i'm handing in my resignation letter today. i'm scared shit not having my own reliable source of income, it's ridiculous. i think one of the few things that make me feel "safe" is knowing i have financial stability. i guess we all have something we need so that we feel in control, and for me, it's a steady income of my own (ie, not from my parents). and leaving this is definitely stepping out of my comfort zone... into an icky, scary unknown area. i'm really scared. dan is super supportive but it's so... what if this is the wrong choice??? is what i keep asking myself. but i do know, deep down, that this is right and everything will be okay. it's going to be good to actually have a weekend to study/do homework and maybe relax sometimes. or see you guys. god, it's ridiculous. i'm so nervous. i hope i don't cry!!! so embarrassing...
anyways, i hope you guys are supportive of my decision. it's taken me forever to make up my mind... hopefully this will open doors for me. i'm just tired of working... i feel like it's restricting me and tying up my availability to the point where i can't do the things i really want to.
ann: when is you mom's christmas party? you totally ditched me last year...
lily: really? you don't see jon??? sounds somewhat doubtful...
aaron: so... how's your love life?
joanne: delicious cookies!!! what are you gonna do now that you're 19? (i know this happened weeks ago, but i forgot to ask...) baaaaailey's. ann's mom liked it, at least... :|
-chels
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