dear chels

Yeah, that's part of existentialism. Existentialists also believe that there is no such thing as fate, that humans basically make their own choices. Also, I wouldn't "grieve" if someone lost their job. I mean, it depending on the situation, I don't think I could get very sad if that happened, compared to say, someone dying. You could always look it up at Wikipedia or something... here, I'll include a link: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existentialism

And if soldiers died in Afghanistan, yes I would feel sad because they're heroes. They represented our country, for us, all of us. (Iraq, on the other hand, is a whole different story) And yes, to some people their deaths are now just a statistic; they've become a number in history, and nobody really cares about numbers (except maybe math nerds or something). Most people today don't really feel they can do anything (in reference to the war), and on some levels, they can't, so they won't be able to feel as connected to the whole issue as say, a wife who's husband is now on the front lines. Besides, people today are too caught up about indulging in their petty "lives" (ie. sex, alcohol, drugs, partying, jobs, school, being idiots, etc.) to even have something affect them. It's like I've believed in a while: our society today is basically sexed-up and dumbed-down.

Most people believe what they're doing today matters, because to them, it does matter. They don't think about the future, and when they do, it's still a make-believe world. You can never be sure how it will turn out. Maybe tomorrow we'll all be dead from the giant earthquake that we've been waiting for. Or maybe a giant tsunami will kill us all in 10 years. Will everything that you've been doing have been worth every second? Can you really be proud of how you ran your life?

Let's face it: during your last moments on Earth, you're not going to be thinking about your friggin' Ipod, or some stupid childhood memory, you're going to think about whether or not if was all worthwhile, whether you made somekind of impact on this completely oblivious world or on someone's life (or at least I probably will; i don't know about the rest of you).

If people really believe they were born to do, I don't know, row across the Atlantic Ocean or whatever, well, they're wrong, but I can't impose my belief on them. The only reason any species, (humans, animals, plants, amoebas, etc.) even exist is simply to continue the species. And then people tell me, "Oh, well, isn't everything you're doing completely pointless then?" And the answer is yes, it is, and especially for me, because it makes me pretty irrelevant in terms of the reproduction thing.

Life is like music: You should only listen to it if makes a point or there's somekind of meaning behind it. (ie. Rihanna is utterly a waste of time to even consider. She's just... a very pointless person, and I mean that. She has nothing good to say, at all. And she also made me hate the word "umbrella")

So in response to Lily, no, that's not what I meant. It's a small part, but no. Also, I'm going to mention this again because apparently some people just "skim" and miss it or whatever: could you sign your name on somewhere? I mean, I knew that was you, Lily because of the word "skim", but maybe next time, please?

Also, game night died out because of that thing with you and Annie. Everyone seemed to be too busy or didn't want to come or whatever reason. My games are still in the living room... collecting dust. If you guys are still up for that, then by all means, venez!

OH! I wrote a new song... in French! haha... it's really easy to understand. And hopefully it makes sense (grammatically). I'll post the lyrics up later.

Okay, I think I'm done. Hopefully my response was adequate enough, Chels.

Btw, I phoned the number you gave me for your cell, and it was some weird person who said I had the wrong number. It turns out your wrote 604 as the area code and not 778, so yeah.

~~Aaron