hi aarie. don't really have much to say. just wanted to say hi and indicate that I read your post. I hope dan/you are being less confused/confusing :)
i think the last time i went to vancouver, i was there too long... because now i miss everyone a lot :( i mean, i missed vancouver a bit before, but now i am actually counting the days until i get to move back :) :|
anyhow, thanks aarie and lily for your messages. i am extremely relieved! i will probably crazy busy as i will be "catching up" on the lab courses (so i will be taking two lab courses consecutively for the next two terms :( ) but at least i get to take them :)
but yes, anything new?
chels
ps - almost done all chocolates :| is that gross? hahahaha a couple co-op students helped me though. but mostly it was just me.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Why try to change me now?
CONGRATS!!!! I'm so happy and proud that you got into your major, Chels! Yay!!!!
Thanks for the advice. Things are alright between me and Dan. I think we've settled on just being friends and although things are a little awkward at times between us but it's getting better.
The loneliness is getting better too. By the way, I walk around in my underwear when my sister and mom are home, haha. But yeah, I've been walking around in my boxers, having music on. (I have to keep in mind there are still people downstairs so I can't be crazily loud)
Jeez. That sounds like a lot of chocolate. I think i'd get sick of it after a while... unless they're all different and have different stuff inside, then maybe less. Although there are always gross ones that I wish they wouldn't put in.
I got a call from Chris, the manager of the restaurant at Van Dusen, today. He asked if I wanted to walk one day a week, to spot the woman who works down at the food kiosk, and I said that would be really cool to do. I've been wanting to get a job and start saving money for the future, so this is a great opportunity, even if it's only for a day a week. I'm going in to do some training tomorrow, bright and early at 9:00am.
Ann, if you're reading this, Lily's been wanting to do more exercise and we're going running at the Point Grey track on Monday at 7:30pm, if you're at all interested in joining us.
Gah. Melting from the sun... :(
Aaron
Thanks for the advice. Things are alright between me and Dan. I think we've settled on just being friends and although things are a little awkward at times between us but it's getting better.
The loneliness is getting better too. By the way, I walk around in my underwear when my sister and mom are home, haha. But yeah, I've been walking around in my boxers, having music on. (I have to keep in mind there are still people downstairs so I can't be crazily loud)
Jeez. That sounds like a lot of chocolate. I think i'd get sick of it after a while... unless they're all different and have different stuff inside, then maybe less. Although there are always gross ones that I wish they wouldn't put in.
I got a call from Chris, the manager of the restaurant at Van Dusen, today. He asked if I wanted to walk one day a week, to spot the woman who works down at the food kiosk, and I said that would be really cool to do. I've been wanting to get a job and start saving money for the future, so this is a great opportunity, even if it's only for a day a week. I'm going in to do some training tomorrow, bright and early at 9:00am.
Ann, if you're reading this, Lily's been wanting to do more exercise and we're going running at the Point Grey track on Monday at 7:30pm, if you're at all interested in joining us.
Gah. Melting from the sun... :(
Aaron
Thursday, May 28, 2009
It was nice seeing everyone (except Joanne, who eluded me once again!)
Aarie, I'm sad to hear things are being confusing with Dan :| I know what you mean by being lonely though... Don't forget I lived alone for my first month in Penticton. It was extremely depressing. Having said that, it was also -10 and snowy and 30 mins away from the nearest grocery store... so yeah. Anyhow, you are only alone for a week, plus you still have friends and classmates around, so maybe you should try to hang out on campus or with friends more? You should try to take advantage of the aloneness by playing/making loud music, walking around in undies, and eating all the ice cream in the freezer :) or something. I don't know... Just trying to help :| I know I would totally do the first two! Hahaha
When Maggie and your mom return, you'll have company and things will be as usual, so although you miss their company now, all you can do at the moment is do your best to cope. Right? I think?
So I am going to switch gears just for a second to say two things:
1) so I was going to bring this box of Purdy's chocolates my mom gave me before I left to a potluck on Saturday (I know it's random, but it's kind of a big box for one person)... But I opened it to take a peek today (just to check out the variety! I swear!) and the... white thing (plastic? kind of thing?) that covers the chocolates (the thing under the lid? You know?) was all stuck. When i finally got it off, it turned out that the box must have gotten a bit crushed in my backpack so some chocolates were brutally destroyed :( So I decided it was too ugly to bring to a dinner... So I am going to eat it. Which makes me :) and :( at the same time. But overall slightly more sad... SO much friggin' chocolate!!!
2) I found out I got into the food science major!!!
Oh also, random, I remember that rainbow cake... You have to admit it was pretty awesome crisis aversion :)
The bus ride to Penticton was not as bad as the bus ride to Vancouver because I slept most of the 5.5 hour journey (the ride to Vancouver was 6 hours) as I started work two hours after getting off the bus :P
Aarie, I wish I could give you sound relationship advice, but I doubt I am the person to help as I know nothing about dating. It all seems very complicated to me :( I guess all I can say is, try to clarify what you both want I guess? For sure? Like, he definitely definitely only wants to be friends? Then maybe you should say you were confused because you made out, etc, and maybe you guys can still be friends and just set limits to keep things clear (ie, no making out?).
