N is for Notwithstanding

To answer some questions:

It didn't feel wrong, I was just very aware, and in general, I'm really, really self-conscious. Was I not supposed to be aware? How does that translate into us not having good chemistry? I just wasn't sure if I should/was supposed to stop what was happening. I didn't know what to do, I guess. After it happened, I didn't see Conor as anything more than just a friend, but then the next day, after much, much thought about what had happened, I guess I sort of did see him differently (and I got an e-mail from him saying that he thinks he likes me that way too). And no, I was not horny. I just wanted to kiss him, is all. And I guess i got that, just maybe a bit more. Would it have bad/wrong for me to ask to kiss him?

So after we talked about things, we came to the conclusion that we should just try and stay friends and keep our hands to ourselves, haha. I'm fine with that, but I don't know. I've sort of always thought my first kiss/sexual experience (in this case, very semi-sexual) would have more importance, you know? Maybe I'm just being too much of a girl here.

And there's more backstory into another encounter that Conor had, but I'm not really in the mood to type it all out (Chels knows about it though).

I think we're a lot closer (I don't know if it was because that incident) and we talked a bunch of times on the phone, which happened all of 3 times before this. Hmm... Conorito (that means "little Conor" in spanish).

Any more questions?

~~Aaron


PS. A reminder that my birthday party will be on Dec. 16th. We have "fun" activities planned...