ello everyone.
i'm really not looking forward to school (surprisingly).
For one thing, my room is still messy :(...i mean where would i study...(aside from jon's house)
Chels i'm glad you got what you wanted.
hopefully your parents didn't pay taxes on that...
My room is REALLY REALLY messy :(
i have to clean things up asap.
i still haven't gotten the courses i wanted :(
Friday, August 31, 2007
treasure hunt
so my parents came back...
and as much as i hate to say it, it hasn't been completely horrible. yet. they're only been in canada for about... 12 hours so far.
it's actually kind of nice to not be the only person at home at night. i'm so sleepy.
my mom got me what i asked for... a real pearl necklace! i've wanted one ever since my very fake one, the one i've had since i was maybe 5 years old, broke. it's really nice :) i went to google to find a picture of a similar one to show you guys but nothing is really like it. not that it's revolutionary or anything; it's actually very simple... just can't find any pics :P
so... yeah. selling my last book tomorrow (or today, technically. hopefully.) the last one i want to sell, anyways. i'm actually kind of excited (happy) for school to start. it's gonna be exhausting, but after this summer, i feel like i'm ready for it.
phys marks get posted on september 7th! excited!
aarie: i hope you are really enjoying school (for once). tell me more about your acquaintances.
ann: take your chicken feet!!!
lily: how was your trip? where did you go, again?
joanne: how was class? what was your exam for? i forgot :(
'nite!
-chels
and as much as i hate to say it, it hasn't been completely horrible. yet. they're only been in canada for about... 12 hours so far.
it's actually kind of nice to not be the only person at home at night. i'm so sleepy.
my mom got me what i asked for... a real pearl necklace! i've wanted one ever since my very fake one, the one i've had since i was maybe 5 years old, broke. it's really nice :) i went to google to find a picture of a similar one to show you guys but nothing is really like it. not that it's revolutionary or anything; it's actually very simple... just can't find any pics :P
so... yeah. selling my last book tomorrow (or today, technically. hopefully.) the last one i want to sell, anyways. i'm actually kind of excited (happy) for school to start. it's gonna be exhausting, but after this summer, i feel like i'm ready for it.
phys marks get posted on september 7th! excited!
aarie: i hope you are really enjoying school (for once). tell me more about your acquaintances.
ann: take your chicken feet!!!
lily: how was your trip? where did you go, again?
joanne: how was class? what was your exam for? i forgot :(
'nite!
-chels
Monday, August 27, 2007
First day and I'm drowning
Today was my first day of class, and wow, it was pretty boring. I think i was the last one to get there, even though I was still on time, but that was okay. So there were a little more than 20 people in this one room, all sitting around. So some people were talking for a bit and then came the dreaded introductions that each of us made. We were to say our names, where we came from, along with our favourite film and a film that was a guilty pleasure. People came from everywhere; a lot from the US, too. One chick was from Italy, one from China, and another from Honduras. Cool, eh? I listed my favourite film as "Amelie" and "Brokeback Mountain" as my guilty pleasure. Wanna know something that may or may not shock you?
I was the only one out of the entire class from Vancouver.
Yep, that's right. I was expecting some kind of cheer from someone after announcing the fact that I was a local but because EVERYONE came from different places, obviously it didn't happen.
So more talking, and then they passed out some papers, including our schedules for the entire first term. Then they took us on a tour of the building and the other campuses. Then they gave us VFS backpacks and our I.D's too. After that, we had an hour and a half until we had to meet at the VFS cafe (yes, we have our on cafe on the street). I already had a backpack with me and I didn't want to carry two of them, so I decided just to go home and drop it off and come back. I realized it was kinda heavy so I opened it, and there was more stuff inside! Here are all the items i found inside, listed from most relevant to least:
- the bag (obviously)
- 2 literary books on writing
- VFS water bottle
- VFS umbrella (yeah, i know)
And wayyyy down the list of less important things...
- a box of solid brass fasteners
What the hell am I supposed to do with brass fasteners? I guess they want us to use them to put together our scripts and things, but it just seems... weird, I guess.
So I went back to the cafe at 2:00 and we met up with another class that had started during the summer, which explained why I didn't recognize a lot of the people there. Then, more introductions, blah blah... (at this point I'm sitting alone at a table) There was one other guy from the other class that is from Vancouver, making it 2 people in two classes of probably 40 or so students the only ones actually from Vancouver. I just find that a bit... Hmmmm...
At this point, one guy sits himself down near me. I recognize him as the only other Asian guy in my class, but I can't remember his name. He says his name is Tony, and that he remember me because we both have the same last name. He asked me a couple questions but we were interrupted by some people on stage, announcing that we play a game. Four people tell of a similar experience but only one is actually telling the truth and it's up to the audience to decide who it is. We all had to submit a little paragraph or so about an experience we went through. (I wrote about how I nearly drowned in a pool) And of course, they didn't pick mine but I wasn't really feeling in the mood anyway. Then the people came up with their "stories" and I realized why they hadn't picked mine: 2 of the 3 involved getting drunk and doing stupid things and the third involved scaring away a grizzly bear, which was kinda cool. Anyway, that was a little boring.
Afterwards, the other class announced that they were all going to go to a pub/bar kinda thing on Cambie and getting drunk, which I didn't want/couldn't be a part of, so I just went home. So much for my first day, huh?
As for my schedule, I'm off at 4:00 on Thursday. Is that good/bad timing? What if it's raining on Thursday? On all my weeks, I have one weekday off. Mainly it's Friday, but sometimes for holidays, it changes.
Just for the record, I don't have a "Mr. Grumpy" shirt, Ann. I have a "Mr. Lazy" t-shirt, but I wasn't wearing it. I don't know why you think I have a few of those shirts. I was, however, standing in the corner and sulking, or so it appeared to most people.
OH! And most people all looked older, but I can't be sure, of course. I feel so... different among everyone there, but I like being different.
~~Aaron
I was the only one out of the entire class from Vancouver.
Yep, that's right. I was expecting some kind of cheer from someone after announcing the fact that I was a local but because EVERYONE came from different places, obviously it didn't happen.
So more talking, and then they passed out some papers, including our schedules for the entire first term. Then they took us on a tour of the building and the other campuses. Then they gave us VFS backpacks and our I.D's too. After that, we had an hour and a half until we had to meet at the VFS cafe (yes, we have our on cafe on the street). I already had a backpack with me and I didn't want to carry two of them, so I decided just to go home and drop it off and come back. I realized it was kinda heavy so I opened it, and there was more stuff inside! Here are all the items i found inside, listed from most relevant to least:
- the bag (obviously)
- 2 literary books on writing
- VFS water bottle
- VFS umbrella (yeah, i know)
And wayyyy down the list of less important things...
- a box of solid brass fasteners
What the hell am I supposed to do with brass fasteners? I guess they want us to use them to put together our scripts and things, but it just seems... weird, I guess.
So I went back to the cafe at 2:00 and we met up with another class that had started during the summer, which explained why I didn't recognize a lot of the people there. Then, more introductions, blah blah... (at this point I'm sitting alone at a table) There was one other guy from the other class that is from Vancouver, making it 2 people in two classes of probably 40 or so students the only ones actually from Vancouver. I just find that a bit... Hmmmm...
At this point, one guy sits himself down near me. I recognize him as the only other Asian guy in my class, but I can't remember his name. He says his name is Tony, and that he remember me because we both have the same last name. He asked me a couple questions but we were interrupted by some people on stage, announcing that we play a game. Four people tell of a similar experience but only one is actually telling the truth and it's up to the audience to decide who it is. We all had to submit a little paragraph or so about an experience we went through. (I wrote about how I nearly drowned in a pool) And of course, they didn't pick mine but I wasn't really feeling in the mood anyway. Then the people came up with their "stories" and I realized why they hadn't picked mine: 2 of the 3 involved getting drunk and doing stupid things and the third involved scaring away a grizzly bear, which was kinda cool. Anyway, that was a little boring.
Afterwards, the other class announced that they were all going to go to a pub/bar kinda thing on Cambie and getting drunk, which I didn't want/couldn't be a part of, so I just went home. So much for my first day, huh?
As for my schedule, I'm off at 4:00 on Thursday. Is that good/bad timing? What if it's raining on Thursday? On all my weeks, I have one weekday off. Mainly it's Friday, but sometimes for holidays, it changes.
Just for the record, I don't have a "Mr. Grumpy" shirt, Ann. I have a "Mr. Lazy" t-shirt, but I wasn't wearing it. I don't know why you think I have a few of those shirts. I was, however, standing in the corner and sulking, or so it appeared to most people.
OH! And most people all looked older, but I can't be sure, of course. I feel so... different among everyone there, but I like being different.
~~Aaron
Sunday, August 26, 2007
WOW
Aaron,
first of all, i read your post.
I dont' know what to say. I'm sorry that that had to happen.
Ann,
good luck!
Chels,
How are things?
Joanne,
Can't wait till school begins eh? :D
See you guys on thursday
first of all, i read your post.
I dont' know what to say. I'm sorry that that had to happen.
Ann,
good luck!
Chels,
How are things?
