I think something has happened.
I messaged Scott, telling him I had the tiniest glimmer of doubt about him, because I don't know for sure if he was who he says he is, and I had never even had this doubt before some people had told me the old "well, he could always be some 60 year old perverted guy" thing. And the thing is, I guess a small part of me started to believe that, even after knowing Scott for almost 3 months now. So, I felt it was part of my responsibility to be honest with him because we both had told each other not to hold back any possibly offensive things.
I just got a message back from him, telling me he understands the doubt I have, and that maybe it would be best if we would just stick to being friends because when we were friends, we never had that kind of doubt in our minds. It's only now that it's starting to sink in, and I actually understand what he's saying. Maybe it is best, even if what I want best for me is him.
The first thought that popped into my mind was: "Oh... dammit."
Followed by, "Lily and Jon lasted longer than I did. Dammit!"
It's a strange feeling. I'm sad, but also happy because I KNOW we'll still be friends after this. And considering we've officially been together for 2 weeks and 5 days, it makes me really, really, sad.
Wow... I've been dumped, I think.
~~Aaron
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