i was busy busy busy all summer with school. now i've got my credits, i'm happy (for once!) with the hard work i put into my studies, and i'm on "summer vacation." so... why do i still have this unsettled feeling? i don't know. i just feel like talking to someone.
good luck on your exam today, btw ann. i doubt you'll read this in time, but i send you all the luck and logic. or math. whatever you need.
but i just feel so... drop in the ocean again. just like, "so what?" i feel like i'm running on my little wheel forever and ever... and i'm just... tired of it.
i worked a 4 hour shift today. it covers about half the money i spent right after. i submitted my tuition form. dan and i made dinner for jeremy and his friends. i bought underwear today-- it was hard to find my size. we bought cds and listened to them. we made pie, baked cookies, watched CSI.
i mean, i have nothing to complain about, but i just feel like there's something i'm missing. it makes me sad looking at all the people i've met and spent good times with (other than you guys) and see how we've drifted. i guess i kind of feel like, what can i count on? i thought we were such good friends, but look at us now! we don't even talk.
i don't know. i really just want to talk to someone... it's not really like i'm depressed or anything; just thinking and kind of lonely (again). i want to call dan but i woke him up with my calls way too often while i was taking summer school and he was way too patient with me.
two days ago, i was tearing apart my room looking for my black sweatshop-free shorts, when i stopped and saw this huge spider... it had thick legs and was very still. i screamed, but no one was home... it didn't matter. i grabbed the phone and called dan. so this will probably sound really stupid, but i was really freaked out. i scooted out of my room and did not want to go back in. the spider's body was the length of half my thumb and it had long, thick legs. i couldn't help myself, but i was so freaked out and annoyed at dan's "chels, it's just a spider, stop being a drama queen" attitude that i burst into tears. i really couldn't help it... he just didn't get it. i couldn't go back into my room to pack for the day trip we had planned for the next morning.
did i mention that it was about 230 in the morning? he said he really wanted me to go with him and his parents to the island the next day though, so he drove over, vacuumed the spider, helped me get my stuff packed, and left. hmm
so yeah. i don't feel like it's okay for me to call him right now, is my point.
anyways, i need to sleep. we're busing to kwantlen: surrey campus tomorrow morning to buy his books
aaron: sorry i never called you. i've been working a lot... i'll explain later. call my cell when you have time. (778!!!)
joanne: how is the family gathering? stressful? any little cousins?
lily: whatcha been up to aside from work?
-chels
ps- random creepy spider pic (this wasn't the type of spider in my room but i couldn't find a pic of one and i got tired of looking at spiders so i just chose this one)
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