Joanne,
Can't wait till school begins eh? :D
See you guys on thursday
yeah i hate coquitlam too, total hick town.
so far for thursday we have the dinner at feenies, predinner events (which hasn't been settled, despite lily's efforts), and perhaps doing something random after which has also not been settled. and once again i took it to my responsibility in planning the event, so i will need to know when everyone is free for dinner. and by everyone i mean you, aaron. caus you have school that day and i need to know the earliest time that you can join us. btw have fun in school on mon :) talk to ppl and stuff, don't stand in a corner in your mr. grumpy shirt.
ann
so far for thursday we have the dinner at feenies, predinner events (which hasn't been settled, despite lily's efforts), and perhaps doing something random after which has also not been settled. and once again i took it to my responsibility in planning the event, so i will need to know when everyone is free for dinner. and by everyone i mean you, aaron. caus you have school that day and i need to know the earliest time that you can join us. btw have fun in school on mon :) talk to ppl and stuff, don't stand in a corner in your mr. grumpy shirt.
ann
Back to school?!?!?!
So I went with my friend (Conor) to Port Coquitlam. In my first time in that city, I was called a fag twice. This sort of thing would NEVER have happened in Vancouver. I mean, maybe in Vancouver people are too busy to care about two guys arm-in-arm but it was just... really disappointing, and kind of scary. The first time happened when my friend and I were walking on a bridge and a stupid guy driving a truck yelled something as he drove by, but I couldn't pick out what it was. Immediately, my friend dropped his arm from min. He told me the guy yelled, "FAG!" at us, which was a lot to take in, because I've never directly been called that, so it hurt, even if it was from some anonymous guy. The second time happened (and my friend and I weren't linking arms or anything; just walking) when a bunch of jock-ish guys yelled at us across the street. I didn't really look at them because I didn't see the point. My friend told me that if they were to cross the street, we would have to be prepared to run. And that was something I've never been used to. Calling us names is one thing, but harassing us is another. I got a little scared because I'm in another town and I have to be ready to run from people who might want to see me dead. It was just... unnerving. Thankfully, it didn't have to come down to that, but I don't know if I want to go back to that city.
My friend has told me about how he gets called names at school. Even though I've never been put down for who I am, whether it be at school or in public, I sort of had a glimpse of what life was like for him. Everything is just so unnecessary.
I know I've said this before but what it all comes down to is that there are certain people in this world that would kill me just for being who I am, and it makes me sad and angry because I know you guys won't really know what it feels like. I mean, straight people seem to take everything for granted (ie. PDA, marriage, kids, etc.) without really appreciating what gay people have to go through, ya know? Anyway, I could go on about this but I'm sure none of you want to read about it (especially Lily, who only reads short posts apparently)
I'll probably find out on Monday (tomorrow) what my schedule is going to be like this year. Ah... first day at school. What a weird feeling. I'll let you know what time I have school on Thursday. Also, what's with this weird 6-lap race thing/water fight? Sounds kinda... I don't know, sketchy? But I'm sure we can make it work somehow. (And btw, I probably won't be as wet as you guys, haha)
See you all later!
~~Aaron
My friend has told me about how he gets called names at school. Even though I've never been put down for who I am, whether it be at school or in public, I sort of had a glimpse of what life was like for him. Everything is just so unnecessary.
I know I've said this before but what it all comes down to is that there are certain people in this world that would kill me just for being who I am, and it makes me sad and angry because I know you guys won't really know what it feels like. I mean, straight people seem to take everything for granted (ie. PDA, marriage, kids, etc.) without really appreciating what gay people have to go through, ya know? Anyway, I could go on about this but I'm sure none of you want to read about it (especially Lily, who only reads short posts apparently)
I'll probably find out on Monday (tomorrow) what my schedule is going to be like this year. Ah... first day at school. What a weird feeling. I'll let you know what time I have school on Thursday. Also, what's with this weird 6-lap race thing/water fight? Sounds kinda... I don't know, sketchy? But I'm sure we can make it work somehow. (And btw, I probably won't be as wet as you guys, haha)
See you all later!
~~Aaron
Saturday, August 25, 2007
thursday bash!
hey everyone...
I think next thursday is probably going to be the last time we ALL get together before the summer ends.
So this is what i've planned so far.
Depending on when aaron ACTUALLY gets off school, we'll run a 6-lap. But the upside is that we start out at different position on the track and when we catch up to someone, we can shoot them with our water guns. As you can see, it's a combination of a water fight (which i promised you early on) and ann's most dreaded 6-lap.
then aaron, chels and dan can go shower at ann's house unless chels and dan want to go back to chels' house.
then we'll go out for din din (all nicely dressed up)...
we'll either go to Joey's or moxie's (not cactus) because it has a good ambience and mood.
Then if we want we can go do karaoke (maybe in richmond).
Anymore suggestions?
I think next thursday is probably going to be the last time we ALL get together before the summer ends.
So this is what i've planned so far.
Depending on when aaron ACTUALLY gets off school, we'll run a 6-lap. But the upside is that we start out at different position on the track and when we catch up to someone, we can shoot them with our water guns. As you can see, it's a combination of a water fight (which i promised you early on) and ann's most dreaded 6-lap.
then aaron, chels and dan can go shower at ann's house unless chels and dan want to go back to chels' house.
then we'll go out for din din (all nicely dressed up)...
we'll either go to Joey's or moxie's (not cactus) because it has a good ambience and mood.
Then if we want we can go do karaoke (maybe in richmond).
Anymore suggestions?
Thursday, August 23, 2007
the meaning of life is _____
well it seems like alot has happened in the last...3 weeks. i just think it's ironic that there are so many unfortunate people struggling to hold on, but when people have it easy, they just want to let go. as for existentialism, i think i argued on this point with you before aaron, i don't think the full meaning of life is to leave offspring. sure any material wealth or whatever is not gonna matter in the least when you die, but i think the meaning of life is trying to influence and help as many people as possible so that when you die, your legacy is left behind. i mean surely your existence was dependent on someone who fought at some point for what they believed in, so even though they aren't related to you or weren't your parents, their influence is why you're here today. so if you or anyone don't think that you deserve what you have, you should give up some of your time to help others who deserves more than they have.
there, that's what i have to say for now. even tho i do not agree with you guys all the time, i like hearing about your perspectives caus it's fun to see things from another view.
ann
there, that's what i have to say for now. even tho i do not agree with you guys all the time, i like hearing about your perspectives caus it's fun to see things from another view.
ann
Saturday, August 18, 2007
IF you keep it decently short, i'll have a higher chance of reading it. Like Joanne's post for instance, she wrote about 30 lines but without any appropriate spacing which made her post look short. Even though it's more DIFFICULT to read because it's essentially a mass of words, it gave the appearance of a short paragraph.
Anyways, the problem in this world is that no one cares about others anymore. THe only time you see someone contributing is when they need it to get into med. There are a lot of good people. But the problem is that these good people don't contribute shit. Yes the world is messed up but you don't want to make it worse than it is already.
Although i'm not a green peace advocate nor do i do enough to save the world from falling apart. But this summer, i have made an effort to actually do something. Slowly i'm volunteering more to organizations.
And i admit, i don't do enough but i'm beginning somewhere.
This is a long post so if you don't read it i understand. Playland this Thursdays after 5pm.
Anyways, the problem in this world is that no one cares about others anymore. THe only time you see someone contributing is when they need it to get into med. There are a lot of good people. But the problem is that these good people don't contribute shit. Yes the world is messed up but you don't want to make it worse than it is already.
Although i'm not a green peace advocate nor do i do enough to save the world from falling apart. But this summer, i have made an effort to actually do something. Slowly i'm volunteering more to organizations.
And i admit, i don't do enough but i'm beginning somewhere.
This is a long post so if you don't read it i understand. Playland this Thursdays after 5pm.
Wow. Chels' post is definately thought-provoking.. Yeah, I have to admit that mostly I put my own issues before anyone else's or the world's. But I feel that each one of us needs stability and satisfaction in our own lives before we can help anyone else's (Angelina Jolie's a good example). I am against war under any circumstance but I do feel sad for the soldiers dying. It's not really out of respect but more out of sympathy. Has anyone seen Fahrenheit 911? I'm not a fan of Michael Moore's because he's way too bias but the film depicts young people joining the army not necessarily because they want to go to war but bc the army promises good education and chance to travel to those that come from poor families. I don't really see the point of having any Canadian soldier stationed in Afghanistan (or any soldier of any nationality for that matter). They can't even find Osama. What are they doing there? Are they secretly busting terrorist HQ's all James Bond style only to go "Oops" whenever there's a terrorist bombing in London? Aren't we just sucking up to the US? This whole Afghan/Iraq thing pisses me off to no end. Blah. For now, I just want to focus on school b/c the world's just getting too ridiculous by the minute.