I don't know, maybe it's just me, but I'm no good when people are not straightforward and honest with me. It is extreeeemely stressful for me to keep guessing how everyone feels, etc, so I usually just ask people directly in order to avoid misunderstandings etc. That's just how I work best with others, including Dan. We are extremely open and if I ever have a question or feel uneasy about something, I am completely comfortable asking/telling him and working with him from there. Perhaps there is some allure to the mystere of a new relationship though? I don't know, I don't know. I honestly don't have a clue as to what I'm talking about anymore. That is my best shot at helping :( I hope it's okay enough to somewhat help a little... I guess what I'm saying is, for me, it would help to clarify what we are both looking for in the relationship (friends or more?) and to set boundaries, if so (if we are going to be friends, we are going to be friends, not booty call mates, etc). But yes, feel free to ignore any/all advice I dispense as it may not be good. Use your best judgement :)
Oh, since you have already had a blood test thing, you are totally prepared to donate blood now, Aarie!!! You can take my place as the stupid people won't let me go anymore >:| even though people need the blood... I get so mad when I read the stupid ads... STOP TELLING ME TO DONATE!!! GAH. Anyhow...
Ummm yep that's about it. The biggest news in my life has been shared (chocolates and food science major!!!). I am seriously still thinking abou the huge amount of chocolate in my fridge... :| I hope you guys are being productive :) and are having good weather. Supposed to hit 30 degrees Celsius here tomorrow :| I will dieeee in the heat this summer :(
-Chelsea
When Maggie and your mom return, you'll have company and things will be as usual, so although you miss their company now, all you can do at the moment is do your best to cope. Right? I think?
So I am going to switch gears just for a second to say two things:
1) so I was going to bring this box of Purdy's chocolates my mom gave me before I left to a potluck on Saturday (I know it's random, but it's kind of a big box for one person)... But I opened it to take a peek today (just to check out the variety! I swear!) and the... white thing (plastic? kind of thing?) that covers the chocolates (the thing under the lid? You know?) was all stuck. When i finally got it off, it turned out that the box must have gotten a bit crushed in my backpack so some chocolates were brutally destroyed :( So I decided it was too ugly to bring to a dinner... So I am going to eat it. Which makes me :) and :( at the same time. But overall slightly more sad... SO much friggin' chocolate!!!
2) I found out I got into the food science major!!!
Oh also, random, I remember that rainbow cake... You have to admit it was pretty awesome crisis aversion :)
The bus ride to Penticton was not as bad as the bus ride to Vancouver because I slept most of the 5.5 hour journey (the ride to Vancouver was 6 hours) as I started work two hours after getting off the bus :P
Aarie, I wish I could give you sound relationship advice, but I doubt I am the person to help as I know nothing about dating. It all seems very complicated to me :( I guess all I can say is, try to clarify what you both want I guess? For sure? Like, he definitely definitely only wants to be friends? Then maybe you should say you were confused because you made out, etc, and maybe you guys can still be friends and just set limits to keep things clear (ie, no making out?).
I don't know, maybe it's just me, but I'm no good when people are not straightforward and honest with me. It is extreeeemely stressful for me to keep guessing how everyone feels, etc, so I usually just ask people directly in order to avoid misunderstandings etc. That's just how I work best with others, including Dan. We are extremely open and if I ever have a question or feel uneasy about something, I am completely comfortable asking/telling him and working with him from there. Perhaps there is some allure to the mystere of a new relationship though? I don't know, I don't know. I honestly don't have a clue as to what I'm talking about anymore. That is my best shot at helping :( I hope it's okay enough to somewhat help a little... I guess what I'm saying is, for me, it would help to clarify what we are both looking for in the relationship (friends or more?) and to set boundaries, if so (if we are going to be friends, we are going to be friends, not booty call mates, etc). But yes, feel free to ignore any/all advice I dispense as it may not be good. Use your best judgement :)
Oh, since you have already had a blood test thing, you are totally prepared to donate blood now, Aarie!!! You can take my place as the stupid people won't let me go anymore >:| even though people need the blood... I get so mad when I read the stupid ads... STOP TELLING ME TO DONATE!!! GAH. Anyhow...
Ummm yep that's about it. The biggest news in my life has been shared (chocolates and food science major!!!). I am seriously still thinking abou the huge amount of chocolate in my fridge... :| I hope you guys are being productive :) and are having good weather. Supposed to hit 30 degrees Celsius here tomorrow :| I will dieeee in the heat this summer :(
-Chelsea
Eeeeemmmmpppptyyyyyy.....
Hey guys,
I'm on my lunch break right now, at the library at school. The internet is really fast, and combined with my quick typing skills, I check my e-mail and get everything done in mere minutes and end up not really having anything else to do. I thought I'd give an update on how things are going.
Hope you got home alright, Chels! How was the bus ride?
Ann, you're still up for hanging out with Denise tomorrow, right? I believe we're meeting at 2:00am at Orange Corner in Kerrisdale (hopefully you know where that is, since you sort of live in Kerrisdale).
Lily, how's the sports day planning going? I'm still up if you are!
Yeah, so things haven't been going so well between me and my Dan. Remember how I have the house to myself for about a week and I invited him to stay over a few nights? I don't think that's gonna happen now.
Long story short, I was talking to him on MSN, telling him about this dream I had about him where he came in my house and started making out with me. And he said (on MSN, not in my dream) "Why am I the initiator?" to which I replied, "Oh, maybe it means something... that you should be or something". And he told me, "I don't want to be the initiator. I don't want to lead you on."
And after that he signed off and we had to continue our conversation via texts. Although we never said we were going anywhere in our relationship other than being friends, I guess I had hoped that we might. Even a small chance was better than nothing, right? Anyway, he reiterated how "We're just friends. What did you think?" which didn't get me as upset as I thought I would be, but it was mainly because we've made out a couple times and at least for me, you don't make out with friends.
So now things are kind of awkward between us, and he hasn't said anything about staying over again. I know he had a midterm yesterday but now... I dunno. I hate this awkwardness and it's mainly me that's awkward but I feel like I can't look at him the same way (obviously) and I have to adjust to only being friends. Sigh...
