oh god i'm so exhausted. lately i've been pretty insomniac... i go to sleep around 8-9pm some nights, but 4-5am others. i usually wake up at the same time 6-8am despite whatever time i sleep, so i'm just constantly half dead. what to do?
so sometimes when i can't sleep, i read. or at least i try to. it kind of depresses me though because i've already exhausted my calvin and hobbes collection, so have moved on to novels. unfortunately (perhaps) for me, the novels i have are things like 1984 (Big Brother is watching you) (about a manipulative, controlling, abusive world where government controls the present --and whoever controls the present controls the past, and who controls the past controls the future!!!), the bell jar (suicidal sylvia plath), and beloved (a baby dies and haunts the people in the story; about how you can't run away from your past, basically). not exactly uplifting literature.
then i read about terry fox. did you know that this one guy finished his run (he also had cancer and an amputated leg, i think i remember)? but everyone called him a poser and copycat and he got all depressed and tried to kill himself.
god, isn't the world just dandy?
hmm... any sleeping tips? i don't want to take meds.
the stephen colbert book is the only thing keeping me sane. although it also presents depressing information --just in a non-depressing way.
-chelsea
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