My family left yesterday.. No little annoying cousin this time, thank goodness. Are we going to PNE anytime soon? Let me know =)
My family left yesterday.. No little annoying cousin this time, thank goodness. Are we going to PNE anytime soon? Let me know =)
Friday, August 17, 2007
Thursday, August 16, 2007
hamster wheel of life
so, here i am, pondering life.
i was busy busy busy all summer with school. now i've got my credits, i'm happy (for once!) with the hard work i put into my studies, and i'm on "summer vacation." so... why do i still have this unsettled feeling? i don't know. i just feel like talking to someone.
good luck on your exam today, btw ann. i doubt you'll read this in time, but i send you all the luck and logic. or math. whatever you need.
but i just feel so... drop in the ocean again. just like, "so what?" i feel like i'm running on my little wheel forever and ever... and i'm just... tired of it.
i worked a 4 hour shift today. it covers about half the money i spent right after. i submitted my tuition form. dan and i made dinner for jeremy and his friends. i bought underwear today-- it was hard to find my size. we bought cds and listened to them. we made pie, baked cookies, watched CSI.
i mean, i have nothing to complain about, but i just feel like there's something i'm missing. it makes me sad looking at all the people i've met and spent good times with (other than you guys) and see how we've drifted. i guess i kind of feel like, what can i count on? i thought we were such good friends, but look at us now! we don't even talk.
i don't know. i really just want to talk to someone... it's not really like i'm depressed or anything; just thinking and kind of lonely (again). i want to call dan but i woke him up with my calls way too often while i was taking summer school and he was way too patient with me.
two days ago, i was tearing apart my room looking for my black sweatshop-free shorts, when i stopped and saw this huge spider... it had thick legs and was very still. i screamed, but no one was home... it didn't matter. i grabbed the phone and called dan. so this will probably sound really stupid, but i was really freaked out. i scooted out of my room and did not want to go back in. the spider's body was the length of half my thumb and it had long, thick legs. i couldn't help myself, but i was so freaked out and annoyed at dan's "chels, it's just a spider, stop being a drama queen" attitude that i burst into tears. i really couldn't help it... he just didn't get it. i couldn't go back into my room to pack for the day trip we had planned for the next morning.
did i mention that it was about 230 in the morning? he said he really wanted me to go with him and his parents to the island the next day though, so he drove over, vacuumed the spider, helped me get my stuff packed, and left. hmm
so yeah. i don't feel like it's okay for me to call him right now, is my point.
anyways, i need to sleep. we're busing to kwantlen: surrey campus tomorrow morning to buy his books
aaron: sorry i never called you. i've been working a lot... i'll explain later. call my cell when you have time. (778!!!)
joanne: how is the family gathering? stressful? any little cousins?
lily: whatcha been up to aside from work?
-chels
ps- random creepy spider pic (this wasn't the type of spider in my room but i couldn't find a pic of one and i got tired of looking at spiders so i just chose this one)
i was busy busy busy all summer with school. now i've got my credits, i'm happy (for once!) with the hard work i put into my studies, and i'm on "summer vacation." so... why do i still have this unsettled feeling? i don't know. i just feel like talking to someone.
good luck on your exam today, btw ann. i doubt you'll read this in time, but i send you all the luck and logic. or math. whatever you need.
but i just feel so... drop in the ocean again. just like, "so what?" i feel like i'm running on my little wheel forever and ever... and i'm just... tired of it.
i worked a 4 hour shift today. it covers about half the money i spent right after. i submitted my tuition form. dan and i made dinner for jeremy and his friends. i bought underwear today-- it was hard to find my size. we bought cds and listened to them. we made pie, baked cookies, watched CSI.
i mean, i have nothing to complain about, but i just feel like there's something i'm missing. it makes me sad looking at all the people i've met and spent good times with (other than you guys) and see how we've drifted. i guess i kind of feel like, what can i count on? i thought we were such good friends, but look at us now! we don't even talk.
i don't know. i really just want to talk to someone... it's not really like i'm depressed or anything; just thinking and kind of lonely (again). i want to call dan but i woke him up with my calls way too often while i was taking summer school and he was way too patient with me.
two days ago, i was tearing apart my room looking for my black sweatshop-free shorts, when i stopped and saw this huge spider... it had thick legs and was very still. i screamed, but no one was home... it didn't matter. i grabbed the phone and called dan. so this will probably sound really stupid, but i was really freaked out. i scooted out of my room and did not want to go back in. the spider's body was the length of half my thumb and it had long, thick legs. i couldn't help myself, but i was so freaked out and annoyed at dan's "chels, it's just a spider, stop being a drama queen" attitude that i burst into tears. i really couldn't help it... he just didn't get it. i couldn't go back into my room to pack for the day trip we had planned for the next morning.
did i mention that it was about 230 in the morning? he said he really wanted me to go with him and his parents to the island the next day though, so he drove over, vacuumed the spider, helped me get my stuff packed, and left. hmm
so yeah. i don't feel like it's okay for me to call him right now, is my point.
anyways, i need to sleep. we're busing to kwantlen: surrey campus tomorrow morning to buy his books
aaron: sorry i never called you. i've been working a lot... i'll explain later. call my cell when you have time. (778!!!)
joanne: how is the family gathering? stressful? any little cousins?
lily: whatcha been up to aside from work?
-chels
ps- random creepy spider pic (this wasn't the type of spider in my room but i couldn't find a pic of one and i got tired of looking at spiders so i just chose this one)
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
dear chels
Yeah, that's part of existentialism. Existentialists also believe that there is no such thing as fate, that humans basically make their own choices. Also, I wouldn't "grieve" if someone lost their job. I mean, it depending on the situation, I don't think I could get very sad if that happened, compared to say, someone dying. You could always look it up at Wikipedia or something... here, I'll include a link: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existentialism
And if soldiers died in Afghanistan, yes I would feel sad because they're heroes. They represented our country, for us, all of us. (Iraq, on the other hand, is a whole different story) And yes, to some people their deaths are now just a statistic; they've become a number in history, and nobody really cares about numbers (except maybe math nerds or something). Most people today don't really feel they can do anything (in reference to the war), and on some levels, they can't, so they won't be able to feel as connected to the whole issue as say, a wife who's husband is now on the front lines. Besides, people today are too caught up about indulging in their petty "lives" (ie. sex, alcohol, drugs, partying, jobs, school, being idiots, etc.) to even have something affect them. It's like I've believed in a while: our society today is basically sexed-up and dumbed-down.
Most people believe what they're doing today matters, because to them, it does matter. They don't think about the future, and when they do, it's still a make-believe world. You can never be sure how it will turn out. Maybe tomorrow we'll all be dead from the giant earthquake that we've been waiting for. Or maybe a giant tsunami will kill us all in 10 years. Will everything that you've been doing have been worth every second? Can you really be proud of how you ran your life?
Let's face it: during your last moments on Earth, you're not going to be thinking about your friggin' Ipod, or some stupid childhood memory, you're going to think about whether or not if was all worthwhile, whether you made somekind of impact on this completely oblivious world or on someone's life (or at least I probably will; i don't know about the rest of you).
If people really believe they were born to do, I don't know, row across the Atlantic Ocean or whatever, well, they're wrong, but I can't impose my belief on them. The only reason any species, (humans, animals, plants, amoebas, etc.) even exist is simply to continue the species. And then people tell me, "Oh, well, isn't everything you're doing completely pointless then?" And the answer is yes, it is, and especially for me, because it makes me pretty irrelevant in terms of the reproduction thing.
Life is like music: You should only listen to it if makes a point or there's somekind of meaning behind it. (ie. Rihanna is utterly a waste of time to even consider. She's just... a very pointless person, and I mean that. She has nothing good to say, at all. And she also made me hate the word "umbrella")
So in response to Lily, no, that's not what I meant. It's a small part, but no. Also, I'm going to mention this again because apparently some people just "skim" and miss it or whatever: could you sign your name on somewhere? I mean, I knew that was you, Lily because of the word "skim", but maybe next time, please?
Also, game night died out because of that thing with you and Annie. Everyone seemed to be too busy or didn't want to come or whatever reason. My games are still in the living room... collecting dust. If you guys are still up for that, then by all means, venez!
OH! I wrote a new song... in French! haha... it's really easy to understand. And hopefully it makes sense (grammatically). I'll post the lyrics up later.
Okay, I think I'm done. Hopefully my response was adequate enough, Chels.
Btw, I phoned the number you gave me for your cell, and it was some weird person who said I had the wrong number. It turns out your wrote 604 as the area code and not 778, so yeah.
~~Aaron
And if soldiers died in Afghanistan, yes I would feel sad because they're heroes. They represented our country, for us, all of us. (Iraq, on the other hand, is a whole different story) And yes, to some people their deaths are now just a statistic; they've become a number in history, and nobody really cares about numbers (except maybe math nerds or something). Most people today don't really feel they can do anything (in reference to the war), and on some levels, they can't, so they won't be able to feel as connected to the whole issue as say, a wife who's husband is now on the front lines. Besides, people today are too caught up about indulging in their petty "lives" (ie. sex, alcohol, drugs, partying, jobs, school, being idiots, etc.) to even have something affect them. It's like I've believed in a while: our society today is basically sexed-up and dumbed-down.
Most people believe what they're doing today matters, because to them, it does matter. They don't think about the future, and when they do, it's still a make-believe world. You can never be sure how it will turn out. Maybe tomorrow we'll all be dead from the giant earthquake that we've been waiting for. Or maybe a giant tsunami will kill us all in 10 years. Will everything that you've been doing have been worth every second? Can you really be proud of how you ran your life?
Let's face it: during your last moments on Earth, you're not going to be thinking about your friggin' Ipod, or some stupid childhood memory, you're going to think about whether or not if was all worthwhile, whether you made somekind of impact on this completely oblivious world or on someone's life (or at least I probably will; i don't know about the rest of you).
If people really believe they were born to do, I don't know, row across the Atlantic Ocean or whatever, well, they're wrong, but I can't impose my belief on them. The only reason any species, (humans, animals, plants, amoebas, etc.) even exist is simply to continue the species. And then people tell me, "Oh, well, isn't everything you're doing completely pointless then?" And the answer is yes, it is, and especially for me, because it makes me pretty irrelevant in terms of the reproduction thing.
Life is like music: You should only listen to it if makes a point or there's somekind of meaning behind it. (ie. Rihanna is utterly a waste of time to even consider. She's just... a very pointless person, and I mean that. She has nothing good to say, at all. And she also made me hate the word "umbrella")
So in response to Lily, no, that's not what I meant. It's a small part, but no. Also, I'm going to mention this again because apparently some people just "skim" and miss it or whatever: could you sign your name on somewhere? I mean, I knew that was you, Lily because of the word "skim", but maybe next time, please?