All this combined with the fact that this week was supposed to be great for me has really pulled me down. When I come home, I'm alone and at first, I thought it wasn't a big deal, since I'm alone a lot anyway, but now I really feel the loneliness now. Even when my mom and sister were at home, I didn't really talk to them all that much but knowing that they were there was comforting in a way that I sort of took for granted. I ended up texting Kem and asking him if he could just talk with me for a bit or even come by for a little while and to my surprise, he actually responded and said he'd see if had any time this week to see me. I really hope I do get to see him but based on experience, I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't show (is that bad of me?)
Oh, and I got tested on Tuesday, which was actually not that bad, especially the part where they poke your arm for blood. I was really, really apprehensive about that, but it was really just a prick. Plus, I didn't look at the actual poking, so as not to be freaked out that there was a thing in my arm. Anyway, it takes about 3 - 4 days and the nurse told me to check-in on Friday to see if they've come in.
Gotta go to my geo lab now. Ugh, math...
Aaron
I'm on my lunch break right now, at the library at school. The internet is really fast, and combined with my quick typing skills, I check my e-mail and get everything done in mere minutes and end up not really having anything else to do. I thought I'd give an update on how things are going.
Hope you got home alright, Chels! How was the bus ride?
Ann, you're still up for hanging out with Denise tomorrow, right? I believe we're meeting at 2:00am at Orange Corner in Kerrisdale (hopefully you know where that is, since you sort of live in Kerrisdale).
Lily, how's the sports day planning going? I'm still up if you are!
Yeah, so things haven't been going so well between me and my Dan. Remember how I have the house to myself for about a week and I invited him to stay over a few nights? I don't think that's gonna happen now.
Long story short, I was talking to him on MSN, telling him about this dream I had about him where he came in my house and started making out with me. And he said (on MSN, not in my dream) "Why am I the initiator?" to which I replied, "Oh, maybe it means something... that you should be or something". And he told me, "I don't want to be the initiator. I don't want to lead you on."
And after that he signed off and we had to continue our conversation via texts. Although we never said we were going anywhere in our relationship other than being friends, I guess I had hoped that we might. Even a small chance was better than nothing, right? Anyway, he reiterated how "We're just friends. What did you think?" which didn't get me as upset as I thought I would be, but it was mainly because we've made out a couple times and at least for me, you don't make out with friends.
So now things are kind of awkward between us, and he hasn't said anything about staying over again. I know he had a midterm yesterday but now... I dunno. I hate this awkwardness and it's mainly me that's awkward but I feel like I can't look at him the same way (obviously) and I have to adjust to only being friends. Sigh...
All this combined with the fact that this week was supposed to be great for me has really pulled me down. When I come home, I'm alone and at first, I thought it wasn't a big deal, since I'm alone a lot anyway, but now I really feel the loneliness now. Even when my mom and sister were at home, I didn't really talk to them all that much but knowing that they were there was comforting in a way that I sort of took for granted. I ended up texting Kem and asking him if he could just talk with me for a bit or even come by for a little while and to my surprise, he actually responded and said he'd see if had any time this week to see me. I really hope I do get to see him but based on experience, I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't show (is that bad of me?)
Oh, and I got tested on Tuesday, which was actually not that bad, especially the part where they poke your arm for blood. I was really, really apprehensive about that, but it was really just a prick. Plus, I didn't look at the actual poking, so as not to be freaked out that there was a thing in my arm. Anyway, it takes about 3 - 4 days and the nurse told me to check-in on Friday to see if they've come in.
Gotta go to my geo lab now. Ugh, math...
Aaron
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Ah... good times....
I was going through my camera (well, my dad's camera) and came across some old pictures of my birthday party last year, and how nostalgic it felt! Anyhoo, I thought I'd post some of the pics here, if anyone wanted to see them too.
Apparently there is already a GSA at Langara. It's called the Gay, Lesbian, or Bisexual at Langara College (GLOBAL). For whatever reason, it's not under the list of clubs I saw. I don't know anything about whether or not it's still functioning or not, but I can probably find out some more info when I go to the Student Union portable tomorrow and ask.
I don't know if I told you guys, but my mom's going away on a one week cruise to Alaska on Saturday with my dad, grandparents, and other relatives. I'm kind of looking forward to having the place somewhat quiet and be independent for once. Maggie also left today for a week -- she's going with Danny and some other friends down the States in an RV, which actually sounds somewhat interesting. You guys can come by if you want too!
That's about it from me. What's everyone up to this weekend?
Aaron
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Reunion!
Hey guys,
So we're meeting tomorrow (Sunday) at my place at 1:30pm. I just got off the phone with Chelsea so she already knows, but for anyone else (Lily, Ann, Joanne) who wants to come by and have a jolly good old time, you are welcome to drop by.
It was really fun working with the same people (with some new people) again, I gotta say. Even though I was/am kinda tired, it was fun.
See you guys tomorrow!
Aaron
So we're meeting tomorrow (Sunday) at my place at 1:30pm. I just got off the phone with Chelsea so she already knows, but for anyone else (Lily, Ann, Joanne) who wants to come by and have a jolly good old time, you are welcome to drop by.
It was really fun working with the same people (with some new people) again, I gotta say. Even though I was/am kinda tired, it was fun.
See you guys tomorrow!
Aaron
OOOhhhhh
Hey Aaron, I thought you meant the total cost of producing all your films and then entering them into film festivals was $30!
-Chels
PS- Call Dan's cell if you need to reach me this weekend! I was working with Aaron this morning and am planning on meet up with him tmr, though the time is TBA. You guys can talk to Aarie and decide when if you want. I am available any time before dinner.
