so 'tis the night before The Final Exam. kind of happy, kind of sad; happy because i'm really exhausted and feel like it's a good time to rest but sad because... i don't know. i guess i just second guess myself a lot. i'm just scared of how badly i can screw things up. it's like, i know i have the ability and the power to do this and do it right... but having these opportunities just seems to give me more ways to fail.
sorry, i know that probably sounds really pessimistic, but i'm really not. not at all.
i guess what i'm trying to say is that i believe that there are great opportunities for me and i have a chance to do something i could really love... but then because i want it so much, it scares me how easily i could not have it. and i know nothing comes easy... that's why i have my doubts.
anyways, joanne, that's really really cool in a slightly gross biological way. now if you're ever at a bar or something, you have the ultimate ice breaker... "so yeah... last summer i cut an umbilical cord..." not that i know all the tricks and trades of the bars or anything.
hmm... what else to say? don't know. kind of down. going to volunteer tomorrow for this research thing at sfu harbour centre.
oh yeah lily, what time are we going to swangard (sp)? you and jon are running at 12pm sat and you and i are running at 6pm sat. i think, if i read the schedule correctly.
can't wait till you get back, joanne, and lily and i are done class! yay!
-chels :)
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