Also, game night died out because of that thing with you and Annie. Everyone seemed to be too busy or didn't want to come or whatever reason. My games are still in the living room... collecting dust. If you guys are still up for that, then by all means, venez!
OH! I wrote a new song... in French! haha... it's really easy to understand. And hopefully it makes sense (grammatically). I'll post the lyrics up later.
Okay, I think I'm done. Hopefully my response was adequate enough, Chels.
Btw, I phoned the number you gave me for your cell, and it was some weird person who said I had the wrong number. It turns out your wrote 604 as the area code and not 778, so yeah.
~~Aaron
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Well
after skimming chels' post at work, i think what aaron wants to say is that sometimes we might not say our thanks when we mean it and when it's too late, we'll wind up regretting not telling each other.
I appreciate everything i have although it may not seem like it. I'm glad we have such a good group, although diverse in many ways.
I <3 you all and i wish only the best for you. I hope you knew that before.
Where did games night go?
I appreciate everything i have although it may not seem like it. I'm glad we have such a good group, although diverse in many ways.
I <3 you all and i wish only the best for you. I hope you knew that before.
Where did games night go?
dear aarie
yeah but isn't existentialism... like..? okay, i still don't really get what that means even though you've explained it to me many a time and a girl in my french class did a presentation about it, but... isn't it something like just believing that you exist just to exist? so if you really are what i defined (i don't actually know if this is what we label "existentialist view" or whatever.) ... i mean, if i do understand a bit and kind of described it kind of accurately, and you are like this, then i just don't get it.
also... i think of it like this: it's just news until it happens to you. and that really is the way i see it... there's so much shit in the world, and even here, where we live: in our own city, neighborhoods. if you actually grieved for every time someone lost a job or someone died or people suffered for their beliefs, you... just wouldn't be able to take it.
this is exactly what i feel like most of the time i feel depressed. i just think of every little bad thing happening to people in the world (or at least, i imagine... and i'm sure it's not totally crazy from the truth... probably less so) and think of how undeservedly fortunate i am. and i just want to die. i don't deserve anything better than the next person (in terms of general living predisposition...) and it really is depressing.
i feel like in order to deal with things, we become apathetic. do we really care anymore that 60 soldiers died in afghanistan? do you actually? what are you doing about it? i mean, i feel bad, and it's sad... but the truth is, most people don't give a shit.
i will now semi-quote a girl from the beauty and the geek (dan and i watched the beginning of one episode): "I'm not really a genius when it comes to world issues -- I am more concerned about things happening in my own life."
she sounded really stupid but for the most most most most majority of people, it's true. we are self-interested, utility-maximizing (happiness maximizing) tools.
you won't understand (and neither will i, of course) what it's like to have someone close to you die until it happens. people are just designed stupidly that way. and it's sad. but just the way things are, in my opinion.
post back please. i want your point of view too (aarie, and everyone).
-chels
also... i think of it like this: it's just news until it happens to you. and that really is the way i see it... there's so much shit in the world, and even here, where we live: in our own city, neighborhoods. if you actually grieved for every time someone lost a job or someone died or people suffered for their beliefs, you... just wouldn't be able to take it.
this is exactly what i feel like most of the time i feel depressed. i just think of every little bad thing happening to people in the world (or at least, i imagine... and i'm sure it's not totally crazy from the truth... probably less so) and think of how undeservedly fortunate i am. and i just want to die. i don't deserve anything better than the next person (in terms of general living predisposition...) and it really is depressing.
i feel like in order to deal with things, we become apathetic. do we really care anymore that 60 soldiers died in afghanistan? do you actually? what are you doing about it? i mean, i feel bad, and it's sad... but the truth is, most people don't give a shit.
i will now semi-quote a girl from the beauty and the geek (dan and i watched the beginning of one episode): "I'm not really a genius when it comes to world issues -- I am more concerned about things happening in my own life."
she sounded really stupid but for the most most most most majority of people, it's true. we are self-interested, utility-maximizing (happiness maximizing) tools.
you won't understand (and neither will i, of course) what it's like to have someone close to you die until it happens. people are just designed stupidly that way. and it's sad. but just the way things are, in my opinion.
post back please. i want your point of view too (aarie, and everyone).
-chels
Sunday, August 12, 2007
emancipation of lily
oh yeah i forgot to tell you... (lily) i don't still have your cd. i bought a copy a few weeks ago (was cheap). i returned yours a year ago :P
-chels
ps- sorry i'm not addressing anyone else. i'll make a better post tomorrow... i just wanted to post for lily or else i would forget again.
-chels
ps- sorry i'm not addressing anyone else. i'll make a better post tomorrow... i just wanted to post for lily or else i would forget again.
Breathe Me
I read in the paper just last week about how there was a fire in a house in Victoria and how two women didn't make it out. And yeah, sure it's not the most shocking thing in the world, we've heard/read things like that all the time. What really made this article different was that I recognized one of the names of the girls; she went to Point Grey, and was just two years older than us. For me, it really hit home. I mean, I knew her. Sure, I never talked to her or anything, but I was once associated with her, and it scared me.
I keep thinking: Was she happy with how she lived her relatively short life? Did she regret anything? What were her last thoughts?
What if that was someone I actually knew, that I was close to?
What if that was me?
Would I be content with the life I had been living?
Would everything I had been doing previously have been worth my time?
Have I done anything worthy in my life that I can be proud of, or that is lasting?
Is anything I'm doing now good enough?
I just can't shake that feeling. It's a strange terrifying feeling, a sadness, a longing for something more. I don't want to go another day without telling the people I care about how much they mean to me.
I was never afraid of death; I just thought of it as something natural that was waiting for everybody. Some people go out sooner than others, and I guess that's the way it is, right? But then this happened... I'm not saying I'm scared of death. I guess I'm scared of what might happen if it happened to people a little closer to me, you know?
So, with that being said, you guys all mean a lot to me, but these are only words, and I don't think any of you will truly realize how much you mean.
~~Aaron
PS. This has nothing to do with anything, but it would be a lot easier to understand people's posts if they signed their name somewhere, rather than doing a process of elimination thing.
I keep thinking: Was she happy with how she lived her relatively short life? Did she regret anything? What were her last thoughts?
What if that was someone I actually knew, that I was close to?
What if that was me?
Would I be content with the life I had been living?
Would everything I had been doing previously have been worth my time?
Have I done anything worthy in my life that I can be proud of, or that is lasting?
Is anything I'm doing now good enough?
I just can't shake that feeling. It's a strange terrifying feeling, a sadness, a longing for something more. I don't want to go another day without telling the people I care about how much they mean to me.
I was never afraid of death; I just thought of it as something natural that was waiting for everybody. Some people go out sooner than others, and I guess that's the way it is, right? But then this happened... I'm not saying I'm scared of death. I guess I'm scared of what might happen if it happened to people a little closer to me, you know?
So, with that being said, you guys all mean a lot to me, but these are only words, and I don't think any of you will truly realize how much you mean.
~~Aaron
PS. This has nothing to do with anything, but it would be a lot easier to understand people's posts if they signed their name somewhere, rather than doing a process of elimination thing.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Hiatus. Sort of.
My family just called yesterday to tell me that they're currently taking a road trip from San Francisco to Vancouver. This means I probably only have two days to clean my extremely messy house (I literally can't see the carpet floor of my bedroom). So I'm not going to be able to write on the blog for a while =( I will definately check time to time to see when we're going to Playland ( I wanna go wanna go wanna go...). I don't know why I'm suddenly listening to Linkin Park.
Chels, how do you think you did on your physics provincial? I still have to return your textbook...
Aaron, from the demo you've given me, 'Empty' is definately my favorite. Was Elizabethtown good? I didn't watch it because I don't really like Orlando Bloom and Kirsten Dunst.. 'Kinky boots' was a cute movie.
Ann, your story of the creepy man on the bus just...crept me out.. I can't imagine you dating a bike riding gansta from the East Side...
Lily, I'll buy the textbook from you but I haven't checked yet which textbook I'll need for psyc 102... I will confirm when I do.
Have a great weekend everyone!
Chels, how do you think you did on your physics provincial? I still have to return your textbook...
Aaron, from the demo you've given me, 'Empty' is definately my favorite. Was Elizabethtown good? I didn't watch it because I don't really like Orlando Bloom and Kirsten Dunst.. 'Kinky boots' was a cute movie.
Ann, your story of the creepy man on the bus just...crept me out.. I can't imagine you dating a bike riding gansta from the East Side...
Lily, I'll buy the textbook from you but I haven't checked yet which textbook I'll need for psyc 102... I will confirm when I do.
Have a great weekend everyone!