-Chels
PS- Call Dan's cell if you need to reach me this weekend! I was working with Aaron this morning and am planning on meet up with him tmr, though the time is TBA. You guys can talk to Aarie and decide when if you want. I am available any time before dinner.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Not the same city
Good to hear from you again, Ann! Losing your passport in Mexico sounds pretty crazy and dramatic. You'll have to fill us in on all the details some time!
You dropped your phone again? When was the first time? Is it still somewhat operational?
I was on the bus coming back from school today and I realized something was different; the ding that goes off when the robot voice announces the stop (ex. "The next stop is... Cambie Street.") is now more a lower gong sound, like a bigger bell (as opposed to the higher pitched one). It sounds completely stupid, I'm sure, but I like this one better.
Last year, I watched about 4 or 5 movies at the Queer Film Festival and spent around $30 - $35. It's not a gigantic amount by any means (I don't think anyone could spend $300, unless they were to buy huge amounts of popcorn and concession snacks or something). I actually walked out of one of them (the first and only time I've ever walked out of a theatre -- it was THAT boring and bad) and if I get to save a bit of money, I'd rather that than spend more.
Working at Van Dusen tomorrow! Yay!
Aaron
You dropped your phone again? When was the first time? Is it still somewhat operational?
I was on the bus coming back from school today and I realized something was different; the ding that goes off when the robot voice announces the stop (ex. "The next stop is... Cambie Street.") is now more a lower gong sound, like a bigger bell (as opposed to the higher pitched one). It sounds completely stupid, I'm sure, but I like this one better.
Last year, I watched about 4 or 5 movies at the Queer Film Festival and spent around $30 - $35. It's not a gigantic amount by any means (I don't think anyone could spend $300, unless they were to buy huge amounts of popcorn and concession snacks or something). I actually walked out of one of them (the first and only time I've ever walked out of a theatre -- it was THAT boring and bad) and if I get to save a bit of money, I'd rather that than spend more.
Working at Van Dusen tomorrow! Yay!
Aaron
Hey everyone,
I'm glad to hear from y'all. Chels, I'm volunteering in the morning so I can see you in the afternoon. I think it will be hard to get a hold of me because my cell phone is broken. I dropped it again! Actually what happened was that I was walking up my apartment stairs while swinging my hand and my cell slipped out and travelled parabolically in the air and then hit the ground. Jon is trying to fix it but I'll call you if my brothers are still here and have their celly.
Ann...I'm glad you're home.
I have my cousin's wedding to go to on Sat. I'm working at another safeway, on 4th and vine today. I hope all goes well :)
TTYL and see you soon!
I'm glad to hear from y'all. Chels, I'm volunteering in the morning so I can see you in the afternoon. I think it will be hard to get a hold of me because my cell phone is broken. I dropped it again! Actually what happened was that I was walking up my apartment stairs while swinging my hand and my cell slipped out and travelled parabolically in the air and then hit the ground. Jon is trying to fix it but I'll call you if my brothers are still here and have their celly.
Ann...I'm glad you're home.
I have my cousin's wedding to go to on Sat. I'm working at another safeway, on 4th and vine today. I hope all goes well :)
TTYL and see you soon!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
hey guys
i'm so glad to be back in vancouver. the last two weeks was absolutely crazy, not only in terms of being in mexico for the first time or loosing my passport but also seeing how people actually live there and how people's lives can be so different, not necessarily better or worse, from yours. I think in the last 15 days i got to know oliver more than i ever could here in vancouver. saying that, i think taking a trip with jon will definitely be an enriching experience for you lily. However, you should know that your dad can't help but feel that jon is "taking" you away from him and its not personally against jon, he probably wouldn't want any guy to be away with his daughter for 3 months. I think you should let your dad know that you respect how he feels but ultimately the decision is yours because you're an adult. I just want to warn you that having i fight on vacation is pretty horrible.. i've had many these past few weeks which i admit were mostly caused by me loosing my passport. but whether the result is good or bad i think you'll learn alot about jon and how he reacts in different situations which i think is good to know about the person you're with. i'm sure that you are doing a good job at the pharmacy, don't let anyone put you down. i've had alot of conflicts with people at pizza hut, and i'm learning to stand up for myself which is hard for me cause i don't like to be confrontational.
chels i hope you're not too blue.. if you don't like the situation/surroundings its only temporary. you can always come back and surround yourself with people who know you better. do you feel like you've been away from dan and us for too long? i can definitely see you this weekend (or was it the past weekend?) i lost my cell phone so you won't be able to reach me there but you can call my house or post on the blog. and its not miao or anyone's fault if they don't get you, just like you might not know them as they would want you to.
lastly, aaron i can't believe langara doesn't have a GSA club. not that it absolutely has to but there's alot of students and i would think that someone would take the intiative to do it. you should definitely start one. i think in mexico being gay is probably one of the worst things that can happen. when we were at a taqueria (taco place) oliver asked for no meat with his taco and the server person didn't understand and gave him funny looks cause apparently men aren't supposed to be vegetarians. and anyhoo you'll meet alot of people, potentially more connors.. lol, he should be in grade 11 now?
