There can never be too many Ann's. We need more!!!
Any time is good for the sleepover. Everyone seems to agree that August is the best time because everything is over, for the most part. My excitement for it is winding down... but it's still there, somewhere. I'm not making sense.
2 big things to report:
1) I told Conor how I really felt about him today. I said, "I have something to tell you, and you're not going to like it". And then he replied, "I know." I wasn't sure we were talking about the same thing, so we pretty much asked each other multiple times, "Are you sure you're thinking what I'm thinking?" He said he couldn't say it because he couldn't get the words out and he would stutter, so I finally had to tell him. I said, "You're a really nice guy and everything..." "I know what you're going to say", he replied. So we talked about it for a little bit more, and he said he doesn't have a problem with it, and that he wasn't mad or sad about it at all, which was a big sigh of relief for me. Anyway, I'm glad I got that out of the way. Now we have a mutual understanding that we're just friends.
2) You know that guy I had mentioned that I'm falling for? Yeah... something happened with that.
Yesterday, while i was volunteering, I kept thinking about him, and I don't know why. And even after that, I was still thinking about him. I messaged him and told him I needed to tell him something. I was talking to him on Yahoo today and he asked what I needed to tell him and I told him about yesterday, and how I think I'm falling for him. He said that he wasn't bothered by it or anything, and that he "has had a thing for me" for about 2 weeks now. I was so taken aback , and I didn't know what to say because this kind of situation never arises. Either I like a guy who doesn't like me or some guy likes me and I don't feel the same way about him. This was definitely a first time situation for me. We talked about it for a little bit more, and then I asked him if he wanted to give us a try. To my surprise, he said that he'd "love to", and again I was completely thrown off. I guess you guys want to know a bit about him.
Scott lives in a small town in Indiana. We met on the same site I met Conor on, and the same one I also found Liam. He's the same age as us, though he's turned 19 already. He hasn't come out to his parents, but just to a few of his friends. His community, including his parents, are the typical conservative Americans, which is the reason why he's chosen not to declare his sexuality. We've been exchanging messages now for... wow, a little more than 2 months now. What else... he says that he's Bi, but his interest in girls is really "faint". We both agree on a lot of things. I posted something really short about him here, when I first met him. I think I said something about how I wasn't into him because he wasn't spontaneous for me. But I see now that he may be as random and kooky as Liam, for example, but he has his own ways of being random and stuff. He makes me feel really good about myself, and he's really, really, really sweet. After I asked him about the possibility of us getting together, he asked for my address and told me he wanted to send something to me. He said it was a surprise... I'm excited to find out what it is.
And yeah, I know the internet can be a very sketchy place (he agreed with me on this) and people can turn out to be a completely different person and sometimes you don't even know who you're talking to because people can just say something you kinda have to believe it, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah. I genuinely trust him, and I also know he trusts me too. I don't know how it's going to work out, what with the distance between us, and the lack of physically seeing each other in person, but it's worth a shot. He's worth a shot... well, every shot.
I'll post a pic of him too. In the first message I sent him, I said something like, "I could comment on your obvious good looks, but I'm sure you've heard that before" (there's was more to that message, btw) yeah... I think he's really cute.
Scott ^^
Anyway, that's it for my love life... I don't even know what you could call us right now... long-distance thing? I dunno.
Hope you are all doing well otherwise. Are you guys coming on Sunday for board games?
~~Aaron
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