Thursday, August 09, 2007
blah.
i completely know what you mean chels. remember when we were on the bus and i told you that everytime i hear "praise you" by fatboy slim i think of playing ping pong with my dad? yeah. also i get this strange sadness when i go to places where i grew up (but haven't revisited in years) like my grandma's house or maple grove (elementary). everything just seems so old and small, it's weird.
so then, did you go for a run in the end lily? caus when you called me you sounded pretty huffed up. sigh, if only you can play tennis and well (instead of swinging the racket and having the ball go horrizontally...i didn't think that was physically possible until i saw you play..)
for those of you still wondering, i finally returned my game to Electronics Bastards games (sorry that was pretty bad..i couldn't think of a better one. aaron, you're good at this, why don't you give it a try?)
ann
so then, did you go for a run in the end lily? caus when you called me you sounded pretty huffed up. sigh, if only you can play tennis and well (instead of swinging the racket and having the ball go horrizontally...i didn't think that was physically possible until i saw you play..)
for those of you still wondering, i finally returned my game to Electronics Bastards games (sorry that was pretty bad..i couldn't think of a better one. aaron, you're good at this, why don't you give it a try?)
ann
song memories
you know when you find something that you had when you were a kid but never see anymore? or just smell something that reminds you of someone or someplace? i have vivid sound memories... it's weird. i think. i feel weird when it happens.
i was in the shower, and... i can't even remember... no wait. yeah, it was michelle branch. yeah, so when i heard that it completely made me feel like i was in grade 10 again. you know? not like, "i remember in grade 10 when..." but actually, all the feelings i had in grade 10 era came back. i started feeling really depressed and trapped. it's so weird. then the song ends and i'm there, like hmmm....
i get stressed when i hear the mariah carey emancipation cd (lily lent it to me as i CRAMMED for my history 3 exam because very last minute i decided i didn't want to fail) and i feel like i'm in chem 121 when i hear nelly furtado's loose cd (i vividly imagine me being in the library, sitting in an armchair, reading over millions of sheets of notes). it's like my brain correlates things closely to what i experienced during that time... and i don't even know until i hear it much later. then all the feelings come back, and it's weird.
anyways, my point was, when michelle branch came on, i started feeling really sad. and i thought about it... why had i been so sad back then? why hadn't i talked to you guys about my crap? and i mean, i think i remember why, but it was so long ago... and i realised, i guess, that even though we've kind of "always been there" for each other, since grade 8/9/10, it really wasn't that long ago. and the way we feel about each other (or at least the way i feel about you guys) is still changing a lot. our relationship is still growing, all the time. and i mean, maybe this was obvious to you :P but to me, i thought about it, and i'm much closer to everyone than before. and i trust all of you more than ever. if i had to go through what i did in grade 10 again, i know you guys would be in on it. i wouldn't even think of it twice.
that's all. gotta finish some physics stuff now. just thought i'd let you guys in on my thoughts. i really do appreciate you guys though, is what i meant. it was just another song memory that made me rethink of everyone... how much more i have now than i did then. y'know?
provincial tomorrow and i'm still doing an assignment due today! eek!
-chels
i was in the shower, and... i can't even remember... no wait. yeah, it was michelle branch. yeah, so when i heard that it completely made me feel like i was in grade 10 again. you know? not like, "i remember in grade 10 when..." but actually, all the feelings i had in grade 10 era came back. i started feeling really depressed and trapped. it's so weird. then the song ends and i'm there, like hmmm....
i get stressed when i hear the mariah carey emancipation cd (lily lent it to me as i CRAMMED for my history 3 exam because very last minute i decided i didn't want to fail) and i feel like i'm in chem 121 when i hear nelly furtado's loose cd (i vividly imagine me being in the library, sitting in an armchair, reading over millions of sheets of notes). it's like my brain correlates things closely to what i experienced during that time... and i don't even know until i hear it much later. then all the feelings come back, and it's weird.
anyways, my point was, when michelle branch came on, i started feeling really sad. and i thought about it... why had i been so sad back then? why hadn't i talked to you guys about my crap? and i mean, i think i remember why, but it was so long ago... and i realised, i guess, that even though we've kind of "always been there" for each other, since grade 8/9/10, it really wasn't that long ago. and the way we feel about each other (or at least the way i feel about you guys) is still changing a lot. our relationship is still growing, all the time. and i mean, maybe this was obvious to you :P but to me, i thought about it, and i'm much closer to everyone than before. and i trust all of you more than ever. if i had to go through what i did in grade 10 again, i know you guys would be in on it. i wouldn't even think of it twice.
that's all. gotta finish some physics stuff now. just thought i'd let you guys in on my thoughts. i really do appreciate you guys though, is what i meant. it was just another song memory that made me rethink of everyone... how much more i have now than i did then. y'know?
provincial tomorrow and i'm still doing an assignment due today! eek!
-chels
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
i'm tired from work.
after going away for two days, nothing has changed. in fact, it doesn't seem like we went anywhere. :(
i should start getting back to shape.
ann hope you're feeling better.
chels good good luck! Sending you pi*r^2-ed worth of luck!
aaron everything is over and done. blah.
everyone seems to be doing stuff together...what about meeeee!!?!?!?
after going away for two days, nothing has changed. in fact, it doesn't seem like we went anywhere. :(
i should start getting back to shape.
ann hope you're feeling better.
chels good good luck! Sending you pi*r^2-ed worth of luck!
aaron everything is over and done. blah.
everyone seems to be doing stuff together...what about meeeee!!?!?!?
(A)Muse
I understand everything now.
Scott broke up with me because he thought I was talking about having doubts in our relationship, and decided that if I did, then it would be best (and logical) to just be friends, which I can understand, but that wasn't what I meant. Anyway, he feels really bad about what happened, I can tell, and I'm just glad that the whole thing is done. I finally know everything.
I really feel fine about it. I can tell he's having a hard time in his life right now, and how this is probably contributing to that, but I still want to be his friend, and I value his friendship greatly. I know some people have bad relations with their exes, but I'm okay, really. He's just... Scott.
Anyway, I'm writing a new song based on that. I wanted to make it a normal piano/vocal, but I just couldn't find the words to express my feelings, and I know songs on this topic have been done countless times, so I decided to finally write another piano instrumental thing. This time I'm actually writing out all the notes on manuscript because 1) I don't think I can memorize the entire thing, and 2) I actually want to write it down. I want to be able to tell people, "I write songs, and I can actually write them down on paper with notes and rests and everything." I want to show myself I can be a real composer, and that I'm more than just a pianist. Anyway, it's coming along well, and it has a classical feel to it, which I love.
To answer your question, Joanne, yeah, I think "Empty" is my favourite song. I definitely think it's my best one, and it's one of the first songs I wrote last year that I actually enjoyed. Have you checked out my myspace page? Which song is your favourite?
Ann: Hmm... yeah, that does sound kinda crappy. They asked you for your passport? Was s/he new on the job or something? What the hell? Maybe you should go to another Electronics Boutique (get it Ann? EB!) store and try returning it again. Also, I guess Liam is "slutty" and you seem to think he's hot... but that doesn't mean he's a bad guy (which I don't think he is) And I thought you wouldn't be able to look past his apparent hotness to tell me not to go for him.
Chels: Good luck on your exams! And also, you didn't phone me!
Lily: What can I say? Good job at cheating the system?
Everyone: Are we still planning on going to PNE? What about Playland?
School starts in 20 days! Wow... weird. I think I'm excited... not for homework, oh god, no.
I saw Elizabethtown yesterday and it sort of reminded me of Scott, 'cuz Orlando Bloom's character (I think they could've chose a better guy than him) goes to Kentucky to get his father's body after he dies. Hmm...
~~Aaron
Scott broke up with me because he thought I was talking about having doubts in our relationship, and decided that if I did, then it would be best (and logical) to just be friends, which I can understand, but that wasn't what I meant. Anyway, he feels really bad about what happened, I can tell, and I'm just glad that the whole thing is done. I finally know everything.
I really feel fine about it. I can tell he's having a hard time in his life right now, and how this is probably contributing to that, but I still want to be his friend, and I value his friendship greatly. I know some people have bad relations with their exes, but I'm okay, really. He's just... Scott.
Anyway, I'm writing a new song based on that. I wanted to make it a normal piano/vocal, but I just couldn't find the words to express my feelings, and I know songs on this topic have been done countless times, so I decided to finally write another piano instrumental thing. This time I'm actually writing out all the notes on manuscript because 1) I don't think I can memorize the entire thing, and 2) I actually want to write it down. I want to be able to tell people, "I write songs, and I can actually write them down on paper with notes and rests and everything." I want to show myself I can be a real composer, and that I'm more than just a pianist. Anyway, it's coming along well, and it has a classical feel to it, which I love.
To answer your question, Joanne, yeah, I think "Empty" is my favourite song. I definitely think it's my best one, and it's one of the first songs I wrote last year that I actually enjoyed. Have you checked out my myspace page? Which song is your favourite?
Ann: Hmm... yeah, that does sound kinda crappy. They asked you for your passport? Was s/he new on the job or something? What the hell? Maybe you should go to another Electronics Boutique (get it Ann? EB!) store and try returning it again. Also, I guess Liam is "slutty" and you seem to think he's hot... but that doesn't mean he's a bad guy (which I don't think he is) And I thought you wouldn't be able to look past his apparent hotness to tell me not to go for him.
Chels: Good luck on your exams! And also, you didn't phone me!
Lily: What can I say? Good job at cheating the system?
Everyone: Are we still planning on going to PNE? What about Playland?
School starts in 20 days! Wow... weird. I think I'm excited... not for homework, oh god, no.
I saw Elizabethtown yesterday and it sort of reminded me of Scott, 'cuz Orlando Bloom's character (I think they could've chose a better guy than him) goes to Kentucky to get his father's body after he dies. Hmm...