i'll talk you guys later.. hopefully this cell phone business will get taken care of soon and i can call you guys. which reminds me, you'll all have to tell me your cell numbers again :P
ann
i'm so glad to be back in vancouver. the last two weeks was absolutely crazy, not only in terms of being in mexico for the first time or loosing my passport but also seeing how people actually live there and how people's lives can be so different, not necessarily better or worse, from yours. I think in the last 15 days i got to know oliver more than i ever could here in vancouver. saying that, i think taking a trip with jon will definitely be an enriching experience for you lily. However, you should know that your dad can't help but feel that jon is "taking" you away from him and its not personally against jon, he probably wouldn't want any guy to be away with his daughter for 3 months. I think you should let your dad know that you respect how he feels but ultimately the decision is yours because you're an adult. I just want to warn you that having i fight on vacation is pretty horrible.. i've had many these past few weeks which i admit were mostly caused by me loosing my passport. but whether the result is good or bad i think you'll learn alot about jon and how he reacts in different situations which i think is good to know about the person you're with. i'm sure that you are doing a good job at the pharmacy, don't let anyone put you down. i've had alot of conflicts with people at pizza hut, and i'm learning to stand up for myself which is hard for me cause i don't like to be confrontational.
chels i hope you're not too blue.. if you don't like the situation/surroundings its only temporary. you can always come back and surround yourself with people who know you better. do you feel like you've been away from dan and us for too long? i can definitely see you this weekend (or was it the past weekend?) i lost my cell phone so you won't be able to reach me there but you can call my house or post on the blog. and its not miao or anyone's fault if they don't get you, just like you might not know them as they would want you to.
lastly, aaron i can't believe langara doesn't have a GSA club. not that it absolutely has to but there's alot of students and i would think that someone would take the intiative to do it. you should definitely start one. i think in mexico being gay is probably one of the worst things that can happen. when we were at a taqueria (taco place) oliver asked for no meat with his taco and the server person didn't understand and gave him funny looks cause apparently men aren't supposed to be vegetarians. and anyhoo you'll meet alot of people, potentially more connors.. lol, he should be in grade 11 now?
i'll talk you guys later.. hopefully this cell phone business will get taken care of soon and i can call you guys. which reminds me, you'll all have to tell me your cell numbers again :P
ann
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Makes sense
Lily, yeah well I am agreeing with you more than Jon. Not only will respecting your dad's limits make him happier with you, but it will also make a better impression on Jon. Not that Jon needs to break his back trying to wow your family, but I think it would make your lives that much easier in the future if he and your dad got along somewhat.
Think of it from you dad's view: hmm, Lily always respected my boundaries before, but now she's going out with this guy and disobeys me a lot... That guy must be a bad influence.
I don't know, I hope that makes sense.
I am still in a terrible mood. I will probably (hopefully) go for a run in half an hour or so and maybe I will stop being annoying. I am eating a piece of baguette right now so hopefully it will be digested sufficiently by that time.
It's really windy here.
Congratulations of the Queer Film Festival... admission, Aarie! Did you mean $300? Or really $30? Because if it's $30, I don't think you should complain too much... It's honestly not that much money to spend on your films...
Oh, and Lily, I asked Aaron to post about this, but I belieeeve we (Aaron and I) are planning on meeting Sunday morning/afternoon. Does that work for you?
Hmmm what else? I don't know, nothing much. Just annoyed and annoying.
Not really excited but looking forward too going home. I am so sick of the people and places here. And I am not usually one to complain about circumstances such as these, but I am doing so now. I am really annoyed.
Take care,
-Chels
Think of it from you dad's view: hmm, Lily always respected my boundaries before, but now she's going out with this guy and disobeys me a lot... That guy must be a bad influence.
I don't know, I hope that makes sense.
I am still in a terrible mood. I will probably (hopefully) go for a run in half an hour or so and maybe I will stop being annoying. I am eating a piece of baguette right now so hopefully it will be digested sufficiently by that time.
It's really windy here.
Congratulations of the Queer Film Festival... admission, Aarie! Did you mean $300? Or really $30? Because if it's $30, I don't think you should complain too much... It's honestly not that much money to spend on your films...
Oh, and Lily, I asked Aaron to post about this, but I belieeeve we (Aaron and I) are planning on meeting Sunday morning/afternoon. Does that work for you?
Hmmm what else? I don't know, nothing much. Just annoyed and annoying.
Not really excited but looking forward too going home. I am so sick of the people and places here. And I am not usually one to complain about circumstances such as these, but I am doing so now. I am really annoyed.
Take care,
-Chels
Monday, May 11, 2009
Aiyah!
So Jon and I had an argument about our 3 month trip I told you guys earlier. My dad doesn't approve of us going for that long. The longest he'll let me go away is for 3 weeks. Jon doesn't think I should listen to my dad because he hasn't been there for me except financially and that he doesn't know me enough for me to take his advice. Regardless, he still is my dad so I don't want to upset him.
I think 3 weeks is reasonable considering that, in the past, he only let me go away for a few days. It's progressively getting better but Jon doesn't see it that way. We spent 2 hours talking about this. I was getting tired, literally and figuratively.
I told Jon I'll talk to my dad but he doesn't realized that he still is my dad and that my family is different from his. I don't know how it's going to turn out.
Anyways, I got my safeway employee number so I'll get paid this week. WOO HOO!
I counseled on Tylenol 3's today. I forgot to ask a lot of things but the pharmacist guided me through it. It's scary!! But I'm glad I get the opportunity to do it. I still have to do research on allergy meds because that's what i'm learning this week. Hopefully by the end of the week, i'll be an expert! :)
Joanne, I'm working at the Safeway on 4th on Friday from 10-6. When do you work? Maybe we can meet up :)
Have a safe trip home Ann! Don`t bring home no SWINEY Flu!
Aaron, that sounds great. Starting a new club can be a lot of work but I`m sure it`ll be worth it in the end. At least you`ll gain a lot of experience from it. Good luck with the film.
