hey guys
i don't want to record my voice because i sound manly and i don't like it.
well chels and i are (should be) studying for our final on saturday.
There's just a lot of worries at home over here.
Yesterday, my brother told me he has a lung infection. It really worried because suddenly, the thought of losing him came into my mind and i began to cry. I know that smoking increases your chances but still...i don't want to think about that.
Today, my younger brother has been receiving stupid prank calls from stupid people. It got so bad that at one point, he received 300 text msgs saying he's a loser, he's a fag.
He's also sad because he hasn't been keeping in contact with his friends because of summer school. I think he thinks summer school is for losers (nerds). I'm going to talk to him hopefully soon because he needs to realize that people who do it want to get ahead (or catch up) but nonetheless, those who do go to summer school is focusing on their future.

I'm taking summer school because i want a lighter course load 2nd year and want to save money ($350 actually - a coach purse ha ha).

And I just called home and my mom picked up and i told her that i would like bill to live with me and charles (my other brother who i never talked to about this idea) and she said that she wants to come cause she gets lonely too and that we should just rent a bigger space so we all can live together.
I guess right now, i'm just realizing that we don't have that much time. Although I've always been short for time but now, the focus is on treating my family well because i haven't always.

I'm saddy :(
But after my final and after my road test i'll be able to focus more on that issue and actually do something

have a safe trip ann...and a word of advice, if you don't think it's right, don't do it.

I wanted to go to Edmonton with Jon (i suggested it) and for my birthday he was planning to take me on a road trip to edmonton. I really wanted to go but it's a long drive. I was even thinking about not telling my dad but my brother (charles who i live with told me to get permission), so i lied and said I was going to Calgary. My dad said no to calgary but yes to banff. I was initially going to say that we're going to banff but actually go to edmonton but i really didn't feel comfortable lying.

Mainly because i don't want to put myself in that situation and risk my life on false pretences. Also, i don't want to put my fmaily in a position where something bad does happen and they find out i lied and i'm in the hospital or something (knock on wood). So we're just going to harrison hot springs which is only 3 hours away.


Anyways ann, it's always going to be your choice because if you want to go, no one is stopping you but just take into consideration your family. Just my 2 cents.

Have a safe one though.
And although i may not say this often, Ann, Aaron, Chelsea and Joanne, I'm really glad to have you guys in my life and I wouldn't change my friends (except maybe Aaron--haha jk) if i could. Honestly. I just want to let you know that and if i had thought about it earlier i should have told you before my birthday *wink wink*.
See i can't NOT make jokes because i don't like handling intense situations like this but i mean every word except for the exchanging aaron thing.

anyways i've written enough
talk to you guys later
love
lily!!!