~~Aaron
snake venum eh?..
well so far my day stunk. i have an exam at 7pm (until 10pm, i know!) today at sfu. so i was studying at home at around 9 in the morning, and suddenly there was this loud drilling sound. it was literally shaking everything, and i realized that my neighbours were renovating again. i swear asian ppl renovate their homes three times a year..but i had to get out of the noise so i decided to go to school early and study there until my exam. so i left and hopped on the bus. by the time i got downtown i suddenly remembered that i had to bring the psp game that i bought for my friend's birthday (which i just recently found out she had and had already finished playing)--> to return to lougheed center (best mall ever). so i got off the bus and headed back home, which took an extra hour. if you're getting tired of my story at this point, too bad caus there's more. i realized that to get to lougheed i have to take the 41 bus to sfu. so i was on the 41st bus and it was entering the east side and this large dude got on. i was sitting at the back and i saw him looking at me, and he started to approach me. i was thinking "don't talk to me, don't talk to me, don't talk to me..." and he starts talking to me. and asking me where i'm from and where i'm going and other random questions. it's not that i don't like ppl talking to me on the bus (sometimes it's a welcoming change after 3 hours of sitting), it's just that he was obviously hitting on me and it was kinda scary caus he looked like some bike gang leader or smthg (i remembered what chels said about me dating bike gang guys). the whole time i was like "i hate the east side, i hate the east side.." but he eventually got off. so i proceeded on to lougheed, and i went to EB games (which i still don't know what it stands for, sorry aaron). and what do you know, they wouldn't let me return it. they said i needed to bring my passport to show that i was who i said i was. i was like "why do you need a passport for this???" even tho i had my sin card and carecard and school id i couldn't return it. i was almost to the point of crying just caus i wasted an hour to go back home just for that. so now i'm boycotting EB games (that is after i return my psp game).
but yeah, i wish you guys were here so it would take my mind off this. but i have to study :P i hope this bad day karma would remove itself before my exam..
anyhoo joanne i did get your video but i couldn't watch it :( tho i really wanted to caus i know that it's the truckful of hot guys, right?
chels you can do my hair after my exam today (not today, some other day), just come over.
aaron i realized that when guys are hot, chances are they're gonna be a wee bit slutty. so i am no longer rooting for you and liam to get together.
and lily how were your advantures on the island? i would definitly go to the wax museum (but i can see myself being let down by it's suckyness)
ann
ps. i have sandel tan lines on my feet, it's pretty weird..
but yeah, i wish you guys were here so it would take my mind off this. but i have to study :P i hope this bad day karma would remove itself before my exam..
anyhoo joanne i did get your video but i couldn't watch it :( tho i really wanted to caus i know that it's the truckful of hot guys, right?
chels you can do my hair after my exam today (not today, some other day), just come over.
aaron i realized that when guys are hot, chances are they're gonna be a wee bit slutty. so i am no longer rooting for you and liam to get together.
and lily how were your advantures on the island? i would definitly go to the wax museum (but i can see myself being let down by it's suckyness)
ann
ps. i have sandel tan lines on my feet, it's pretty weird..
Hmm.. Scott's message does seem confusing at first. I think he's trying to say that he let you go because he felt that if he tried to convince you to stay with him, he'd be making you ignore your doubt and therefore your own judgment on this relationship. Do we have the same interpretation Aaron? (I feel like solving a puzzle..) To me, Scott doesn't seem to be BSing... I just hope that you're not second-guessing yourself because you have every right to doubt someone that you've only talked to on the net. Plus, I don't think it's easy for anyone to be involved in a long distance relationship. Are you still deciding if you want to try Liam out? I wanna see what he looks!! (Freddie + Harry Potter?? That's such a crack combo) Well, from what you've told me about his Wednesday rendez-vous's, he does seem slutty-ish..XD So is "empty" your favorite song? Share more songs with us! =)
Yay Chelsea you're out of school on Friday!! Goood luck on your provincial! I think I wrote mine at Churchil.. What about you?
Kinda out of topic but apparently the new Hollywood trend is this anti-aging cream made from snake venom....
Yay Chelsea you're out of school on Friday!! Goood luck on your provincial! I think I wrote mine at Churchil.. What about you?
Kinda out of topic but apparently the new Hollywood trend is this anti-aging cream made from snake venom....
A Dying Love (Scott's Theme)
Well...I'm glad you aren't "angry or pissed off". My reasoning is simple. I didn't know how to take your "tiny bit of doubt." I thought that you were having like second thoughts about us having a relationship. I'm sorry I "didn't seem to make the effort to tell you otherwise", but all to many times, I've had doubt or second thoughts about things and someone has came along and tried to convince me to ignore my feelings. I just didn't want to do that to you. Once again I'm sorry that I didn't do what you felt I should have done. There is no other reason I broke up with you. Like I said, I just did what I though was right based on my what is appearantly wrong interpretation of what was said.
All I can say is, "I'm sorry, and I ask for your forgivness for any sadness or frustration I have caused you." As far as the subject of your message ("Fools like me"), it appears that I was the fool not you. You have nothing to feel foolish about.
Not worthy of such a great person...
your foolish friend,
-Scott Morgan
So that's the message I got back from Scott. I don't understand... is he telling me that he had doubts about our relationship and that conveniently it fills in for his explanation as to why he broke up with me? I don't get it.... things just get more confusing. Hopefully I'll know by tomorrow what he means.
Thanks for your compliments Joanne! Glad to hear you liked my stuff! Btw, there are more songs than just those 4. And also, sorry if my bad singing bothered you. It does that sometimes.
Sounds like you had a jolly good old time in Victoria especially in that garden, and your lottery tickets, Lily.
I read Chelsea's post twice and I realized... yeah, you're right. I'm a damn good boyfriend, and I shouldn't settle for less!!! Thanks for the pep talk, Chels.
Then I read Scott's message and got confused again. I don't think we're getting back together, regardless of anything, but we'll see. I'm still willing to be friends with him because he is a good guy, and we both comprised on that before we started our relationship.
Oh, and btw, if you're wondering, I feel a lot better since yesterday. I woke up this morning and I just... felt better. I don't know why. Maybe I just needed some sleep.
I don't regret ever saying I loved him, because I did, and I still do (as friends, of course). I guess I don't really regret this relationship, come to think of it, although the 2 weeks and 5 days is still bothering me.
Ann, this girl that works at the Garden, Kira, seemed to think Liam is a slut when I told her about him. Haha...
~~Aaron
All I can say is, "I'm sorry, and I ask for your forgivness for any sadness or frustration I have caused you." As far as the subject of your message ("Fools like me"), it appears that I was the fool not you. You have nothing to feel foolish about.
Not worthy of such a great person...
your foolish friend,
-Scott Morgan
So that's the message I got back from Scott. I don't understand... is he telling me that he had doubts about our relationship and that conveniently it fills in for his explanation as to why he broke up with me? I don't get it.... things just get more confusing. Hopefully I'll know by tomorrow what he means.
Thanks for your compliments Joanne! Glad to hear you liked my stuff! Btw, there are more songs than just those 4. And also, sorry if my bad singing bothered you. It does that sometimes.
Sounds like you had a jolly good old time in Victoria especially in that garden, and your lottery tickets, Lily.
I read Chelsea's post twice and I realized... yeah, you're right. I'm a damn good boyfriend, and I shouldn't settle for less!!! Thanks for the pep talk, Chels.
Then I read Scott's message and got confused again. I don't think we're getting back together, regardless of anything, but we'll see. I'm still willing to be friends with him because he is a good guy, and we both comprised on that before we started our relationship.
Oh, and btw, if you're wondering, I feel a lot better since yesterday. I woke up this morning and I just... felt better. I don't know why. Maybe I just needed some sleep.
I don't regret ever saying I loved him, because I did, and I still do (as friends, of course). I guess I don't really regret this relationship, come to think of it, although the 2 weeks and 5 days is still bothering me.
Ann, this girl that works at the Garden, Kira, seemed to think Liam is a slut when I told her about him. Haha...
~~Aaron
Monday, August 06, 2007
victoria was really good. No chels we didn't go to the wax museum physically but i would like to say that i went there. I mean, hey, i did see the pamphlet full of waxy figures...i think that's good enough.
i went to butchard gardens. the flowers were pretty...very very much so. the stay was fairly short. we only stayed there for a night. i wished we could have stayed longer. when we went to butchard we saved $12.50 because i said i was youth....so asian.... At the vancouver ferry terminal we bought a lucky 7 lottery ticket and we won $2 so we bought 2 more lucky 7 tixs because they were $1 each and we won again but then we lost the subsequent times. So we're out $1. But we saved $12.50. so woo hoo!
i went to butchard gardens. the flowers were pretty...very very much so. the stay was fairly short. we only stayed there for a night. i wished we could have stayed longer. when we went to butchard we saved $12.50 because i said i was youth....so asian.... At the vancouver ferry terminal we bought a lucky 7 lottery ticket and we won $2 so we bought 2 more lucky 7 tixs because they were $1 each and we won again but then we lost the subsequent times. So we're out $1. But we saved $12.50. so woo hoo!
The parade was fun and all but.. NOW I HAVE TERRIBLE SUN BURN ON MY ARM IT'S SOO PAINFUL!!~ The parade would have been sooooo much better without the disgusting naked men in the end... One of them kept lunging and squatting ugh.
Congrats Chels on your new cellphone. Are you done with school yet?? We have to do something fun~
I just watched this Laura girl on youtube. Bad voice. Bad song. Can't understand what she's saying except "right now." =(
Aarie I listened to the demo yesterday. I can't believe you wrote and composed all those songs. It was done very tastefully. Good job. =)
How was Victoria Lily? I've only been there once long time ago so it would be nice if I could visit again sometime.
Ann did you receive the video I sent you?
Congrats Chels on your new cellphone. Are you done with school yet?? We have to do something fun~
I just watched this Laura girl on youtube. Bad voice. Bad song. Can't understand what she's saying except "right now." =(
Aarie I listened to the demo yesterday. I can't believe you wrote and composed all those songs. It was done very tastefully. Good job. =)
How was Victoria Lily? I've only been there once long time ago so it would be nice if I could visit again sometime.