P.S. I don`t know when yàll are meeting this weekend but I have my very FIRST wedding to go to. My cousin is getting married so if yàll are meeting on Sat, then I won`t be able to come. But I would still like to see you chels so give me a call when you come!
MISS YOU ALL!!!
lily
So Jon and I had an argument about our 3 month trip I told you guys earlier. My dad doesn't approve of us going for that long. The longest he'll let me go away is for 3 weeks. Jon doesn't think I should listen to my dad because he hasn't been there for me except financially and that he doesn't know me enough for me to take his advice. Regardless, he still is my dad so I don't want to upset him.
I think 3 weeks is reasonable considering that, in the past, he only let me go away for a few days. It's progressively getting better but Jon doesn't see it that way. We spent 2 hours talking about this. I was getting tired, literally and figuratively.
I told Jon I'll talk to my dad but he doesn't realized that he still is my dad and that my family is different from his. I don't know how it's going to turn out.
Anyways, I got my safeway employee number so I'll get paid this week. WOO HOO!
I counseled on Tylenol 3's today. I forgot to ask a lot of things but the pharmacist guided me through it. It's scary!! But I'm glad I get the opportunity to do it. I still have to do research on allergy meds because that's what i'm learning this week. Hopefully by the end of the week, i'll be an expert! :)
Joanne, I'm working at the Safeway on 4th on Friday from 10-6. When do you work? Maybe we can meet up :)
Have a safe trip home Ann! Don`t bring home no SWINEY Flu!
Aaron, that sounds great. Starting a new club can be a lot of work but I`m sure it`ll be worth it in the end. At least you`ll gain a lot of experience from it. Good luck with the film.
P.S. I don`t know when yàll are meeting this weekend but I have my very FIRST wedding to go to. My cousin is getting married so if yàll are meeting on Sat, then I won`t be able to come. But I would still like to see you chels so give me a call when you come!
MISS YOU ALL!!!
lily
Days turning into hours
Yello folks,
I had my first days at Langara last week, which was interesting. I didn't really get a chance to talk to anyone in depth about anything, but I'm hoping that will change when I go out to get signatures to start a Gay/Straight Alliance. Surprisingly (or not, if you take a list of the clubs at Langara), there isn't one at my school, and I thought I might as well get one started. The main problems I have is 1) not knowing anyone and 2) being unsure if I could run a club, in addition to my courses, my documentary project, and trying to have some sort of social life. The good thing is that I'm really... motivated to do it, so hopefully I'll get those signatures soon.
Good to hear from you, Ann! Have a safe trip home tomorrow! (or today?)
Lily, I agree with Chels. Despite her apology, she seems like a bitch to me. The only thing you can do now is to keep up the great job I know you're doing. Don't let her ignorant comments get to you because quite frankly, it's not worth it to get upset over things you know aren't true. Right?
Sorry to hear you don't feel very good over there, Chels. At least you're coming over here for the weekend! I'm glad you realized it's not your fault that you actually want to get to know people outside of the school they go to; a lot of the conversations I overhear at school are the generic, "How many courses are you taking? Oh, I know that prof. He's cool. I have so much work" etc. Just because you're in school doesn't mean that's the only thing you can relate to someone about. See you soon!!!!
Oh, I almost forgot to mention... my short film I wrote at VFS got into the Vancouver Queer Film Festival! It'll be screening in August, which I am so excited for. I also get a artist's festival pass, which I'm guessing means I get into a bunch of films, which is good because last year I spent close to $30 on films and now I have no job. :( But hooray!
See you all soon!
Aaron
I had my first days at Langara last week, which was interesting. I didn't really get a chance to talk to anyone in depth about anything, but I'm hoping that will change when I go out to get signatures to start a Gay/Straight Alliance. Surprisingly (or not, if you take a list of the clubs at Langara), there isn't one at my school, and I thought I might as well get one started. The main problems I have is 1) not knowing anyone and 2) being unsure if I could run a club, in addition to my courses, my documentary project, and trying to have some sort of social life. The good thing is that I'm really... motivated to do it, so hopefully I'll get those signatures soon.
Good to hear from you, Ann! Have a safe trip home tomorrow! (or today?)
Lily, I agree with Chels. Despite her apology, she seems like a bitch to me. The only thing you can do now is to keep up the great job I know you're doing. Don't let her ignorant comments get to you because quite frankly, it's not worth it to get upset over things you know aren't true. Right?
Sorry to hear you don't feel very good over there, Chels. At least you're coming over here for the weekend! I'm glad you realized it's not your fault that you actually want to get to know people outside of the school they go to; a lot of the conversations I overhear at school are the generic, "How many courses are you taking? Oh, I know that prof. He's cool. I have so much work" etc. Just because you're in school doesn't mean that's the only thing you can relate to someone about. See you soon!!!!
Oh, I almost forgot to mention... my short film I wrote at VFS got into the Vancouver Queer Film Festival! It'll be screening in August, which I am so excited for. I also get a artist's festival pass, which I'm guessing means I get into a bunch of films, which is good because last year I spent close to $30 on films and now I have no job. :( But hooray!
See you all soon!
Aaron
Saturday, May 09, 2009
Hey Chels,
I hope you're feeling better now. I don't think you should change yourself ever for someone else. But I guess you need to just be more aware of the people you talk to. I don't mind talking openly about myself but I realized very early on, that people don't care or they don't feel comfortable talking about that topic. So I thought to myself, why am I putting myself out there for people who just don't give a crap.
So I guess I am different with people I don't know but I feel like I'm more refined than different. You shouldn't feel bad about it.
**HUGS for you :)
I work Monday to Friday but that may change in 2 weeks but it should be that way for next week from 8:30-3:30.
