lily, that guy you told me to email has not replied... is that bad? i emailed maybe last tuesday morning? or maybe wednesday morning? do you think my email went into his junk mail, possibly? :| kind of concerned.
aaron, i think i can come. i guess friday will be an all day day (moving + listening to aaron's music... oh that agony!!! just kidding). what time, aaron? i guess we'll just meet up (lots) next week? dan's pretty stressed (i think he's writing about 4 essays simultaneously at the moment) and i haven't done any work whatsoever (except yesterday i wrote a quiz) since reading break. and i mean literally and seriously. i have not read any notes, done any practice questions since my midterm exams. i have been sleeping. i'm trying to catch up... but it's hard.
ann, *groan* is it okay if my brother and i visit you either next fri or sat? whichever you prefer. maybe fri is better for me, but whatever.
jo, i told you to check the blog! i hope you are... ehhh...
so i actually successfully went to the doctor on friday. he prescribed me a puffer thing (which actually helped last time i exercised... yesterday? god, all the days blend together when i sleep so much (which has been for maybe a month now). so fricking disorienting. anyways, i also did a blood test, which was really fast. they took three vials and i didn't watch (no way ew... lily!) but i could hear the (nurse?) lady switching from one vial to the next because it would "click!" shut/open/something. anyways it was really fast. my blood seems to run oddly fast (during blood donations, tests). it took less than a minute to fill all the vials, and i want to say less than 30 seconds but i can't say that for sure. but i really think so.
anyways... i'm going to see the doctor again on tuesday to get my results. i had a test for... iron, and i think he said hemoglobin and something about thyroid? i don't really understand the thyroid thing but he said something about that and yeah. i will see. i really hope they find out what's wrong with me... because if not, i guess things won't really change..? :( pretty shitty right now. can't do anything... so tired. i had a dream last night they said that i had... what did he say? he said it in a weird way, but basically he (oh, my doctor, i mean) told me that i had a LOT of iron and that nothing was wrong with me. i was really sad.
oh yeah, and i didn't know kem was closeted! not that that would have affected anything, but i guess either i missed it or you never told me/us. oh well. i don't know, i don't think things would have to change... i guess i really can't say that because i don't know what music faculty is like, but i know that even though lily, joanne, diane, megan, klau, uhhh billy, and so many others go to ubc, i hardly ever see anyone (aside from people i actually have class with... joanne). and by that i mean, if i see them once every term that's frequent (a term is like, 3 or 4ish months? i think? lily, ann? help!). so i guess even if you went to school together, if you guys had a similar experience to me, it's not like you'd have like, all your classes together and it would be super weird or anything. i don't know. what did you have in mind when you said things might change? i mean, it's not like he'd have to ignore you... he can hang out with guy friends on campus. and you can still be gay. just don't make out or anything and Hi think it's okay. (RHYME! A) i don't know. i guess i need to first get what you meant by it "could make things very difficult between us".
and yeah, i don't see anything wrong with talking about coming out (total openness in a relationship is really super important in my eyes... but that's just me!), just as long as you guys try to understand why he hasn't/you have. not everyone is in the same situation so... yeah. as long as your understanding, then i don't see the prob. just don't be like "ahh i'm telling everyone!!!" or something. i don't know. i don't know what i'm talking about. just rambling.
-chels
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