Ann did you receive the video I sent you?
once in a blue moon
oh aarie... i'm really sorry that you had to have that happen. but i do think that there are definitely other guys worth your time and who will appreciate you more. enjoy being single while you can, because you won't be forever. i kind of miss it :( i'm not saying i would give up dan, but i mean, i kind of wish i could just... go back in time for a while (but stay 18 and going to university) because there are just so many guys that make me go "hmm... i wonder..."
but not for more than a second, of course :P again, i wouldn't give up dan, but i'm just saying. browse while you can. there are a lot of great guys out there (though some not so much...)
anyways, aaron. i'm not trying to be like "good! you broke up!" but i mean... as corny as this sounds, even in my head, try to make the best of this and use it as an opportunity to grow and... reevaluate the situation. was he really good enough? in my personal opinion, no. but that's just me. and i think that you can definitely find someone who will love you so much that he will fight and go out of his way to get to hold on to you; not just let you slip away. in my head, that's just not good enough.
he has to realise that being with you is a privilege, and not just something that can be half-assedly done.
seriously aarie, if during some of our big fights, dan had never put in the effort to argue hard and convince me that he was worth the effort, we wouldn't be together anymore. i mean it. because if the guy doesn't realise what he's walking away from, in my mind, he's an idiot and doesn't deserve me. i guess i look at guys the way lily looks at jobs: very high expectations.
i seriously think that way though, and aarie, in my mind, scott was a moron for letting you go and he doesn't have a clue (YET) what a friggin' stupid mistake he made. i really think it was stupid of him not even to think about what the hell he was doing. i don't think he deserves you, honestly, aarie. he doesn't see what he passed up on, and poo on him.
this is all my opinion only, aarie, of course, so use the information as you like. i just wanted you to know this is how i feel, and i just really wanted to emphasize that it's not okay to settle for less. that goes for all of you!!!
i don't know why, but i seem to have a strong passion for spreading empowerment in relationships and high expectations for guys... but i don't think (for the most part) they're unreasonable. anyways...
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ann: let me do your hair!!! we'll trade irons for a day
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lily: let me know what happens on your trip (are you going to the wax museum? we did. it was lame. i dislike museums greatly)
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joanne: what are you doing now that school's out? keeping busy?
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-chels
but not for more than a second, of course :P again, i wouldn't give up dan, but i'm just saying. browse while you can. there are a lot of great guys out there (though some not so much...)
anyways, aaron. i'm not trying to be like "good! you broke up!" but i mean... as corny as this sounds, even in my head, try to make the best of this and use it as an opportunity to grow and... reevaluate the situation. was he really good enough? in my personal opinion, no. but that's just me. and i think that you can definitely find someone who will love you so much that he will fight and go out of his way to get to hold on to you; not just let you slip away. in my head, that's just not good enough.
he has to realise that being with you is a privilege, and not just something that can be half-assedly done.
seriously aarie, if during some of our big fights, dan had never put in the effort to argue hard and convince me that he was worth the effort, we wouldn't be together anymore. i mean it. because if the guy doesn't realise what he's walking away from, in my mind, he's an idiot and doesn't deserve me. i guess i look at guys the way lily looks at jobs: very high expectations.
i seriously think that way though, and aarie, in my mind, scott was a moron for letting you go and he doesn't have a clue (YET) what a friggin' stupid mistake he made. i really think it was stupid of him not even to think about what the hell he was doing. i don't think he deserves you, honestly, aarie. he doesn't see what he passed up on, and poo on him.
this is all my opinion only, aarie, of course, so use the information as you like. i just wanted you to know this is how i feel, and i just really wanted to emphasize that it's not okay to settle for less. that goes for all of you!!!
i don't know why, but i seem to have a strong passion for spreading empowerment in relationships and high expectations for guys... but i don't think (for the most part) they're unreasonable. anyways...
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ann: let me do your hair!!! we'll trade irons for a day
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lily: let me know what happens on your trip (are you going to the wax museum? we did. it was lame. i dislike museums greatly)
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joanne: what are you doing now that school's out? keeping busy?
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-chels
Sunday, August 05, 2007
hooray
Thanks Lily. Way to pick a good time to tell us how long you and Jon have been going out. I feel way better after my breakup with Scott after we lasted 2 weeks and 5 days.
~~Aaron
~~Aaron
Saturday, August 04, 2007
aaron i'm sorry that you broke up...
btw don't compare my relationship with your's. there really is nothing to compare.
don't be sad and hopefully you'll find some nice guys soon enough.
have fun at the parade.
fyi jon and i have been dating for almost 9 months...
we'lre going to victoria tomorrow so hopefully weather is good.
have fun all of you and good luck on your exams chels and ann.
btw don't compare my relationship with your's. there really is nothing to compare.
don't be sad and hopefully you'll find some nice guys soon enough.
have fun at the parade.
fyi jon and i have been dating for almost 9 months...
we'lre going to victoria tomorrow so hopefully weather is good.
have fun all of you and good luck on your exams chels and ann.
Cloud of confusion
I think something has happened.
I messaged Scott, telling him I had the tiniest glimmer of doubt about him, because I don't know for sure if he was who he says he is, and I had never even had this doubt before some people had told me the old "well, he could always be some 60 year old perverted guy" thing. And the thing is, I guess a small part of me started to believe that, even after knowing Scott for almost 3 months now. So, I felt it was part of my responsibility to be honest with him because we both had told each other not to hold back any possibly offensive things.
I just got a message back from him, telling me he understands the doubt I have, and that maybe it would be best if we would just stick to being friends because when we were friends, we never had that kind of doubt in our minds. It's only now that it's starting to sink in, and I actually understand what he's saying. Maybe it is best, even if what I want best for me is him.
The first thought that popped into my mind was: "Oh... dammit."
Followed by, "Lily and Jon lasted longer than I did. Dammit!"
It's a strange feeling. I'm sad, but also happy because I KNOW we'll still be friends after this. And considering we've officially been together for 2 weeks and 5 days, it makes me really, really, sad.
Wow... I've been dumped, I think.
~~Aaron
I messaged Scott, telling him I had the tiniest glimmer of doubt about him, because I don't know for sure if he was who he says he is, and I had never even had this doubt before some people had told me the old "well, he could always be some 60 year old perverted guy" thing. And the thing is, I guess a small part of me started to believe that, even after knowing Scott for almost 3 months now. So, I felt it was part of my responsibility to be honest with him because we both had told each other not to hold back any possibly offensive things.
I just got a message back from him, telling me he understands the doubt I have, and that maybe it would be best if we would just stick to being friends because when we were friends, we never had that kind of doubt in our minds. It's only now that it's starting to sink in, and I actually understand what he's saying. Maybe it is best, even if what I want best for me is him.
The first thought that popped into my mind was: "Oh... dammit."
Followed by, "Lily and Jon lasted longer than I did. Dammit!"
It's a strange feeling. I'm sad, but also happy because I KNOW we'll still be friends after this. And considering we've officially been together for 2 weeks and 5 days, it makes me really, really, sad.
Wow... I've been dumped, I think.
~~Aaron
Friday, August 03, 2007
i told jon i love him. I'm really happy right now for some WEIRD reason... :D
it was all very good.
have fun studying chels and ann.
i played hooky from work today hopefully i won't get fired.
have fun at pride...i'll be missing a lot but i don't get to spend enough time with johnny...
i'll meet up with you guys another time k?
it was all very good.
have fun studying chels and ann.
i played hooky from work today hopefully i won't get fired.
have fun at pride...i'll be missing a lot but i don't get to spend enough time with johnny...
i'll meet up with you guys another time k?
Righ' now??? Oh god...
Lame.... for watching that vid so many times.
I know why Ann doesn't like Fun Dip. It's funnier if she tells us herself.
Oh, so apparently I might get that job at the gift shop after all. They phoned me about 3 days ago and the manager there told me there might be an opening (she said, "I'm keeping my fingers crossed!") and she asked for my availability. I talked to the operations manager today and she told me that they had been talking about me and that she would really love it if I worked there, which I was really happy to hear. But with school starting soon this month and them advising me not to have a job on the side, I don't know how that will work out.
i feel very productive with my music. I spent a lot of my afternoon making copies of my demo and i'm uploading a video of me performing (in my house). haven't really been writing songs lately but then again, they just come here and there. It's really hard to believe i've been doing this since January, and writing songs since Grade 10.
Well, I hope you have fun in Victoria, Lily, and I hope you have fun studying on Sunday, Chels. It's okay about not coming yesterday, cuz no one really showed up and i didn't get to play because the times were all signed up till 11:00 when I got there at 7:25 so yeah.
I wuv Scott. He's awesome.
~~Aaron
I know why Ann doesn't like Fun Dip. It's funnier if she tells us herself.
Oh, so apparently I might get that job at the gift shop after all. They phoned me about 3 days ago and the manager there told me there might be an opening (she said, "I'm keeping my fingers crossed!") and she asked for my availability. I talked to the operations manager today and she told me that they had been talking about me and that she would really love it if I worked there, which I was really happy to hear. But with school starting soon this month and them advising me not to have a job on the side, I don't know how that will work out.
i feel very productive with my music. I spent a lot of my afternoon making copies of my demo and i'm uploading a video of me performing (in my house). haven't really been writing songs lately but then again, they just come here and there. It's really hard to believe i've been doing this since January, and writing songs since Grade 10.
Well, I hope you have fun in Victoria, Lily, and I hope you have fun studying on Sunday, Chels. It's okay about not coming yesterday, cuz no one really showed up and i didn't get to play because the times were all signed up till 11:00 when I got there at 7:25 so yeah.
I wuv Scott. He's awesome.