I hope you're feeling better now. I don't think you should change yourself ever for someone else. But I guess you need to just be more aware of the people you talk to. I don't mind talking openly about myself but I realized very early on, that people don't care or they don't feel comfortable talking about that topic. So I thought to myself, why am I putting myself out there for people who just don't give a crap.
So I guess I am different with people I don't know but I feel like I'm more refined than different. You shouldn't feel bad about it.
**HUGS for you :)
I work Monday to Friday but that may change in 2 weeks but it should be that way for next week from 8:30-3:30.
so far away
hey everyone,
first of all, this is going to be a selfish post. just to warn...
i have been so depressed for the past week. i started my new job, and not that it's bad or anything... i don't even know if it's related... there are also like, 30 new co-op/summer students at the research centre (there were only 6 of us in january). i also don't know if that's related. i don't know, i don't know.
anyways, i am really sick of being away from everyone. last night i was crying and talking to dan and i was so so sad... i want to come home. i want to be with the people who really love me for the way i am. i am so sick of the superficiality and everything here. i am tired of people always joking and never being real (i don't mind jokes but i really like to get to know people. behind the jokes...).
so when i was talking to dan, i couldn't even really identify how i felt. i was just upset...
after talking to him for a bit, i realized i felt stupid. i felt like a total idiot and fool. foolish is the best term to describe how i felt, i think. most accurate. anyways, i guess i naturally just... am really open. i am really comfortable with myself and my life and everything in it... and i don't lie. and i am pretty straightforward... and... i guess when other people are not... maybe especially since so many new people came and i am still the same way...
it's just hard. i just feel like no one really cares... i am willing to open up and be accomodating. i want people to feel comfortable with me. actually, all i really really want is for everyone to be happy and get along.. honestly. so when i am open and others just use it to tease me (not that i gave REALLY personal information or anything, but you know..? i don't know, i hope you guys understand), it gets tiring. i mean, i get it at first, and it's fine occasionally, but...
yeah. i just feel really stupid and like... last night, i was getting ready for bed, and i was like, "miao? you know what my problem is? i don't know how to shut up..." and she was like????? and i went to bed and talked to dan.
dan says no one should feel stupid for being themselves and if people are not used to it, it's their problem, not mine. but i still feel like an idiot. i don't know what else to say or do.
i just want to stay home and drown in self-pity. but another part of me gets annoyed at the first part of me for being so pathetic.
so overall, i just feel crappy...
i don't know what to do... i wish i could just shut up. i talk too much. i ask too many questions. and i care too much about how people feel.
lily, honestly, i know you are doing the job the best you can do. if your coworker is going to be immature and closed-minded (oh, she's only worked for 3 days? lily must suck at her job), then screw her. you have some experience doing this kind of thing, and although there are tons of new things to learn, you will get the hang of it. i know you, and i know you'll do your job professionally and accurately. what can you do if she thinks you suck? all you can do is be awesome at your job and show her what a douche she is for underestimating you. i am saying this in an encouraging tone, just to clarify. like, GO LILY! SHOW HER YOU WHAT YOU CAN DO!!! if she is not flexible and open to working with new people who are actually trying to learn things, then she has issues and obviously is not willing to help others learning, even though she was once in that position. i think it speaks more of her incompetence (she can't pull a bit of extra weight? she can't take an extra 5 mins out of her day to answer a couple questions? she's been at her job how long and can't handle working with new people??) than anything you do or don't do.
ann, it's good to hear from you! i hope you are having fun!
everyone, i am not sure if i said so already (i think i did) or if i just told aaron (i think i did this too..?), but i will be visiting vancouver next weekend. want to hang out sunday morning/afternoon? when are you working that weekend, lily?
miss you all. no one gets me here...
chels <3
ps- eating ice cream and sitting on a bed with no sheets... miao and i switched bedrooms this morning and my sheets are in the wash...
first of all, this is going to be a selfish post. just to warn...
i have been so depressed for the past week. i started my new job, and not that it's bad or anything... i don't even know if it's related... there are also like, 30 new co-op/summer students at the research centre (there were only 6 of us in january). i also don't know if that's related. i don't know, i don't know.
anyways, i am really sick of being away from everyone. last night i was crying and talking to dan and i was so so sad... i want to come home. i want to be with the people who really love me for the way i am. i am so sick of the superficiality and everything here. i am tired of people always joking and never being real (i don't mind jokes but i really like to get to know people. behind the jokes...).
so when i was talking to dan, i couldn't even really identify how i felt. i was just upset...
after talking to him for a bit, i realized i felt stupid. i felt like a total idiot and fool. foolish is the best term to describe how i felt, i think. most accurate. anyways, i guess i naturally just... am really open. i am really comfortable with myself and my life and everything in it... and i don't lie. and i am pretty straightforward... and... i guess when other people are not... maybe especially since so many new people came and i am still the same way...
it's just hard. i just feel like no one really cares... i am willing to open up and be accomodating. i want people to feel comfortable with me. actually, all i really really want is for everyone to be happy and get along.. honestly. so when i am open and others just use it to tease me (not that i gave REALLY personal information or anything, but you know..? i don't know, i hope you guys understand), it gets tiring. i mean, i get it at first, and it's fine occasionally, but...
yeah. i just feel really stupid and like... last night, i was getting ready for bed, and i was like, "miao? you know what my problem is? i don't know how to shut up..." and she was like????? and i went to bed and talked to dan.
dan says no one should feel stupid for being themselves and if people are not used to it, it's their problem, not mine. but i still feel like an idiot. i don't know what else to say or do.
i just want to stay home and drown in self-pity. but another part of me gets annoyed at the first part of me for being so pathetic.
