hi

yeah sorry aaron
there is no excuse for me not reading the whole post
After the interview i promise i will catch up on your life and so forth

jon and i, i guess, had an argument yesterday.
it was about "wanting him to be there" or not.
I have some family issues and i told him i want him to physically be there.
and he said, "if i want him to, then i have to show it"
i said, saying it isn't enough
he said well you have to show me that i am wanted.
WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN.
i don't treat him like my slave or anything like that.
i am just upset at my own issues so i told him that i can't be focusing my attention on you while i have problems to deal with
and then at the end of it, he said that i've learned from my past mistakes.
I said, "I"M NOT JOYCE"
and he said i know you're not
THEN DON'T TAKE YOUR PAST LESSON and use them here because obviously it's not helping you!
then at the very very end he said that he's afraid of getting hurt so i said, well you can go on doing what you're doing...i'm tired good night.

That's it.
I don't know what's going to happen but i'll try to keep you posted.

My interview is on tuesday so i only have about 4 days left to prep.

Sorry for seeming distant i promise i will catch up with each one of you guys!