Here is a link to it (he's singing)

http://www.sharebigfile.com/file/168004/Where-the-Sidewalk-Ends-mp3.html

Also, I enjoy the use of colours again. They make me happy :)

Anyway, I don't think I have anything left to say. Mmm... miss you all!

~~Aaron

hey aaron, how's huntsville? sounds like a place where mystries go unsolved..anyhoo i didn't get the simpson's jeopardy game, and i realized it won't wait for me forever just like the sea horse teeshirt that sold out :( why do stuff like this keep happening to me??? sigh, well guess you'll have to think of something else to get me for my birthday...
chels iga called me again, but it was the broadway location...seems like every location wants me cept yours :( so i applied in person to the dunbar one.

well not much to tell, keep me posted on all your bull wrestling and lassooing aaron.

ann

ahoy there!

so i finally remembered to look up phys stuff (the summer courses brochure came out on tuesday) and now i'm kind of confused... i think i'm gonna hafta go to the place one day and ask them about it... :| i don't want to go to main street! too far!

anyways, lily and ann and i are going to canadian blood services on saturday, i believe. wait. i'll call now to make an appointment... oh the guys says i'm already booked. cool. thanks lily! weird though... i really didn't think you could make appointments for other people.

so... yeah. poop. summer school. i hate work. but my last paycheck more than doubled my account balance so i must continue :( i hope i get another raise soon.

soo..... sooo... what's there to do there down south? have you been on a ranch? are there ranches there? oh, is there any ranch dressing???

i'm cold and i need to go to ubc soon to buy stuff for ECON...! urg. stupid books. i miss my summer a bit already... i want to go on a train thing this summer... anyone up for that? (it's pretty pricey so don't say yes if you're iffy... unless you have money to burn, i guess... it's under $200 for a one day thing though...) i've always wanted to so let me know if you wanna go!

also, i want to go sailing this summer... i don't know if there are any courses or anything this summer, but i'm sure i can find something if someone wants to join :) (i don't want to sail alone... too scary!!!) i have taken a short course before (summer after grade 11) but i doubt i remember much. it's REALLY fun though :)

kay i should really get going. gotta make myself dinner for class tonight :|

see yooou...

AARON: WEAR SUNBLOCK!!!

-chels

Popple vs the people

Hey guys... I'm reporting from Huntsville here. It's warmer than in Vancouver (about 20 degrees here) and sunny-ish. I'm sleeping on an air mattress, which is a lot better than it sounds. What else... people upstairs are kinda loud, and outside too. Anyway, nothing else to say.

I managed to get Trivial Pursuit before I left yesterday. DId you get the SImpons Jeopardy Ann? It's not going to wait for you forever...

Keep me updated on what's going on back home

~~Aaron

Idiots and Dolls at two schools

Gah... applying for stupid schools is stressful. Who knew? I don't get stressed easily and here I am, stressed like Ann before Mr. Sankey's current events projects. So yeah... i may be staying in Vancouver after all. I think I'm going to spend another year here (at least another year) and then see where things go. I'll let you guys know what will happen.

Hey, I want to sleepover too! (I"m only saying that because I've never slept at anyone's house before). Whatever happened to the "canceling" out thing?? (nudge nudge, wink wink) Anyhoo.... I'm trying to fill in space here. And i'm not doing a very good job, not like Lily and her plotless/pointless stories...

So what's happening with game night? I tested out the Amazing Race.... it's quite hard. I didn't think it would be, but it kinda is. Anyway, I'm really looking forward to it.... what's with hot pot? Who came up with that? What the hell is going on?!?! AHHH!!!!

~~Aaron

PS I can barely see what I'm typing....
PPS I had a dream about Ann working at Pizza Hut and I was trying to find you

sighs sighs and more sighs

wow, everyone is leaving :( chels promise we'll have so much fun without these guys that we won't miss them till they're back. i feel kinda unnerving right now, everything's gonna be different so soon it's unsettling...but yay, i'm gonna have a job :) then i can be financially liberal (free celebratory cupcakes for all)!!! btw, i'm still not quite sure what's happening on sun..so far i have meeting everyone and getting chels at IGA after work at 4:30, going to (aaron's house???) with games and so on...getting hot pot afterwards. hey chels we should have a sleepover after aaron's gone :D

ann

work sched

here you go sorry it's late :(

may...
4th (friday) 1-830
5th (saturday) 10-530
6th (sunday) 8-430
11th (friday) 415-945
12th (saturday) 1-830
13th (sunday) 1030-6
18th (friday) 515-1015
20th (sunday) 8-430
21st (monday) 1-830

-chelsea

The Boy is not mine

I have crazy/stupid news.


He's dating someone else right now... to be honest, I had already thought of that possibility. He said he was sorry and I think he genuinely meant it. Then he mentioned that it may not work out between him and the other guy and I guess i was supposed to feel hopeful, but it just made me a little confused, because I didn't know why he would say that. Anyway, I felt sad afterwards, because I really thought he was special (and he still is) and I thought that maybe I had found someone that I could.... yeah, you get the point. The next morning, I felt fine though. I'm surprised how quickly I got over that whole thing.

I'm leaving Vancouver in about a week. Yeah, i didn't know I was leaving either (as lame as that sounds) until last night when my sister (ie. Florence) invited my sister (ie. Maggie) and me to go down to Alabama and stay for a while. I think I'm leaving either on the 7th or 8th, and returning on the 23rd, which seems like a while, but I thought about it, and it's not that long. Anyway, I guess we should do some crazy things before Lily and I both leave. I'm sure Shanghai is wayyyy more fun than Alabama. Plus, it'll give me time to think about stuff....

I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm still not sure if I want to go to Toronto or not. My dad planted a seed in my head (as they call in in Future Shop... evil, I know) and now I'm having doubts about going. Gah.... i don't know what to do. You guys seem to know what you're doing, even if you don't know what you really want to be when you grow up.

See you at Planet Lazer tomorrow... at 3:00 (ahem, lily...)

~~Aaron