E is for Extraneous

So this coming weekend is the Canadian Idol auditions, hahaha! I'm going with Bekki this year... truth be told, I wasn't totally into it this year, mainly because I think Canadian Idol churns out the same stuff every year. In the highly unlikely case that I would win, I would push not to release that stupid "Canadian Idol" single as my first. Screw that. "Empty" is totally better. I think we're going on Saturday, so that would mean I have Sunday free, but I'm not totally sure.

I don't know if I actually have a real reading break or whatever. We usually get an extra day off when term ends, which is in... two/three more weeks? I can't remember exactly. I should probably check the website and see if we actually have a longer break. I'm betting not though.

Yesterday, I totally crammed to send everything in at the last minute. I think the guy that I was sending to got kinda pissed and confused. I think he's one of those people that don't like hearing excuses, whatever they may be, but then again, I'm sure he's had to put up with a lot of dumb people sending in the wrong things.

The bisexual thing doesn't bother me at all. Kem (short for Kemuel, as I wrongly suspected before) is just a really cool guy and we get along really well. As I said before, we have a lot of things in common, and I find him so... refreshing and relateable (apparently that's not a word, but whatever).

Today marks one week since we met in person. However, I feel like I've known him so much longer. It's kinda weird.

He was over at my house the other day and we watched this Chinese movie called Secret (with Jay Chou, for those who know who he is) and it was pretty good, I must say. Pretty good for a Chinese movie, anyway. Then afterwards, we talked a bit. I asked him what he would label us, because we've never said the word "date" or "dating" nor are we in any kind of relationship. I suggested "testing the waters", which I meant as a joke (stupid Conor and his idiocy. Oh yeah, there are more dumb stories about him -- I think I told Lily and Ann already). He laughed it off and said:

"The person who I'm crazy about."

Uh... wow. I thought that's what he said the first time, and I wasn't sure if that was right, so I asked him to repeat it, and he did. And I was so surprised. Not because we had met each other less than a week (well, that might be a small part) but that a guy really liked me. I don't know, I keep thinking that guys don't like me, so when a guy does like me, it's shocking and everything. Sigh... he's a really nice guy.

I don't know if I really really really like him yet, but I do know that I like him, and I can tell that he really likes me.

Back in high school, there were a couple of guys who I used to feel all bubbly (hate that song, btw) and kinda excited to see (that sounds so naive and dumb), like Sean. And since then, I haven't really been able to feel that way about anyone. Scott... well, not really. I knew I liked him. And Conor, definitely not. So that made me wonder whether or not Kem just doesn't strike me that way, or if I just can't feel like that again, with anyone. Maybe I've been so jaded that I don't get that giddy feeling again? Is that possible? I don't know... and it kinda confuses me, and makes me slightly sad. Sigh... boy troubles. Maybe I'm just over-thinking that stupid feeling. Like always, apparently.

Anyway, he's sick right now. It's too bad I can't go over to his house and make sure he's okay (remember, his mom is REALLY suspicious about guys over and is seeming homophobic).

So what do you guys want to do? Another board game night at my house that has no food in the fridge? (I hate that, by the way. You guys can bring some stuff if you want, hahahahaha) Maybe I'll try and get Kem to come (how about trying to bring Jon again, Lily?), and Ann will know what I mean by "I just wanna squish him".... NOT LIKE TIMBALAND!!! Eww.... Ann!!!!

That's pretty long. I like long though. And it makes me feel good that I can type fast, haha.

See you guys later, I hope!

~~Aaron