i can see where you're coming from. i always thought that life can be hideously unfair, and i'm not just talking about the people in those poverty stricken countries, but i look at my friends and i see how one person can be so much luckier than another just because they were born into something. i mean no one person deserves more happiness than another, but some of us have to deal with all kinds of crap just cause we were born into it. this in turn shapes the people we become and how we perceive others and ourselves.

just because we are born into a life where we don't have to worry about food or shelter or HIV, doesn't mean we are neccessarily happier or luckier than those with simpler lives. my mom always said that when she was little, even having candy to eat would make her day cause she could only get them around chinese new years. i think nowadays everyone has way more than we could ever need, and consumerism is an empty void that we could never fill. which is why i agree that it is stupid indeed. it doesn't promise any real happiness (no material belongings can) but just a brief period of giddiness until we get sick of what we bought and tossed it into a pile.

i think there's always gonna be stupidity and suffering in the world, no one person can change that, and if enough of us care maybe we can make a difference. but i think in the mean time, we should make the most of what we have. there are only so many people in this world that are lucky enough to be born in first world countries so we should really put all our pain in perspective to the rest of the world's and try to get some satisfaction out of life just because we are lucky enough to.

thats all, gotta get ready for my job interview (i think i'm gonna start rambling on in the interview..)

ann