so overall, i just feel crappy...
i don't know what to do... i wish i could just shut up. i talk too much. i ask too many questions. and i care too much about how people feel.
lily, honestly, i know you are doing the job the best you can do. if your coworker is going to be immature and closed-minded (oh, she's only worked for 3 days? lily must suck at her job), then screw her. you have some experience doing this kind of thing, and although there are tons of new things to learn, you will get the hang of it. i know you, and i know you'll do your job professionally and accurately. what can you do if she thinks you suck? all you can do is be awesome at your job and show her what a douche she is for underestimating you. i am saying this in an encouraging tone, just to clarify. like, GO LILY! SHOW HER YOU WHAT YOU CAN DO!!! if she is not flexible and open to working with new people who are actually trying to learn things, then she has issues and obviously is not willing to help others learning, even though she was once in that position. i think it speaks more of her incompetence (she can't pull a bit of extra weight? she can't take an extra 5 mins out of her day to answer a couple questions? she's been at her job how long and can't handle working with new people??) than anything you do or don't do.
ann, it's good to hear from you! i hope you are having fun!
everyone, i am not sure if i said so already (i think i did) or if i just told aaron (i think i did this too..?), but i will be visiting vancouver next weekend. want to hang out sunday morning/afternoon? when are you working that weekend, lily?
miss you all. no one gets me here...
chels <3
ps- eating ice cream and sitting on a bed with no sheets... miao and i switched bedrooms this morning and my sheets are in the wash...
Thursday, May 07, 2009
Well today will be my 4th day of work. I work 2-9 (closing) tonight whereas the past 3 days, i've worked 8:30-3:30.
The first day was crap because I knew nothing and there were not very nice people. I used the computer to process prescriptions :)
The second day was better because I knew somethings. I learned how to use their cash till (which is surprisingly confusing).
The third day, I learn how to retrieve IVR (rx's from the automated system) and compound a lotion in a mortar and pestle. It was going well when the manager wanted me to work 2-9 which I said I was fine with. But what happened was that the pharmacist I would be with was like "NOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo!" Then I approached the pharmacist and the manager and the manager said "She's good". Then the pharmacist SAID " she's not THAT good". **This is verbatim. FML.
This made me sad but I just went on to pour out methadone into bottles. What could I have said. I just tried to ignore it but it was very hurtful because I thought I was doing very, very well for just being here for 3 days. I can enter and print out rx's accurately. I can compound. I do cash without any trouble and everything else in between. It just makes me sad because I really don't get any feedback from this store. Not like I want them to praise me or anything but even things I can improve on is fine. So I still don't know how much I can do so I ask, even the most obvious questions because I don't know if I should be doing it...you know?
Anyways afterwards, the manager asked if 2 to 9 is okay and that he'll be working with me. I asked him if he was sure he wanted to work with me and he said yes. So it's going to be interesting today. The pharmacist from before kind of apologized in that she was trying to explain her side of the story. Saying that she doesn't think it's fair for me who have only been here for 3 days to suffer her stresses and stuff. And that it's not me. I mean, OBVIOUSLY, i'm not a tech. I don't know all the drugs. There are still things I'm uncomfortable with but gosh...it's my friggin 3rd day. I'm not going to magically transform into a tech.
Anyways so that is that. And I'm going to go for a run.
Talk to you guys later.
The first day was crap because I knew nothing and there were not very nice people. I used the computer to process prescriptions :)
The second day was better because I knew somethings. I learned how to use their cash till (which is surprisingly confusing).
The third day, I learn how to retrieve IVR (rx's from the automated system) and compound a lotion in a mortar and pestle. It was going well when the manager wanted me to work 2-9 which I said I was fine with. But what happened was that the pharmacist I would be with was like "NOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo!" Then I approached the pharmacist and the manager and the manager said "She's good". Then the pharmacist SAID " she's not THAT good". **This is verbatim. FML.
This made me sad but I just went on to pour out methadone into bottles. What could I have said. I just tried to ignore it but it was very hurtful because I thought I was doing very, very well for just being here for 3 days. I can enter and print out rx's accurately. I can compound. I do cash without any trouble and everything else in between. It just makes me sad because I really don't get any feedback from this store. Not like I want them to praise me or anything but even things I can improve on is fine. So I still don't know how much I can do so I ask, even the most obvious questions because I don't know if I should be doing it...you know?
Anyways afterwards, the manager asked if 2 to 9 is okay and that he'll be working with me. I asked him if he was sure he wanted to work with me and he said yes. So it's going to be interesting today. The pharmacist from before kind of apologized in that she was trying to explain her side of the story. Saying that she doesn't think it's fair for me who have only been here for 3 days to suffer her stresses and stuff. And that it's not me. I mean, OBVIOUSLY, i'm not a tech. I don't know all the drugs. There are still things I'm uncomfortable with but gosh...it's my friggin 3rd day. I'm not going to magically transform into a tech.
Anyways so that is that. And I'm going to go for a run.
Talk to you guys later.
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
hey guys!
i am sitting in an internet cafe right now on an island near cancun called Holbox, its so beautiful and warm here and people are suprisingly nice. i hope you guys are all doing okay. so much crazyness has happened to me these few days (not swine flu related) i´ll tell you guys about it when i come back. i can´t talk too much, its costing me pesos by the minute
ann
i am sitting in an internet cafe right now on an island near cancun called Holbox, its so beautiful and warm here and people are suprisingly nice. i hope you guys are all doing okay. so much crazyness has happened to me these few days (not swine flu related) i´ll tell you guys about it when i come back. i can´t talk too much, its costing me pesos by the minute
ann
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