(A)Muse

I understand everything now.

Scott broke up with me because he thought I was talking about having doubts in our relationship, and decided that if I did, then it would be best (and logical) to just be friends, which I can understand, but that wasn't what I meant. Anyway, he feels really bad about what happened, I can tell, and I'm just glad that the whole thing is done. I finally know everything.

I really feel fine about it. I can tell he's having a hard time in his life right now, and how this is probably contributing to that, but I still want to be his friend, and I value his friendship greatly. I know some people have bad relations with their exes, but I'm okay, really. He's just... Scott.

Anyway, I'm writing a new song based on that. I wanted to make it a normal piano/vocal, but I just couldn't find the words to express my feelings, and I know songs on this topic have been done countless times, so I decided to finally write another piano instrumental thing. This time I'm actually writing out all the notes on manuscript because 1) I don't think I can memorize the entire thing, and 2) I actually want to write it down. I want to be able to tell people, "I write songs, and I can actually write them down on paper with notes and rests and everything." I want to show myself I can be a real composer, and that I'm more than just a pianist. Anyway, it's coming along well, and it has a classical feel to it, which I love.

To answer your question, Joanne, yeah, I think "Empty" is my favourite song. I definitely think it's my best one, and it's one of the first songs I wrote last year that I actually enjoyed. Have you checked out my myspace page? Which song is your favourite?

Ann: Hmm... yeah, that does sound kinda crappy. They asked you for your passport? Was s/he new on the job or something? What the hell? Maybe you should go to another Electronics Boutique (get it Ann? EB!) store and try returning it again. Also, I guess Liam is "slutty" and you seem to think he's hot... but that doesn't mean he's a bad guy (which I don't think he is) And I thought you wouldn't be able to look past his apparent hotness to tell me not to go for him.

Chels: Good luck on your exams! And also, you didn't phone me!

Lily: What can I say? Good job at cheating the system?

Everyone: Are we still planning on going to PNE? What about Playland?

School starts in 20 days! Wow... weird. I think I'm excited... not for homework, oh god, no.

I saw Elizabethtown yesterday and it sort of reminded me of Scott, 'cuz Orlando Bloom's character (I think they could've chose a better guy than him) goes to Kentucky to get his father's body after he dies. Hmm...

~~Aaron