~~Aaron
the reason i post so much...
right now is because i'm stuck at home "studying", okay??? i have a life too!!! just not at the moment.
why do you hate dippin' sticks so much, ann? *cowers*
-chels
why do you hate dippin' sticks so much, ann? *cowers*
-chels
Thursday, August 02, 2007
hic-a-doo-la
today i was on the bus and a group of friends (sfu students) were talking about candy and one of them said "you know what's good? those dippin' sticks." WTF??? i wanted to choke her right then and there.
but yeah, that was the highlight of my day...other than my oral presentation, which i thought was abysmal. not that i did poorly, i just didn't wow my audience and i couldn't say "legitimate".
anyway, good to see you again joanne. it seems your comeback stopped the bickering that was plagueing this blog.
ann
(why is there no hot pink for the text colours, these colours are not fun..)
but yeah, that was the highlight of my day...other than my oral presentation, which i thought was abysmal. not that i did poorly, i just didn't wow my audience and i couldn't say "legitimate".
anyway, good to see you again joanne. it seems your comeback stopped the bickering that was plagueing this blog.
ann
(why is there no hot pink for the text colours, these colours are not fun..)
sorry aaron. i was really planning on making your last performance but i felt really sick. i even left work 30 mins earlier. i think i caught the flu because i feel sweaty, i have a pounding head ache, i feel nauseous and i feel cold all at the same time.
i'm not sure if i'm going to work tomorrow. i really need my rest especially for the long weekend.
i'm not sure if i'm going to work tomorrow. i really need my rest especially for the long weekend.
joanne
i'm not sure if this will help but this pharmasave needs people so if you awnt, you should apply to be a pharmacy technician. the hours are m-f 9-6 which is a problem when school starts. so if you can somehow work during most of those hours, then you should apply. if you do, don't say you know me because i don't think that will help...really.
i have a headache. going to eat bye
i'm not sure if this will help but this pharmasave needs people so if you awnt, you should apply to be a pharmacy technician. the hours are m-f 9-6 which is a problem when school starts. so if you can somehow work during most of those hours, then you should apply. if you do, don't say you know me because i don't think that will help...really.
i have a headache. going to eat bye
i think if i watch this a few more times...
i can even nail the hand motions.
oh god, i should study :P
-mystery girl. or aaron.
oh god, i should study :P
-mystery girl. or aaron.
righ' now she's prolly out singin'...
righ' now righ' now righ' now ahhhhhhhh
i swear i'm half of the 495 views she has.
i still can't believe she got in over you and bekki... man. i think i started to push ann over the edge of sanity by singing the "righ' now..." and "I'M drun' " parts a few too many times.
-chels
i swear i'm half of the 495 views she has.
i still can't believe she got in over you and bekki... man. i think i started to push ann over the edge of sanity by singing the "righ' now..." and "I'M drun' " parts a few too many times.
-chels
stars aren't so special
i've never really understood people's fascination with stars and fireworks and other-worldly things. if someone paid lots of money to name a star for me i'd be so annoyed... "why didn't you just give me the money???" i mean, i appreciate the gesture but it's just so... ugh. i don't know a) cliché b) potentially expensive c) enormously abstract, far away, and intangible.
anyways, went to see fireworks yesterday on a boat. it was nice but dan got pretty seasick and i did a little. but then we went to sit on the front of the boat and it was okay. i still don't see what the big deal about fireworks is, though :\ it just... it's nice, but meh. (although i will admit the DISNEYLAND fireworks did impress me, somewhat. i wonder if they spike their lemonade to make everything seem more magical...)
i got all my first term picks! yay! (due in large part to my determination and perseverance in coming online twice a day every day to check ubc student service centre...)
emm... sorry i can't come tonight aarie, i really wanted to/planned to. but i am very back-logged with phys and have a test tomorrow.
i finish school next week!
i hate work. it's getting in the way of everything. i can't wait 'til i have enough money to quit. damn phone plan... i hate my phone. still getting used to it. such horrible interface.
oh yeah, which leads to me saying that i also can't go to the pride parade because i'm WORKING!!!!!!!! even though i was the one who brought it up. i wanted those free undies :( and the memories... like when lily and i threw money into their collection blanket/parachute type thing they were holding out and lily threw a quarter into someone's abs...
stupid work.
arggggh! i think that's all
ann: we should rejoice separately from everyone else as they don't fully understand our suffering with school during the summer...
lily: have fun, let me know how it is. i've always wanted to go for high tea at the empress! (though i don't think i can anymore because the little sandwiches they typically serve at high tea have weird meat slices in it). i'm surprised your mom's okay with it though..? ah well, good anyways.
joanne: i don't know what to say about careers... i don't really have a plan myself. just do what you think is best for yourself. you need to be selfish about that because you're the one who has to live with it.
aarie: sorry i'm missing out... i really do hate it. i would quit right now and everything would be so much better but the practical side is getting the better of me. i don't think i can go camping with britta and matt anymore :( !!! i was looking so much forward to that!!! and the pride parade!!! but i don't want to be using my school savings to pay for my phone bills :( let me know how it is. take pics for me!
-chelsea
anyways, went to see fireworks yesterday on a boat. it was nice but dan got pretty seasick and i did a little. but then we went to sit on the front of the boat and it was okay. i still don't see what the big deal about fireworks is, though :\ it just... it's nice, but meh. (although i will admit the DISNEYLAND fireworks did impress me, somewhat. i wonder if they spike their lemonade to make everything seem more magical...)
i got all my first term picks! yay! (due in large part to my determination and perseverance in coming online twice a day every day to check ubc student service centre...)
emm... sorry i can't come tonight aarie, i really wanted to/planned to. but i am very back-logged with phys and have a test tomorrow.
i finish school next week!
i hate work. it's getting in the way of everything. i can't wait 'til i have enough money to quit. damn phone plan... i hate my phone. still getting used to it. such horrible interface.
oh yeah, which leads to me saying that i also can't go to the pride parade because i'm WORKING!!!!!!!! even though i was the one who brought it up. i wanted those free undies :( and the memories... like when lily and i threw money into their collection blanket/parachute type thing they were holding out and lily threw a quarter into someone's abs...
stupid work.
arggggh! i think that's all
ann: we should rejoice separately from everyone else as they don't fully understand our suffering with school during the summer...
lily: have fun, let me know how it is. i've always wanted to go for high tea at the empress! (though i don't think i can anymore because the little sandwiches they typically serve at high tea have weird meat slices in it). i'm surprised your mom's okay with it though..? ah well, good anyways.
joanne: i don't know what to say about careers... i don't really have a plan myself. just do what you think is best for yourself. you need to be selfish about that because you're the one who has to live with it.
aarie: sorry i'm missing out... i really do hate it. i would quit right now and everything would be so much better but the practical side is getting the better of me. i don't think i can go camping with britta and matt anymore :( !!! i was looking so much forward to that!!! and the pride parade!!! but i don't want to be using my school savings to pay for my phone bills :( let me know how it is. take pics for me!
-chelsea
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Hey thanks for the welcome and the advice. Really appreciate them. So Aaron's having a performance on Thurs? Can I come with? I'm definately going to the parade on Sun. Ann do you wanna bus together if you're coming?
Lily I agree with you that most people choose pharmacy for the money, not really to help people.. That's why I thought abt nursing but, like Aaron said, it is a very stressful job and you have to work long shifts. I've even thought about medical school but the only school I can apply to is UBC b/c all other med schools require 2 semesters of organic chem but UBC doesn't allow students to take those courses unless they're chem/biochem major... Only UBC accepts chem 233 *grumbles* Well anyway, I think I pretty much gave up when I bought this book that has profiles and personal statement essays of med school applicants and found out that even candidates w/ 4.0's and nearly perfect MCAT scores were wait-listed at my dream schools.. *sigh* Everything's way too competitve, isn't it? You can't just do whatever you want..
Anyways, I'm glad that your new job as a technician is working out for you Lily. I've learned a lot at the pharmacy... There are so many people buying anti-fungal creams and lice shampoos, it just makes me want to wash my hands more often after I go out. I've only encountered one customer from hell so far.. Just last week, the pharmacist was asking a patient for his DOB but the guy started shouting his son's birthdate and yelled "EVERYONE KNOWS MY SON'S B-DAY." No, he wasn't retarded.. or was he?
I'm too scared to check if my math mark is up... What if I failed? -_-;; Wish me luck guys..
-Jo
Lily I agree with you that most people choose pharmacy for the money, not really to help people.. That's why I thought abt nursing but, like Aaron said, it is a very stressful job and you have to work long shifts. I've even thought about medical school but the only school I can apply to is UBC b/c all other med schools require 2 semesters of organic chem but UBC doesn't allow students to take those courses unless they're chem/biochem major... Only UBC accepts chem 233 *grumbles* Well anyway, I think I pretty much gave up when I bought this book that has profiles and personal statement essays of med school applicants and found out that even candidates w/ 4.0's and nearly perfect MCAT scores were wait-listed at my dream schools.. *sigh* Everything's way too competitve, isn't it? You can't just do whatever you want..
Anyways, I'm glad that your new job as a technician is working out for you Lily. I've learned a lot at the pharmacy... There are so many people buying anti-fungal creams and lice shampoos, it just makes me want to wash my hands more often after I go out. I've only encountered one customer from hell so far.. Just last week, the pharmacist was asking a patient for his DOB but the guy started shouting his son's birthdate and yelled "EVERYONE KNOWS MY SON'S B-DAY." No, he wasn't retarded.. or was he?
I'm too scared to check if my math mark is up... What if I failed? -_-;; Wish me luck guys..
-Jo
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